GREETINGS FROM HELL.

Mehahahah... I don't know. The kids got here today. I ate lunch with Mercedes and Firefly's kids and they're liek... @_@ so cute omg.

Nothing much... to talk about... Everything's been moving so fast I haven't had time to think.

._.

Holy Jesus FUCKING CHRIST DON'T MAKE ME GO BACK TO CAMP I DON'T WANT TO GO.

:|

Who's about to get fucked?

I'M ABOUT TO GET FUCKED.

*runs off laughing*

Blogging with his hands on me.

Mmmm...

(I am on a break from 4pm yesterday to 10am today, so I exploited a few of my resources at camp and here I am at Josiah's house room, really place.)

Most of what happened isn't worth mentioning, except for that Homestar has a blog also and we are buying that shirt that says "I'm blogging this." He actually gets my jokes and says "brb" when leaving the room. XD

Also: Olive lubs me. We were getting ready to leave and go into Rounds Hall for the gay little "everyone talk about the good things that happened today" and she was singing "And I'm freeeee..." and I finished with "freeee baaaalliiiiin'.." Yey for winning points with the other KA's.

This is fucking crazy. Here I am, all dirty and sweaty from camp, and he's like "YAY ADRIENNE YAY~!!" Seriously I haven't had a real shower in like four days, and we were running around ALL DAY giving tours (or in Homestar's and my case, pretending to give tours and sitting at the pinic table on Candy Hill eating sammiches and talking about the one tour we DID do). Then it poured down rain and thundered like mad. THEN we had to work in the kitchen for two hours. Bleeeeeeeh.

Meehee, I'm not in Daisy's temporary crew. :3 Fucking bitch. >:

Olive: ...blah blah blah closing's after this.
Homestar: What's closing?
Rascal: Your mom.

Homestar: Well, now that we're off camp grounds... EAT SHIT!
Rhymer: EAT SHIT!
Hoovooloo: YOUR MOM!
Rhymer: FUCK YOU AAAAAAAALL *flips everyone and everything off*

Little Boy: *pokes at Uncle Wigglebottom's mailbox* What's this?
Kid's Grandfather: That's your cabin.
Homestar and Sawa: >.>
Grandfather: They know about you, your name's on the list. Right? *looks at us*
Homestar and Sawa: Yes. Yes it is.

I've got a million PB messages, I've got a billion staff to talk to, I've got two extremely good friends, one of which is even sleeping ten feet from me for the next two months, and all I can think about is YOU.

*takes her lei off and sets it down* They're partying and I'm talking to you right now, but I still... need you.

I STILL MISS YOU OMG.

I miss you.

._.

Sean: And you were so god damn worried.
Adrienne: I know. Silly me. He's like "How can you possibly think you're ugly?" And I was like ".... *melts*"
Sean: You just had to hear it from HIM before you finally believed it you silly little so and so.

I'll only be updating a few more times before I leave; not more than four, surely. I'm writing out (in ink, on paper, in the new spiral Kyle bought for me) the finalized version of the story no one else but Josiah's read any part of, and I'm getting that to him somehow. Everyone else can read it when I update sometime this summer.

I'm almost done reading The Da Vinci Code. Dan Brown's style of writing is a regurgitation of everyone else's, but the subject matter makes most of it extremely interesting.

Shasters, you need to give me those god damn headphones if you're going to give them to me, otherwise let me go and buy my own before I leave. Jebus.

I got an A+ (as always; everyone lubs my writing) on my last American Lit essay, so that coupled with my vocab quiz spree tomorrow will be the saving grace of my grade in that class. So I'll have a B in there, and I got a B in Psych, and a C- in US History. Everything else is still up in the air. My schedule's fucking packed again, I have no idea how this happened. ._.

My mother's decided to ground me for the rest of the time I'm here, so I can't really do anything but blog from sckool. If anyone wants me to write to them while I'm at work this summer, e-mail me your address. @_@

So, yeah. Shasters is waiting for me. Ja~

While I'm gone, wear your fucking seatbelt plz. :\

BEST. WEEKEND. EVER.

Fivehoursish.

SAWA IS GOING TO BE DEMYSTIFICATIONIFIED AND THEN SOMEONE WILL KNOW WHAT SHE'S LIKE IRL AND REVEAL SECRETS OH NOOOOOO.

Soafraidomgkthx.

D:

LOL... I finally found out what that one song is that I woke up to sometime in April. It was two weeks before Josiah came back and it was like my fucking anthem or something.

tell me all about how things will never go too far
situation normal you're still living in the dark
you don't seem to care that i don't have that much to say
gives you more time to blather on about your boring fucking day

oh my
i don't know why
i really hope you go and die
so i can live here without you
and keep july

i wonder what you're telling her when i am miles away
maybe that i'm screwing someone or i am turning gay
if you said something honest it would have to be a fluke
as all the rest of your bullshit dribbles out of you like puke

anyone that falls for you is one less pain for me
cause that just means they're way too stupid to see you like i see
you treat your friends like crap but still you think my words are crass
if you open your mouth again I'll kick your fucking ass

Very very good song.

