On a whim, I went and got my ears pierced straight to an 8 gauge (4mm diameter). The specific technique with larger piercings like that is to pierce it with a needle one size smaller, and then to shove a taper through the hole (which pinches, oh how it pinches), followed by the glass plugs (only black, not blue) I picked out.

Never thought I'd mess with my ears, as I don't much care for them, but hey. The goal, as it were, is to stretch them to a 6 in three or four months, put some swanky steel (uncolored) eyelets in them, and call it done. The only reason I hadn't pierced straight to a 6 is because they didn't have any damn 6 steel eyelets on hand. Oh well, the plugs look neat. They're clear, save for the very front face, which is black. No pictures for you of my own because I haven't the means, sorry guys.

I about had an orgasm on that poor guy's chair. It feels so good, even the pinching with the taper. I can't stop touching them. *-*;

So besides this (which I did because it was the cheapest out of my projects), I am still planning on getting my two random rings on my left ear a la Shay from Ride (cartilage is more expensive than lobe :\) as well as uber cool venom tongue piercings (lol snail :3) which I have also whimed into wanting done. (Why is everything happening in twos?)

I imagine they will add something nice to pleasuring my bed partners. :D

Like a car crash I can see but I just can't avoid
Like a plane I've been told I never should board
Like a film that's so bad but I've gotta stay til the end

Sometimes I wonder why we have no limits
Everything we do is timed
Just find out who we are

So the contract's over.

Thought I would feel more certain about this, but I'm still just as torn. Well, not really. I mean, I loved it. Honest. It was... nice. There were problems, but yeah, I knew that would happen. And maybe because of those problems, I'm enjoying my freedom right now.

Wondering how this next time around's going to go.

I wanna be your illusion

So I got the job with the awesome family that'll pay me to take their kids all sorts of places and, on top of that, pay for GAS (thank you, universe). They're really neat people, both musicians, crazy kids. Good pay ($12/hr), lots of extra money. I'm pleased with myself, them, and everything.

I've decided to get rats. o_O

And, when they pop a few out, take care of rat bebbies. O_o

Yes, yes, I know. A little nuts. But fun! Very fun. I've had rats before, nobody panic. I will love them muchly. <3 Was thinking about naming them all after Roman gods/goddesses.

Josiah and I are doing wonderfully. All snuggles and kisses and touching. We're talking about a little secrety thing that I've mentioned to few in passing months ago, but never really said much about. Talking, just talking...

O green world
Don't desert me now
Bring me back to fallen town
Where someone is still alive
Fighting for something new in this
When no one needs the heart of me and
I'll get out somewhere other than me before

Things are disjointed like a suicide jumper's limbs.

(Oh, the metaphors.)

Than me before

12th - dye Green Hair's hair, Grind afterwards with him Taisa Ash Aevi(?) Geo(?)
13th - work at 3:30, MSI show at 7:30 with Green Hair because none of you other faggots wanted to go with me
14th - babysitting in Mercer Island at 8:30
15th - work at 9, interview at 6:30

The new Gorillaz is awesome, I must say. Maybe I'd buy it, if I had the money.

O green world
Don't deserve me now
I'm made of you and you of me
But where are we?
Oh no sells to lie
Phone with talk
You stars suppose you
Down when you're in fast
Cause it seems so little to you

Green Hair: want to go to e3? ^_^
Me: :O yes plz
Green Hair: only catch is you have to help me drive down there. free pass though. yes indeed, I said free. oh and another catch. im likely not paying for a hotel for a week. so it'd be in my car ^_^
Me: i.. o_O
Green Hair: however ITS E3!!!111oneeleven
Me: it's in fucking los angeles o_O
Green Hair: ya, we'd have to start driving like saturday or something
Me: i work.
Green Hair: take a week off?
Me: and lose 1/4 of my paycheck for the month!
Green Hair: make pam work or something
Me: hahahahahaahah if everyone paid me back i could skip >:
Green Hair: come with me :<
Me: ughghughfduio;jiadfj :Green Hair: booooothbabes
Me: yeah, brainless ones *eyeroll*
Green Hair: xbox 360
Me: vomit!
Green Hair: pretty polygons
Me: welll.... polygons... :3
Green Hair: teh polys
Me: what pass do we have?
Green Hair: media ^_^ superlime industries, gaming news department
Me: ahahaahahahahahaha
Green Hair: which I plan to invent today ^_^
Me: i always wanted to try that trick <3
Green Hair: im going to make a full site and hax the timestamps, I plan to use it for pax as well + sakuracon etc etc
Me: good thing i'm registered for PAX earlybird stylez, i get a pwetty wristband in the mail so i can just skip right on in :D so, wait, you don't HAVE the passes yet?
Green Hair: well, no
Me: ...have you read the site.
Green Hair: im going to register on-site
Me: and you really think they'll buy it
Green Hair: how would they not? by the time I get there it'll be a legit news site with bunches of articles anyways, all I have to show them is one, the rest are just backup
Me: and what about me
Green Hair: slap yer name on one
Me: i don't have any business cards :x
Green Hair: we're gonna make em, im going all out baby, full forc3
Me: covert operations, kung-fu technique <3
Green Hair: irl styl3
Me: 1337 h4x
Green Hair: t0 t3h m4x
Me: hahahaha omg now i want to go :x

God dammit. >:o

City's breaking down on a camel's back
They just have to go cause they don't hold back
So all you fill the streets
It's appealing to see
You wont get out the county cause you're bad and free

Drinking orange juice I made. Waiting until enough hours minutes seconds have slipped by, enough to allow me to leave for work.

Chipping the blue off my nails. Tapping the tip of a pen against the desk, trying to persuade the last little bit of ink out.

Writing nothing.

Dropping out of school.

You've got a new horizon
It's ephemeral style
A melancholy town where we never smile
And all I wanna hear is the message beep
My dreams, they've got to kiss
Because I don't get sleep
No

I have 51 cents to my name. Such is the way of living with people whose rent you have to cover for one reason or another. Infinite frustration. I already have people frothing at the bit to take their places. Just waiting for this to resolve itself.

Haven't told my mother about school yet. Don't want to, because I really don't know what I'm doing. Going to take some online child development classes or something this summer to raise my GPA so that I might apply to SU or something. I also need to take care of my First Aid/CPR recertifications.

Looking for a job for summer. Someone fucking hire me. Trying to match the film of reality over fantasy, looking for the edges to match up. Want to cook for someone, cooking all the time, baking things that get devoured, splashing olive oil, dexterous. Wish I didn't have to pay for the food, but it's all so fresh. I want to have my hands in their stomachs.

Impossible. More children, more antsy parents who call three times every day. More money, more life, more gasoline, more time, draining, going.

Downloading the new Gorillaz album. Delicious beats feeding that hole in the base of my spine.

Figured out where I'd like a tattoo. As to what the tattoo actually is...

Windmill windmill for the land
Learn forever hand in hand
Take it all in on your stride
It is sticking, falling down

The micro. Zoom in. Close-up. Molecular. See Adrienne vibrate. See Adrienne hum with life. See Adrienne turn in circles. See nothing make any sense anymore.

What do I really want to be doing anyway? Experience and talent across the board. I know I want to write, but really, how am I going to feed myself?

With my own two hands, I suppose. Hands in my own stomach.

Caffeine withdrawl. Suffering. Vision blurring. Very painful.

Sleep now.

Love forever, love is freedom
Let's turn forever you and me
Windmill windmill for the land
Is everybody in?