It's Mistreat Capital Letters Day.
To: Scary Lady That Lives Next Door To Me
From: Me
Subject: wtf?
I didn't just get FOUR hours of sleep after being awake for TWENTY-THREE just to go to the barn to do my Things That The Adult-Persons I Happen To Live With Have Asked Me To Do While They Are Gone AND FIND YOU HAVE ALREADY DONE THEM. This is scary. People that don't live with you aren't supposed to just DO THINGS FOR YOU. You help my family WAY TOO MUCH. Maybe this is just the clash of my anti-socialism and misunderstanding of your Country Mentality, whatever the FUCK that is, but really, I think I'm quite capable of doing something as simple as giving three animals hay. Further, I have no idea if you just fed the horse, or all three of them. THIS CONFUSES ME. If I fucking wake up at 10 am tomorrow and find that you have ALSO done the things I'm required to do then, I will... well, I'll be even more confused, and will just go back to sleep and lodge a complaint when The Adult-Persons I Happen To Live With when They get back.
PLZDIEKTHXBYE.
*passes out*
8.31.2002
Paradox Lain: PRO TIP: don't fall asleep in the shower.
Jellyfish of Sea: The Ring Starring: Naomi Watts, Daveigh Chase, Martin Henderson, Amber Tamblyn, Brian Cox Written By: Ehren Kruger Directed By: Gore Verbenski The Pitch: "It's the scariest movie people will see all year." -Kruger
Paradox Lain: SIN OF ALL SINS
Paradox Lain: WE WILL NEVER SPEAK OF THIS HORRIBLE REMAKE EVER AGAIN
Jellyfish of Sea: It's in Entertainment Weekly, yo.
Paradox Lain: i know.
Paradox Lain: i've known about that faggoty remake ever since they started filming up here
Paradox Lain: it's going to be lame.
Paradox Lain: VERY VERY VERY lame.
Jellyfish of Sea: Oh. Well, are you gonna go see it?
Paradox Lain: yeah.
"What really impressed me is that the ending was not the typical Happy Ever After Syndrome, which when I heard that DreamWorks were doing a remake, was going to be the ending of the movie. It isn't happy, but it is shocking. Director Gore Verbinski has managed to keep the mood from the original Japanese movie and translate it to the American audience. Scott Frank, who wrote the screenplay for Out Of Sight and Minority Report, and Ehren Kruger who wrote Scream 3, Reindeer Games and Arlington Road, managed to write a script that flowed so easily and realistically. Which is the reason as to why this movie is scary. Despite the unbelievable concept, after watching this movie, you believe that it could actually happen..."
.....SCREAM 3?!
*hates america forever*
.....Sadako......*glances behind her*.....My fear defies all logic.......
Jellyfish of Sea: The Ring Starring: Naomi Watts, Daveigh Chase, Martin Henderson, Amber Tamblyn, Brian Cox Written By: Ehren Kruger Directed By: Gore Verbenski The Pitch: "It's the scariest movie people will see all year." -Kruger
Paradox Lain: SIN OF ALL SINS
Paradox Lain: WE WILL NEVER SPEAK OF THIS HORRIBLE REMAKE EVER AGAIN
Jellyfish of Sea: It's in Entertainment Weekly, yo.
Paradox Lain: i know.
Paradox Lain: i've known about that faggoty remake ever since they started filming up here
Paradox Lain: it's going to be lame.
Paradox Lain: VERY VERY VERY lame.
Jellyfish of Sea: Oh. Well, are you gonna go see it?
Paradox Lain: yeah.
"What really impressed me is that the ending was not the typical Happy Ever After Syndrome, which when I heard that DreamWorks were doing a remake, was going to be the ending of the movie. It isn't happy, but it is shocking. Director Gore Verbinski has managed to keep the mood from the original Japanese movie and translate it to the American audience. Scott Frank, who wrote the screenplay for Out Of Sight and Minority Report, and Ehren Kruger who wrote Scream 3, Reindeer Games and Arlington Road, managed to write a script that flowed so easily and realistically. Which is the reason as to why this movie is scary. Despite the unbelievable concept, after watching this movie, you believe that it could actually happen..."
.....SCREAM 3?!
*hates america forever*
.....Sadako......*glances behind her*.....My fear defies all logic.......
9 pm: Mother: "Make sure you go to sleep tonight so you can start getting back into the schedule and aren't so tweaked when school starts and you're running on two hours of sleep." Me: "OKAY, OKAY, gods..."
7 am: Me: "...DAMMIT."