/me downloads

Chris: I dated a model.
Sawa: really?
Chris: Yup. She was a lot of eye candy.. Fairly bright. Well, she didn't piss me off.
Sawa: and you are not dating her now?
Chris: No I am not. Do you want to know why?
Sawa: sure
Chris: Because she was raped and murdered by her agent.

I never know when he's being serious.

(Note: This time he was.)

*steals idea from Missa*

Sawa: Omg so much blood D:
Tony: It'd feel like reality TV or something, eh? Screw it.
Sawa: SO MUCH BLOOD COMING OUT OF ME WHERE DO I STORE IT
Tony: o_o why?
Sawa: *punches self in uterus* Three times a year I have my period, and I got it on Tuesday.
Tony: oh. ><
Sawa: It feels like someone pries you open with those clamp things they use to do pap smears with, and then HAS YOU WALK AROUND AS YOUR INSIDES FALL OUT OF THE HOLE. I HATE THIS *stuffs breakfast sand witch into mouth*
Tony: All I have to deal with is losing my common sense every time a pretty girl rubs against me! :D
Sawa: YAY FOR BLOOD LOSS ._. Only mine actually comes out of me. Yours just relocates.
Tony: Yay for already not having enough blood to run 2 heads :D Your pain is worse, and I certainly don't envy you...
Sawa: YOU SHOULD NOT. I want to be male. So bad. So. Very. Bad.
Tony: ...but losing my mind at probably the worst times isn't too great, either
Sawa: No, but better than bleeding out of a hole in your torso.
Tony: I SEE A LITTLE SILHOUETTE-O OF A MAN
Sawa: "I'm sorry Stan, but I just don't trust something that bleeds for five days and doesn't die." WORDS TO LIVE BY
Tony: Not quite. ^^;;;
Sawa: Yes quite.
Tony: ...RIght, you're the one that doesn't bleed for 5 days.
Sawa: No. I'm more like SEVEN TO TEN
Tony: The other girls have made a habit of screwing me over... -_-
Sawa: Fuck girls. Girls are evil witches. Stay away from girls. DOWN WITH GIRLS.
Tony: ......But what about my legacy?
Sawa: DOWN WITH GIRLS
Tony: ...;_; Girls are attractive... and some are smart.. and some are cultured.. and some are fun....
Sawa: DOWN WITH GIRLS

Sawa: DOWN WITH GIRLS
Kelly: *blink*?
Sawa: They're evil witches. Stay away from them.
Kelly: this is new..

Sawa: DOWN WITH GIRLS
Jhoh: Burf. What up.
Sawa: DOWN WITH GIRLS
Jhoh: Okay. :)
Sawa: They're evil witches, stay away from them.
Jhoh: I will then. O_O What is wrong with them though? ;-;
Sawa: They're mean stupid emotional bleeding wenches.
Jhoh: And this is in relation to wut? O_O
Sawa: Just in general. Girls are skanky bitches.
Jhoh: There is nothing that happened that brought this to your attention recently?
Sawa: Nope.
Jhoh: Okay.
Sawa: Just spreading the word.
Jhoh: THE WORD IS LEGS

Sawa: DOWN WITH GIRLS
Justin: wow. long time no see. that's quite the greeting.
Sawa: yes, well one has to make quite an entrance after not speaking for such a long time

Sawa: DOWN WITH GIRLS
Joey: YEAH!!! shit-- wait, no!
Sawa: DOWN. WITH GIRLS. They're evil evil witches. Stay away from them.
Joey: uh, they call that homosexuality
Sawa: I don't mean be gay. You can fap to pictures and videos all you like. And meaningless sex for all! But stay away from girls.
Joey: uh... have you played Enter the Matrix yet? @_@ fun. game.
Sawa: DOWN WITH GIRLS

Sawa: DOWN WITH GIRLS
Vic: UP WITH MINISKIRTS
Sawa: you can fap to pictures and videos all you like. and meaningless sex for all! but stay away from girls, they're evil wenches
Vic: I know it. that's why I beat them :D
Sawa: YAY :D

Josh: hey whats up
Sawa: DOWN WITH GIRLS
Josh: uhh.. ok

Sawa: DOWN WITH GIRLS
Trenton: THATS RIGHT, DOWN WITH GIRLS
Sawa: WOO. crazy wenches they are
Trenton: why pray tell DOWN WITH GIRLS? yes indeed
Sawa: oh, i just thought everyone needed to be informed of how bad girls are
Trenton: with their insistant bickering for this and that
Sawa: exactly, so DOWN WITH GIRLS

And thusly, the anti-clique Down With Girls was born.

Quick post before I go to bed. This song reminds me of Jade so much (and oh, how it's true) that I just might make it some sort of theme song that I play whenever I'm within sight of her. Because I enjoy mocking things that I no longer care for.

back in school they never taught us what we needed to know
like how to deal with despair or someone breakin' your heart
for twelve years I've held it all together,
but a night like this is beggin' to pull me apart
i played it quiet, left you deep in conversation
i felt un-cool and hung out around the kitchen
i remember i kept thinking that I know you never would
and now i know i want to kill you like only a best friend could

everyone's caught onto everything you do
everyone's caught onto

as if it happening wasn't enough
i got to go and write a song just to remind myself how bad it sucked
ignore the sun, covers over my head
wrote a message on my pillow that says "jesse, stay asleep in bed"
just don't apologize, i hope you choke and die
search yourself for something which to hang yourself
they say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven
but they don't tell you what to say
when your whole life has gone to hell

everyone's caught onto everything you do
everyone's caught onto
(and i can't let you let me down again)

so is that what you call a getaway?
tell me what you got away with
cause i've seen more spine on jellyfish
i've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids
have another drink and drive yourself home
i hope there's ice on all the roads
and you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt
and again when your head goes through the windshield

is that what you call tact?
you're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
so let's end this call and end this conversation
and is that what you call a getaway?
tell me what you got away with
cause you left the frays from the ties you severed
when you say, "best friends means friends forever"

is that what you call a getaway?
tell me what you got away with
cause i've seen more spine on jellyfish
i've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids
have another drink and drive yourself home
i hope there's ice on all the roads
and you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt
then when your head goes through the windshield

i can't let you let me down again
everyone's caught onto everything you do

Chris: I wonder if any other animals ever feel a hatred for their own species.
Sawa: i don't think they have the mental capacity to set themselves as far apart as we have
Chris: Like the wolf. The wolf is an intelligent animal. But do they ever hate their own species? No. But, part of that could be because their species isn't full of pathetic uneducated ignorant morons. I can't rule it out.
Sawa: what makes them smart is whether one of them has useful knowledge, i.e. at the very base of everything, how to survive. if someone doesn't know how to survive, they're abandoned. i'm sure they know who's inferior, but they don't tolerate it nor nurture it, and neither does nature. human beings strive to go against the grain of natural occurrence and follow their own path in one massive out of control freight train that will one day, hopefully, destroy our species and let balance return. there are so many of us that should've died that were saved by our own medical advancements gleaned from centuries of killing the planet. even me. i think those people that were going to die should've. there's no room for weakness here. then again, it can be argued that our mental capacity is our instincts and knowledge of survival. perhaps if we were more developed as a whole species, we'd correct our present faults and prevent any more from coming about. but we're dickheads for the time being. complete dickheads.
Chris: Oh yes, definitely. Our survival skill is our ability to produce tools to help us survive. Because we are physically less able to survive in the natural environment than any other creature on the planet. But instead of using those tools like we should, to insure the continuation of our species by providing a balance with nature, we instead try to dominate it. So yeah, we'll die off sooner or later. which is fine by me.
Sawa: yeah, i sure hope so too. i feel so bad about all the shit we do.
Chris: Yeah, we do lots of shit. Stupid shit.

Walked to Gradie's, ducked in just as they were closing and a clone of Robbie whipped me up a vanilla milkshake while he told me not to mind the music, even though I didn't. (It was the sort of techno Robbie enjoys.) He was so thin...

Found out one of the songs I thought was Q and not U (The Fourth Introduction) is actually Faraquet, so I'm on a mission to find their CD with that song on it and buy it. I have good feelings about this one, and whenever I buy a CD, I always make really good choices, so I figure why not. So far the handful of songs by them I can find online are pretty good. (P.S. to Kyle: They remind me of Blood Brothers lyrics-wise and a little in the tone of some of the songs (not the sound though, definitely not), so you might like 'em. I'll let you listen in class tomorrow, see what you think.)

T minus 42 hours. :D

i need you, my witness
to dress this up so bloodless
to numb me and purge me now
of thoughts of blaming you

Woke up late. Got to sckool late. Panicked from French to the end of Chemistry. Ms. Twatring can suck my fucking dick, I am so tired of her. Fuck her and her grading systems and her "if you don't have your packet you're fucked" rules. Thank you, Chelsea, for helping clean up my group's mess and letting me get to class on time, I have to buy you something tomorrow to show my gratitude. The Chemistry presentation went slightly better. Geometry was surreal. (LOL @ Shasters.) Hopped off a bus with a "See you later, kids," and here I am.

He is on his way.

:3

Woke up, went to sckool. Panicked during French, hauled ass up the stairs two at a time right before Psych with the cases of pop my mother delivered at the last moment. Did my book talk in that class. Went to American Lit giddy and feeling some of the weight lifted, and received a moderate assignment along with finishing my essay, which I won't do till tomorrow night. Went to lunch, talked with the group a bit more, went to US History, panicked more. Went to Chemistry, twitched nervously the entire period as Travis' group presented. Went to Geometry and failed the test I forgot we had, also have not done any of the homework for the packet in that class. Right after sckool walked half-mile to bus stop, went to driver's ed for two hours, went straight home and worked a little with the group members that had showed up on time. Alicia and I took my car to fucking COVINGTON to pick up a video we needed. Came back, worked a whole lot more. Took a quick shower.

I have not eaten.

I am still working.

i'm floating down a river
oars freed from their holds long ago
lying face up on the floor of my vessel

My computer restarted itself in the middle of me finishing the Chemistry website. I was put an hour back.