Paradox Lain: THEY'RE WATCHING US THEY'RE IN THE TREES AND THE PUDDLES AND THE CLOUDS AND THEY'RE GOING TO RAIN THEIR LIQUID FIAR DOWN ON OUR DOOMED HEADS S;DIHF;IDFHGSL;BIU ;PEOI KSF;
oOoFarfie: ...
Paradox Lain: i have spent way too much time on the FS forums.
Paradox Lain: *collapses*
oOoFarfie: yes
oOoFarfie: o.o
oOoFarfie: go to bed
Paradox Lain: ...no.
oOoFarfie: school starts Tuesday
Paradox Lain: BLASPHEMER
Paradox Lain: DIE, BLASPHEMER
Paradox Lain: *collapses again*
oOoFarfie: hehehe
oOoFarfie: *backs away cautiously*
Paradox Lain: look at my info ;_;
Paradox Lain: this is how crazy i am.
oOoFarfie: lmao
Paradox Lain: *breaks down* I'M SOOOO ALOOOONEEEEE
oOoFarfie: ....o.o
7 am: Me: "...DAMMIT."
Paradox Lain: THEY'RE WATCHING US THEY'RE IN THE TREES AND THE PUDDLES AND THE CLOUDS AND THEY'RE GOING TO RAIN THEIR LIQUID FIAR DOWN ON OUR DOOMED HEADS S;DIHF;IDFHGSL;BIU ;PEOI KSF;
oOoFarfie: ...
Paradox Lain: i have spent way too much time on the FS forums.
Paradox Lain: *collapses*
oOoFarfie: yes
oOoFarfie: o.o
oOoFarfie: go to bed
Paradox Lain: ...no.
oOoFarfie: school starts Tuesday
Paradox Lain: BLASPHEMER
Paradox Lain: DIE, BLASPHEMER
Paradox Lain: *collapses again*
oOoFarfie: hehehe
oOoFarfie: *backs away cautiously*
Paradox Lain: look at my info ;_;
Paradox Lain: this is how crazy i am.
oOoFarfie: lmao
Paradox Lain: *breaks down* I'M SOOOO ALOOOONEEEEE
oOoFarfie: ....o.o
ETHAN HAWKE'S BOOK IS THE CRAPPIEST PIECE OF CRAP I HAVE EVER HAD THE HORROR OF READING A FEW PAGES OF.
I would've said that sooner, but something just reminded me of it. Bleh. Ugly slipcover. Bad book. BAD. Go back to acting, you putz.
Paradox Lain: Drunk Chris the Vexed has gone nuts.
Paradox Lain: wonderful.
Ophion Of Rage: Nah
Ophion Of Rage: I'm alright
Ophion Of Rage: wow, I'm amazingly bored
Ophion Of Rage: especially since Jen is leaving, damn her to hell.
Ophion Of Rage: and you...are silent.
Ophion Of Rage: and...everyone else...is equally silent
Paradox Lain: *falls to floor*
Paradox Lain: meh
Paradox Lain: so bored... can't bring self to move...
Ophion Of Rage: bad...times.
Paradox Lain: mm hmmmm... *yawns and leans back against the wall*
Ophion Of Rage: **slumps against the wall also**
Paradox Lain: *sighs* life is so.. banal.
Ophion Of Rage: and worthless.
Ophion Of Rage: and...and...and...
Ophion Of Rage: ...
Ophion Of Rage: uh
Ophion Of Rage: grrrahhh various other undesireable things
Paradox Lain: nn.. makes me feel destructive.
Ophion Of Rage: very destructive
Paradox Lain: *nods and lets her eyes drop to the floor* trapped in a box.
Ophion Of Rage: **hovers**...
Ophion Of Rage: I...need...something...to...fucking...do...
Paradox Lain: kill a politician.
Ophion Of Rage: waste of effort...
Heuheuheuheuheuheu......
NickKitsagi: You really want a rebellion or something, don't you?
Paradox Lain: i don't care either way, but i'm rather fond of my freedom.
Paradox Lain: i didn't write that at any rate
NickKitsagi: I know
NickKitsagi: Would you honestly fight for your freedom?
Paradox Lain: definitely.
Paradox Lain: what the hell else do i have?
NickKitsagi: Would you throw your life away for it, and the possibility of others' freedom?
Paradox Lain: what is life without freedom?
NickKitsagi: Even if there is no guarantee for freedom, even if something worse might come along?
Paradox Lain: depends on the situation, then
NickKitsagi: Everyone wants a war. The tactics are different, the outcome is the same.