For the record and to refresh myself, I still have to scour the two movies for clips, time my speech, finish my homosexual marriage essay, buy soda for Psych, start my French children's book, and read 300 pages of the dryest techincal psych jargon known to human beings. By tomorrow.

*sighs*

Proud American blog

...Guns next to politics in his blog chalk interests... Well, jingoists sure seem to be American, but American as apple pie? Why the hell not.

I've been doing nothing but staring the next two days down. Everyone in every period jokes about being shot in the face as a gift from God. I don't want to read this book, I don't want to take this final, I don't want to wake up tomorrow morning.

Jesus fuck.

i awake to find no peace of mind

Woke up whipped the digicam out and recorded/directed a short mocking Sailor Moon with Spam and Steph starring. Very goofy morning all tangled up in the sheets looking through the blinds finding clouds and shivering at 63 degrees.

Achingly sad inside.

CTBS (2nd grade): Reading = 93 percentile. Language = 98 percentile. Math = 84 percentile.
CTBS (4th grade): Reading = 81 percentile. Language = 97 percentile. Math = 96 percentile.
CTBS (5th grade): Reading = 97 percentile. Language = 99 percentile. Math = 95 percentile.
CTBS (6th grade): Reading = 93 percentile. Language = 96 percentile. Math = 92 percentile.

First grade comments: Adrienne is an student especially in the area of reading. She enjoys opportunities to read aloud to the class. She is well liked by the other children and is showing good social growth. Adrienne continues to show excellent progress in all areas of the curriculum. She is an outstanding leader and enjoys the responsibility. She is remarkable at reading. I have certainly enjoyed being her teacher.

Second grade comments: Adrienne is a friendly and highly capable student. She has made excellent progress in all areas. Her oral reading is fluent and her comprehension good. her achievement in math is also very good. Computations are quickly and accurately done. Adrienne has shown significant improvement in her ability to stay on task and using her class time wisely. Adrienne continues to grasp concepts taught this year easily. She is a highly capable student however she does not apply herself. She do not make good use of class time; she needs to be reminded frequently to stay on task. In addition, homework assignments are often missing or late. [Recurring theme since the dawn of time. :D] Her written compositions are often incomplete or well below her abilities. Her February book talk is an excellent example of the type of work she is capable of! (Third trimester: If you continue to apply yourself as you have in the past few months, you will receive a great deal of satisfaction from your school experience.)

Fourth grade comments: Adrienne shines at absolutely anything she sets her mind to. She is a skilled critical thinker and can back up her viewpoint when asked. She is also a very strong writer. Her main area for growth is applying herself. I would like to see her reach for enrichment and apply her creative mind to daily work. Has the mental power to think anything anything, and is articulate and pulls together information well. Often reads if given a choice.

Fifth grade comments: Adrienne is an excellent student and likes to do well. I am very pleased with her progress. I am always happy to see her and listen to her thoughtful insight. Adrienne has done an excellent job this year. She is cooperative and helpful. She is ready for sixth grade and should do an outstanding job next year.

In regards to physical strength: 5th grade, First Place out of entire school in sit-ups and pull-ups. 6th grade, Achieved Presidential fitness level in shuttle run and partial curl ups, and National fitness level in sit and reach. (You guys remember that, right?)

Excelled at music anything, most of all steel drums/flute. A's in every music/band class ever taken.

Recommended placement in honors English in 7th grade following special honors testing (Reading: 97 percentile; Language: 99 percentile). Never failed any honors class I ever took. In fact, I have done twice as well in honors classes as opposed to all of my other classes in the same school years. Wondering where the fuck my mother gets off on telling me how much of a fucking failure I am in regards to learning, and telling me she knows I'm not motivated to do work period when I tell her I need to have difficult classes.

All of the information is right here, in my lap, in this folder. And she doesn't care.

I feel cheated.

I see: book on mixed media, strawberry pocky, code red, digicam, chemistry project packet
I need: josiah
I find: my cheeks are like... darkening into some strange form of pseudo-tan
I want: the passage of time to speed up
I wish: i wasn't so stressed
I love: :D
I hate: my mother
I miss: stupid in-jokes between jade and i
I fear: too much to list
I feel: hyper and sticky
I hear: "please welcome from tokyo, japan, denki groove and ten forward!"
I smell: summer
I crave: sugar
I search: through old conversations
I wonder: will i have the strength to take the first step?
I regret: *sighs* i don't know.. nothing, i guess, since i am who i am where i am today because of everything in the past

When was the last time you ...
Smiled?: am smiling
Laughed?: a few minutes ago
Cried?: two nights ago
Bought something?: today: bra + best pants ever
Danced?: earlier today while washing my car
Were sarcastic?: earlier today perhaps
Kissed someone?: shasters, yesterday
Talked to an ex?: um... huh. it's bee awhile, i don't know how long. i hate my exes :D
Watched your favorite movie?: at least two months
Had a nightmare?: last night; being raped, haha, SUPER FLASHBACKS OF FUN. or not.

A Last time for everything.......
Last book you read: fahrenheit 451
Last movie you saw: matrix reloaded prolly
Last song you heard: denki groove - niji (ten forward remix)
Last thing you had to drink: code red
Last time you showered: yesterday night
Last thing you ate: half a burger from wendy's

[[09 Things You're Looking Forward To]]
1. josiah
2. josiah
3. josiah
4. josiah
5. josiah
6. josiah
7. josiah
8. josiah
9. josiah

[[08 Things You Wear Daily]]
1. panties
2. bra
3. contact lenses
4. my spinny rings
5. chinese staircase bracelet, which is falling apart :\
6. words in ink on the back of my hand
7. barrettes (to hold the growing bangs back)
8. ...and that's all

[[07 Things That Annoy You]]
1. people that don't think i'm able to do any given thing
2. not telling me when you do or don't like something. IF YOU DON'T TELL ME NOTHING WILL CHANGE AOIHE;IHujo;ihsfioj
3. all the shit they play on mtv
4. children
5. united states anything
6. "i'm sorry, i just can't stand gay people" and not knowing i'm bisexual
7. blatant sexual advances

[[06 Things You Touch Every Day]]
1. MYSELF
2. the keyboard
3. any number of pens
4. my eva bag
5. my wallet
6. my bed :3

[[05 Things You Do Every Day]]
1. talk to josiah
2. wet my hair down
3. sing
4. read
5. write

[[04 People You'd Want to Spend More Time or Hang out With]]
1. josiah
2. josiah
3. josiah
4. josiah

[[03 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over]]
1. cruel intentions
2. fight club
3. ...cruel intentions

[[02 Of Your Favorite Songs At This Moment]]
1. oasis - don't look back in anger
2. neutral milk hotel - aeroplane over the sea

[[01 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With]]
1. HUH, LET ME THINK FOR A SECOND :O

*. . . W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R . . .*
1) pierce your nose or tongue?: tongue
2) be serious or be funny?: funny
3) drink whole or skim milk?: whole D:

* . . . A R E Y O U . . .*
4) simple or complicated?: Y U GOTTA B SOOO COMPLICATED OMG TAHT'S A AVIRL LAVEGNIEN SONG :O (complicated, btw)

* . . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . . *
5) flowers or angels?: flowers
6) grey or gray?: IT'S GRAY GOD FUCKING DAMMIT AGH AOIHEWF;G;9UJOIJ
7) color or black-and-white photos?: photos period
8) like or love?: lub
9) sunrise or sunset?: both
10) M&Ms or Skittles?: SKITTAKU OMG :O
11) rap or rock?: underground
12) staying up late or waking up early?: staying up
13) TV or radio?: mp3s
15) eating apples or oranges?: both at the same time

* . . . A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y . . . *
16) Do you have a crush?: no
17) Who is it?: yes

* . . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . . *
18) being hot or cold? cold
19) tall members of the opposite?: yes
20) sun or moon?: both at the same time :O
21) emeralds or rubies?: sapphires
22) left or right?: left, the way of the devil :D
23) having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend?: associates
24) sun or rain?: both at the same time
25) vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?: vanilla
26) boys or girls?: josiah
27) green beans or carrots?: both, but never cooked D:
28) low fat or fat free?: low fat

* . . . M I S C E L L A N E O U S . . . *
29) What is your biggest fear in the world?: josiah dying :|
30) Kids or no kids?: NO KIDS EVAR
31) Cat or dog?: kitty
32) Half empty or half full?: halfway to being smashed :D
33) Mustard or ketchup?: ketchup
34) Hard cover books or soft cover books?: depends on the storyline
35) Newspaper or magazine?: newspaper
36) Sandals or sneakers?: depends on what i'm going to be doing
37) Wonder or amazement?: both at the same time
38) Red car or white car?: red
39) Happy and poor or sad and rich?: josiah
40) Singing or dancing?: dancing
41) Hugging or kissing?: kissies
42) Corduroy or plain?: plain
43) Happy or sad?: happy
44) Purple or green?: green

* . . . A B O U T Y O U . . . *
What time is it?: 10:24pm
Full name?: adrienne marie hunter
Nicknames: ANGEL31333 :OOOO
Names and ages of siblings?: vance is 14, spam's 13, steph's 10, darian's 7, matt's 6, TEH END.
Number of candles that appeared on your last birthday cake?: 23095820348329 ^ 45
Date that you regularly blow them out?: september 29th
Pets?: angel and misty and chase and calvin
Height?: 5' 1 1/2"
Eye color?: gray..?
Hair color?: black
Piercings?: ears once, lip in the middle too

* . . . W H A T D O Y O U W A N T . . . *
Where do you want to live?: everywhere
How many kids do you want?: NONE EVAR
Do you want to get married?: NONE EVAR
What kind of job do you want?: writer/philosopher

* . . . W H I C H I S B E T T E R . . . *
2 doors or 4 (on a car)?: three
Coffee or ice cream?: coffee.. i guess
Shampoo or conditioner?: shampoo, down with conditioner
Bridges or tunnels?: tunnels
One pillow or two?: well, with my mattress, i don't need any, but usually one