---
Paradox Lain: ever since seventh grade, i've learned the same god fucking damn things over and over and over. INCLUDING math for me, because i didn't care enough to pass the first three times..
NickKitsagi: Adrienne.
Paradox Lain: they're wasting my intelligence to try and raise the stupid kids to an average level... FEH.
NickKitsagi: I felt that way once.
NickKitsagi: So I stopped doing work
NickKitsagi: That's how I started drawing...
Paradox Lain: it's how i started writing. i had so much free time when i was ignoring the work i had to do in eighth grade, i started writing regularly
NickKitsagi: I enjoy writing, too, y'know.
NickKitsagi: Kinda sets me free. When drawing doesn't sometimes.
NickKitsagi: What about you?
Paradox Lain: i free myself in my writing.
Paradox Lain: and identifying with music lyrics, and books.
Paradox Lain: sometimes i need to scream someone else's words to feel better.
NickKitsagi: Wow
NickKitsagi: You just sounded, like, so wise right there
Paradox Lain: lol
NickKitsagi: I dunno.... maybe it's my imagination... but you actually do seem to be wise to me.
Paradox Lain: who knows :)
NickKitsagi: ^^
NickKitsagi: Well, can I tell you something?
Paradox Lain: sure ^^
NickKitsagi: I dunno about many people, but I think highly of you, Adrienne. You're wise and stuff that I can't think of 'cause I've gone almost 48 hours w/out sleep. ^^
---
NickKitsagi: Question
NickKitsagi: If you don't mind me asking, some might consider it personal, some might not. I don't.
Paradox Lain: i will tell you anything you want to know about me.
[Bonus points if I've ever said that line to you and you actually remember what it's from.]
NickKitsagi: Really? Cool.
NickKitsagi: Outside of family... what's the most important thing to you?
Paradox Lain: i guess... the ability to do what i want, think what i want, go where i want, love who i want. the simple fact that i love something and am able to love it means the most to me, right now.
NickKitsagi: That's sweet.
NickKitsagi: No, really.
NickKitsagi: If I wasn't such a cold-hearted bastard, that would have brought tears to my eyes.
NickKitsagi: Right-frickin'-on, yo
Paradox Lain: lol
Paradox Lain: meh
NickKitsagi: Man, I'm badass.
NickKitsagi: No, I'm just cold and unemotional... damn.
NickKitsagi: What on earth made you want to come visit me?
Paradox Lain: you need help with your drawing.
NickKitsagi: Well, I pretty much can go on my own... you don't have to help.
Paradox Lain: but i am.
NickKitsagi: Adamant, aren't we?
Paradox Lain: when i need to be.
NickKitsagi: A strong spirit can add up to a lot in the end.
Paradox Lain: yep
NickKitsagi: You DO know I was joking about nude posing, right?
Paradox Lain: ......
Paradox Lain: *laughs*
[This is what I do when I thought you were actually serious. I laugh at myself.]
NickKitsagi: Just wanted to clarify that you'll be fully clothed. ^^
Paradox Lain: meh :P
NickKitsagi: Unless you WANT to pose nude, and something's up if you do. o.0
Paradox Lain: lol.. i'll do whatever you need me too ^^
NickKitsagi: Damn... you're lucky I'm such an innocent, nice guy
---
NickKitsagi: See? You need me.
NickKitsagi: I'm useful.
Paradox Lain: lol
Paradox Lain: yes, i need you. I WANT YOU. o.o
NickKitsagi: You wouldn't wanna hurt me.
NickKitsagi: Oh baby, oh baby. *glances around sleepily* Where is my pillow?
Paradox Lain: lol.. no. i don't like hurting people that haven't done anything to me.
NickKitsagi: I'm used to it. Lotsa women want me.
NickKitsagi: Cool
NickKitsagi: I have the perfect time to ask Dad about you visiting, too.
Paradox Lain: yay
NickKitsagi: For Mom's sake.... I can always say James is coming along to make sure my hands stay as far away from you as possible.
Paradox Lain: lol
NickKitsagi: Which... is true.
Paradox Lain: *blushes slightly* er.. heheheh.. ^^;;;
NickKitsagi: Just so long as you two keep away from eachother as well...
Paradox Lain: em... i don't have any attraction whatsoever to him.
Paradox Lain: won't be a problem. i can assure you.
NickKitsagi: I know you won't start trouble
NickKitsagi: I'm the one who'll need to be chained to the wall
Paradox Lain: ............no comment from the submissive masochist over here, oooooh no....
NickKitsagi: Hey, that's for AFTER midnight!
NickKitsagi: j/k
Paradox Lain: meh, who knows ;)
NickKitsagi: Anyway... I shouldn't actually prove to be much of a problem.
NickKitsagi: Hey, don't tempt me
Paradox Lain: i'm just saying... i don't exactly have anything holding me back.
NickKitsagi: ...?
NickKitsagi: Yeah you do
Paradox Lain: like what?
NickKitsagi: My mom's watchful eye
Paradox Lain: pshhhh
NickKitsagi: Oh, and like you'd go after me anyway.
Paradox Lain: as i said, who knows.
NickKitsagi: Yeah...
---
NickKitsagi: Oh, I may have to go to work for a few, nothing big, tho
Paradox Lain: okay
NickKitsagi: You may wake up alone one morning, but maybe not
NickKitsagi: I'll try and stay with you as much as possible
Paradox Lain: okay
Paradox Lain: ^^
NickKitsagi: I know, it's weird being alone in a foreign place.
Paradox Lain: not.. weird. not for me. more like... i feel.. somewhat at home.
Paradox Lain: being away and free.
Paradox Lain: out of my box.
NickKitsagi: You indeed fit in well in many places, huh?
NickKitsagi: oh, and no walking in on me in the shower!
NickKitsagi: Someone made the mistake once...
Paradox Lain: i adapt nicely.. tee hee....
Paradox Lain: really?
Paradox Lain: XD
NickKitsagi: Yeah...
NickKitsagi: I screamed, being a bit younger and far more shy
NickKitsagi: Now I have a new system
Paradox Lain: ah... don't worry, i'll make sure to ;)
NickKitsagi: Fine. Your problem
NickKitsagi: You see mine, I see yours. Trade-off situation
Paradox Lain: fine.
Paradox Lain: :D
NickKitsagi: lol
---
Paradox Lain: i still hate that system with a passion ^^
NickKitsagi: Why?
Paradox Lain: because. it's icky.
[Psh. Some people never lighten up enough for me to be able to make stupid comments like this and get a response like Nick gives me. LIGHTEN UP PEOPLE.]
NickKitsagi: Hey! Maybe the general ones are, but my PS2 is NOT icky!
Paradox Lain: sony sucks ass.
Paradox Lain: the end.
NickKitsagi: Call it icky. See how much I poke you when you come over.
Paradox Lain: good! you need to touch women.
NickKitsagi: That's it.
NickKitsagi: I'm soooo poking you.
Paradox Lain: seems like you don't get much :P
NickKitsagi: I've touched women
NickKitsagi: How much I "get?" None
.
NickKitsagi: SO!?
Paradox Lain: *giggles*
Paradox Lain: you get none. heheheh..
NickKitsagi: And it's not gonna change, either.
NickKitsagi: Why? 'Cause that's my life.
NickKitsagi: The end.
---
Paradox Lain: haven't you ever tried anything with another guy?
NickKitsagi: Nope.
NickKitsagi: Never will.
Paradox Lain: then how the hell do you know?
NickKitsagi: You'd have to kill me.
NickKitsagi: Don't blame me for the way I was born.
NickKitsagi: Gay people have their ways. I have mine.
Paradox Lain: i'm just questioning.
NickKitsagi: And I'm just answering ^^
Paradox Lain: remind me to keep us away from the topic of sexuality. pffft.
---
Paradox Lain: question... Why shouldn't you kill humans?
[Bonus points if you know where this is from. Double bonus points if you know who asked it. Chris' virginity if you know who the certain person was asking this to.]
NickKitsagi: I have no problem killing anyone in self-defense.
Paradox Lain: that didn't answer the question.
NickKitsagi: Hmmm... ok, lemme try and go into smart mode
NickKitsagi: Ok, here we go...
NickKitsagi: Humans consider themselves the master, rather, dominant species on the planet. Because of this fact, we hold ourselves higher than any other organism. If you squash a bug, it's accepted. The stronger species wipes out the inferior ones. However, the goal of a species is to survive. My goal in life is to have a whole buncha sex, scientifically. Therefore, for the species to survive, we mustn't kill eachother. We want bigger numbers.
Paradox Lain: that didn't answer the question.
NickKitsagi: Well, it's a scientific explanation
NickKitsagi: Or are you looking for my personal belief?
Paradox Lain: i'm looking for an answer.
NickKitsagi: For our species to thrive.
NickKitsagi: I shouldn't kill my neighbor because he's my "brother" being a human and all.