* . . . F A V O R I T E S . . . *
Salad dressing?: honey dijon
Color of socks?: happy bunny :D
Toothpaste?: BLUE'S CLUES BERRY FLAVOR THAT COMES OUT IN THE SHAPE OF A PAW YSE :D
Food?: macaroni and cheese from the deli in any supermarket
Toothbrush?: um... one that doesn't need batteries to work "properly"
Alcoholic drink?: no favorites yet
Non-alcoholic drink?: mountain dew, shirley temple, anything with massive amounts of sugar really
Character?: devi from i feel sick/jthm i guess

* . . . R A N D O M Q U E S T I O N S . . . *
When was your last hospital check-in?: ...may 19th ._. for, um... stuff i'd rather not bring up..
Where do you see yourself in 10 years?: josiah
Have you ever been convicted of a crime?: not convicted... :D
What do you do most often when you are bored?: art whatever
Name the person that you are friends with that lives the farthest away from you?: emi in japan
Are you open minded?: all the time
Can you be in love with two people at the same time?: it's never happened to me, so i don't know. possibly

Amber: Why's it called "Fahrenheit 451"?
Kyle: ..Uh...
Sawa: That's the degree of combustion for books.
Amber: ...Um. Kay.
Sawa: You know, the temperature that the books catch on fire.
Amber: Oooooh.
Kyle: That's like, as hot at the sun.
Sawa: :O Exactly.
Kyle: That's why you don't see any books on the sun.

<3 Kyle's humor

Sawa: *sees little samples of cheesecakey things in Starbucks* :o *eats one* :O *immediately walks from small sample table to refrigerated section, gets container of cheesecake out and puts it on counter*
Mum: That's not how it works.
Sawa: But did you TRY IT?
Mum: *tries sample* :O ...Just this once.

<3 Cheesecake

And to end the post. To mother: FUCK YOU I HATE YOU SO MUCH BURN IN HELL YOU RAGING BITCH.

I'LL SHOW YOU.

I'LL SHOW YOU WHAT I CAN DO.

YOU WILL NEVER DOUBT MY ABILITES EVER AGAIN.

AND THEN I WILL LEAVE YOU FAR BEHIND.

and it makes me feel so fine
i can't control my brain

HE'S BACK ONLINE YEY

TakeoGeo: No DDR for me. *$#^&#(
Paradox Lain: LEWL
Paradox Lain: JOSIAH FOR ME
Paradox Lain: OH YES
Paradox Lain: OH YES
Paradox Lain: :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
TakeoGeo: HAET. >:

we'll run away together
we'll spend some time forever
we'll never feel bad anymore

...*whispers* You were right, I'm going to enjoy it so very much being at Sealth. But I'll miss you all the same.

I had spaghetti, Hawaiian Punch and Russian tea cakes from today's Music Friday for breakfast. Mmm. :D

Sawa: God, Shasters, why'd you kill the moth?!
Girl: Adrienne, could you not say the Lord's name in vain?
Sawa: *stares at her* ..What did you say?
Girl: It's really uncomfortable for me to hear it.
Shasters: Hear what?
Sawa: God.
Shasters: Oh, God?
Sawa: Yeah, not to take God's name in vain.
Shasters: Oh yeah, she's Mormon. So she can't say God's name and she also can't go out at night or some weird shit like that cause Mormons are allergic to night time.
Girl: We can too...
Shasters: No you can't. You have to walk around with umbrellas and run as fast as you can from the exit of the church to your car.
Sawa: Like "Ready? Okay, RUN!"
Shasters: They're allergic to swearing too, aren't they?
Sawa: Something like that.
Shasters: They don't like too many words. Like, I don't think we should say retard in vain either, I don't like that word.
Sawa: Thou shalt not say retard in vain, God dammit!

We got to fly kites today in Geometry. The whole class marched out to the track/fields with our geometric kites made of ribbon, straws and tissue paper, and promptly broke them all at least once. Everyone was running around sans shoes, throwing water and soaking their shirts/hair. Ninety-two degrees + 80% humidity = FAIL, after all. My group won two of the three awards given out: highest flight and most comical. Highest flight came from one guy I don't know the name of who at the beginning ditched his own group, stole our kite from Alex, and ran away with it.

And most comical, you ask? Guess who won us that award.

Yeah, me.

I thought it'd be a good idea to run as fast as possible past everyone at the water-spraying tube thing along the chain link fence. I managed to hit almost everyone with it, as it never went higher than just above my head, and then, when I turned around and finally realized I hit someone smack in the face with it, was going too fast to stop and fell over flat onto my back. My antics got me candy. :D

Today = win.

"The weekend could still work. I'm doing everything I can, and more. Shame you're not online now, o well... *kisses* talk to yah soon ^.^

Hopefully that brightened up your day, if only a little :D"

*tears of happy*

;_;

<3

Vic: WITH MONEY YOU CAN BUY TOYS... OR SOMETHING "GOOD"
Sawa: LIKE "SEX"
Vic: :O
Sawa: GOOD THING I DON'T HAVE TO PAY FOR MINE :DDDD
Vic: VICTOLY

Sawa: vic imed me :O
Jora: :O it's because you're cool
Sawa: :O I'M ACCEPTED. GOD BLESS US EVERY ONE.
Jora: tee hee

[/forum retard]

MEH. Waste of my LIFE, but I think it looks alright so far.

Tony: Anyway, here's the travel plan. http://www.poyzn.net/~geo/map.jpg
Sawa: fantastico.
Tony: ...It makes sense, right?
Sawa: i.. see we skip africa entirely. why? not only that but the middle east too.
Tony: We can go, I just couldn't think of anything interesting. Middle east = we get shot
Sawa: you = probably right. we can just say we're european. french! or we can say we're from canadia.
Tony: <-- Japanese
Sawa: OH TOTALLY. CUZ U NO U LOOK IT JUILET ;DDD
Tony: mos sexxy japnese evar :D:D
Sawa: u no it omg

i hung around
and i wasted my time there
hoping you'd stop by

Talking to myself out loud while outside during third period reading for class:

NO, ADRIENNE, JOSIAH IS NOT IN THAT HELICOPTER.

Kyle looks at me funny from his perch on the steps.

Wonder where logic went and when it's coming back.

Adrienne: Hey :|
Sean: A-chan, I'm losing it again...
Adrienne: Losing what? :(
Sean: EVERYONE. AGAIN.
Adrienne: NOT ME. :(:(:(
Sean: I don't know that for sure....
Adrienne: Pfft. I'm right here. Forever.
Sean: I had to move away from my home two years ago. I lost all my friends. I made new ones here, and now I'm moving again. Away from them, and away from my family. And I don't know how much time I'll have to come online. I don't want to do this again...
Adrienne: I'll go visit you during my spring break :3 ROAD TRIP WOO
Sean: Heh. Sounds fun.
Adrienne: I'll bring Josiah. And then you can see that he's not bad.
Sean: Heh...Well now you've sucked the fun right out of it. No, no, I'm kidding. I'd actually like to have that peace of mind. Know that you're with a good man, because I may NEVER TALK TO YOU AGAIN...
Adrienne: SO NOT TRUE OMG
Sean: Sorry, I'm having one of those rare episodes.
Adrienne: *latches onto him*
Sean: Mrph. When I get to college, I'm going to marry Kasey, and then buy a house across from you and Josiah, wherever the hell you live, and stay there...
Adrienne: Sounds good to me.

i never felt at ease with anyone but you

That argument ended up being 40 minutes long. What a shitacular morning.

Mum: Have you seen Misty?
Sawa: No. She ran away. She's dead now. Dead like Hobbes. Because you moved here. *slams window shut and lets blinds fall down*

remember that the grass still grows
beneath the snow

Missa: I like the giant bucket thing. very on target.
Sawa: yah. josiah's here and yet he is not. ;_;
Missa: yah... ;-;
Sawa: i don't even know where he is. this sucks so bad omg. ;_;
Missa: ._.

I can't even begin to imagine how fried I'm going to be by the time we're actually able to spend time with each other.

Me: *passes out and sleeps through the entire three days*
Josiah: ._.

when everything around turns blue
just fall asleep and wake when it's all through

So I'll just sit here and bathe my stomach lining in Coke and write. This is so much suck.

[/pity party]

and when i finally wash ashore

Hey, the price of ecstacy is agony, and this is beyond both of those. More waiting to be had? Fine. BRING IT ON.

Tony: ...You know, next time someone says "God Tony, how can you stand that Adrienne?" I'm gonna say "The sex makes it aaaaall worth it."

Best Tony ever.

Ooh, people to take my anger out on. Let the games begin indeed, Tony. ;D

"I didn't really want to touch on this subject, but it's on my mind, and I've don't have much else to say. And I've never said anything before, but now I'm going to. Adrienne needs to just butt out of everyone's affairs. I know her whole goal in life is to make people miserable, but she's done enough to us already, and I'm really sick of seeing my friends get hurt because of that evil wench. No one else seems to care, and ignoring her doesn't appear to be getting us anywhere. I've watched her toy with people's emotions time and time again, and, frankly, I'm thankful she's never bothered to pay any attention to me. No one else may say anything against her, but I will. Given, I probably know the least about her, but I've seen what she's capable of doing. She builds trust and friendships, then breaks them. She gets as close as she can, then hurts them as acutely as possible. She seduces and destroys; she's a succubus. Think what you want, but at least now you know what I think."

LOL OMG HEAHTER UR LIEK A PHSYIC OR SUMTHIN OMG LOLZ. No one asked you what you thought, hun. :D!

He held off on going until his curiosity caved and every fiber of his muscles ached for respite. The silence held stoic against his footsteps. Even the mat's flat surface gave no sign of his weight when he sat down inside the flood of afternoon sun. He could feel his existence slipping away already.

When he opened his eyes, clear-headed and full of serenity, his eyes settled on a pair of hands closing around a moth. In his viscous state of carefree, it took him a moment to realize that there was someone outside attached to those hands, and a loud someone at that.

"Hah! Oh... Wait, come back... No! Come back, moth!" Heels thudded on earth, stamping along the path and back again, and a moth alighted onto the window.

"I've got you now."

The pair of hands returned and slammed against the glass. The moth flit inside the small cave around it, flashing black and blue as its wings beat frantically. It paused in exhaustion, and two fingers plucked the little creature up.

He found himself walking towards the window, the urge to put a face on the moth hunter strong. A pair of eyes peered up over the edge and glanced around before they landed on him. Not knowing what to do, he waved meekly. The voice he had heard was released from a mouth he couldn't see.

"Do you want to see it?"

He nodded.

"Come out then."

It took him only a few seconds to reach the door, and a few more to find a door leading outside. He stepped onto the ground, dirt soft under his bare feet, and came face to face with a girl. She held her hands out, fingers gently cupping the moth.

"I followed it here."

He took a few awkward steps towards her and stared down into her hands.

Did you hear that?

That was the sound of the last beam of sunlight being swallowed up.

Can't even bring myself to breathe right now.

I am going to spend the next half hour crying myself to sleep. I am going to have a ten minute argument with myself in bed tomorrow morning debating whether I should get out or not.

"And Sawa, if you feel so inclined, I'd like to travel with you. Tell me how you feel on a non-sarcastic (for once?) comment and we can talk further on IM or even in-person."

Sounds good to me.

loaded just like a gun
you're the hero that's still unsung

They painted over the window that year.

Not to mimic the sky, but to cover it up. The dull beige of dry sand added undertones of mental hospital to their invasive authoritarianism. It was no longer pleasing to his mind to come here and meditate now that his small window through which he saw her was gone. Normally students weren't allowed in here, but for him they made more than enough exceptions.

Star pupil in every martial art they had to offer. They even let him teach a beginner's course on reflexive concentration. More degrees in more belts than the dojo had ever seen. All of it stopped mattering when he looked out that window for the first time.

His senpai in Jujitsu took him down halls and around corners, talking the entire way about hard work and rewards for those who put forth effort.

"All of the masters in each art here have recognized your strength and will. You have showed us your determination and given us the best you have to offer. We have all decided that you deserve something to keep you balanced and on the path you have chosen."

He realized they had stopped in front of a door that he hadn't noticed before.

"This is the meditation room, used only by the masters of the dojo... until now."

Deftly unlocking the door and gently pulling it into the hallway, the Jujitsu master stepped back to let him look in. The smooth wood floor bore a deep green mat with a square of light pouring down into the center.

"There's a window in here."

"Yes. We wanted to keep the link to nature open as much as possible without interfering with the meditation process."

He could see the pale trunks of birch trees.

"This room is for your use as well, from now on." He handed him the key. "This privilege is our gift to you."

we're born on a different cloud

Highstrung, getting headaches every other day and with impending projects and presentations and finals, my head's going to explode.

Trying.. not to scream...

Tomorrow: Driver's ed (4pm-6pm).
Wednesday: CPR class for work (7pm-10pm).
6/5: Driver's ed (4pm-6pm).
6/6: Nothing due/needing me to be there at a certain time, thank the GODS.
6/7: SATs (8am-12pm?). Observation/drive (3pm-5pm).
6/8: Meeting with History group (12pm-6pm?).
6/9: Random tests/small projects due. Driver's ed.
6/10: More random tests/small projects due. Driver's ed.
6/11: U.S. History hour presentation. Chemistry hour presentation. Skip last period if at all possible.
6/12: Tests/lab final overview/whatever. Driver's ed.
6/13: Josiah. Rage.
6/14: Josiah. Rage.
6/15: Josiah. Rage.
6/16: Finals. Driver's ed.
6/17: Finals. Driver's ed. Drive at 8pm.
6/18: Finals. Drive at 8pm.
6/19: Everything under the sun, as this is the day I leave for Vashon.

So, I apologize for biting your head off if I do, but there are MUCH MORE IMPORTANT THINGS.

Like Josiah, to be honest.

The day produced something perfect in its simplicity.

Now to make something worthy of this sketchbook.

A plea to the forces of cause and effect.

wake from your sleep
the drying of your tears
today we escape
we escape

pack and get dressed
before your father hears us
before all hell breaks loose

breathe
keep breathing
don't lose your nerve
breathe
keep breathing
i can't do this alone

sing us a song
a song to keep us warm
there's such a chill
such a chill

you can laugh
a spineless laugh
we hope your rules and wisdom choke you

now we are one
in everlasting peace
we hope that you choke

PleaseletitworkgethimhereinonepieceIneedhimlikeair.

Sawa: i got us a sketchbook. *peers* ..i'm going to fill it with naked pictures of me. and random cutouts from airplane instruction manuals. and then photocopy everything into a zine so it looks emo. and then leaving all 304209345 pages stapled together in random fashion on tables at the place they have "open mic". and then i will become a cult icon, and everyone will be wondering "who is that crazy emo girl with the nice breasts?" and then you can brag about it because you'll know me, and tell people "yeah, i know crazy emo girl" and they'll ask you so many questions about her, and you can sip your drink smugly and after they settle down tell them "she's a herring" and they'll go "what?" and you'll be like "yeah, she's a fish". and then my fifteen microminutes of fame will be over because my secret's been revealed. i am indeed a fish. *flops around on the ground*
Taisa: *odd look*
Sawa: i was trying to get your attention :|