Paradox Lain: you'd have to kill a whole lot of us to threaten the survival of the species.
Paradox Lain: he's not your "brother" no more than i'm your "sister".
NickKitsagi: Yeah, well, the way things work, we shouldn't have to worry about survival...
NickKitsagi: Hey, I don't believe this crap
Paradox Lain: so tell me, what's wrong with killing humans?
NickKitsagi: If I killed Tony, would you feel threatened by me?
NickKitsagi: In cold blood
Paradox Lain: no.
Paradox Lain: you don't become a threat until you come after me.
NickKitsagi: Well, there are those who would.
Paradox Lain: most people don't use logic on a daily basis.
NickKitsagi: Some would think 'cause I killed one, I could just kill again on a whim.
Paradox Lain: could, being the key word.
NickKitsagi: Most people are idiots, like me.
NickKitsagi: Could has a strange power. In spite of it being based on chance, it remains in our minds.
Paradox Lain: so? get to an answer.
NickKitsagi: Geez! Don't rush me...
NickKitsagi: Therefore, I would be considered a threat by some. Those threatened people would report me to authorities. For the society to thrive, threats must be eliminated.
NickKitsagi: Keep the people happy.
Paradox Lain: you haven't answered my question.
NickKitsagi: Dammit all.
NickKitsagi: Hold on... I'm thinking. Or do you already have an answer?
Paradox Lain: go past all of the morals, past all of the repercussions, past everything. if you were with someone else in the middle of nowhere, with no one around for miles, and if you killed that person, and buried their body, and could walk away safely knowing no one but you would ever know about it, what's stopping you?
NickKitsagi: Nothing.
NickKitsagi: Nothing stops us from making actions
Paradox Lain: in essence, this answer also serves as the answer to the question what makes us human?
Paradox Lain: nothing.
NickKitsagi: We have no point. Nothing has a point.
Paradox Lain: which is what i've been stuck on.
Paradox Lain: i can't give anything a point knowing it won't last forever.
Paradox Lain: i'm living a pointless existence.
NickKitsagi: Well, technically you have a point whether you like it or not.
Paradox Lain: i may have one to something or someone else, but that isn't a point for me.
NickKitsagi: Have a child and raise it. Continue the species. That's everyone's "point."
Paradox Lain: that's purpose, not point.
NickKitsagi: Scientifically.
NickKitsagi: Point?
Paradox Lain: point. what are you doing for yourself?
NickKitsagi: This is something I, too, ponder. My existence is useless.
Paradox Lain: how do you gain or lose?
NickKitsagi: If I died, it would affect nothing
Paradox Lain: exactly.
Paradox Lain: so... i just do whatever the hell i feel like.
NickKitsagi: Lose? Die before you want to
NickKitsagi: The way I see it is we're all in a big machine, running it.
NickKitsagi: If we die, we have no part in this machine, it will affect nothing.
NickKitsagi: Not me. I'll move to an important place in there.
NickKitsagi: So when I die, it will affect something.
Paradox Lain: pull a lever, push a button. no one understands how what they're doing affects anything, but they do it anyway. even when you die, and everything moves on, you'll soon be forgotten.
Paradox Lain: the people that were alive when you died will die.
NickKitsagi: You forget one thing.
Paradox Lain: what's that?
NickKitsagi: Something that's hard to find the origin of, but happens to be very real.
NickKitsagi: Emotion, feeling.
NickKitsagi: With these, we grant ourselves point.
NickKitsagi: If we ALL die, then our "mission" fails.
NickKitsagi: If you die, it will affect me.
Paradox Lain: chemicals. we use them to give ourselves points.
NickKitsagi: I don't care where it comes from.
Paradox Lain: or rather, to attatch a point to something
NickKitsagi: When I'm pissed, I'm pissed.
NickKitsagi: Alright, fine...
NickKitsagi: Wanna know one of my "points" I granted myself?
Paradox Lain: sure
NickKitsagi: Tony
NickKitsagi: I have to finish a game with him
NickKitsagi: We're like brothers, we watch eachothers' backs.
NickKitsagi: My best friend.
NickKitsagi: I don't care where the hell I am in life, I got my friend, I'm good.
NickKitsagi: My other "point" is to find the person I want to spend my life with.
NickKitsagi: These are basic, generic "points." But they give my existence "meaning."
NickKitsagi: To me, at least.
Paradox Lain: i think... i've got it.... the only reason not to kill someone would be chemicals. mere advanced chemicals. if you felt something for someone, you grant them life, in a sense. you let them live.
NickKitsagi: Yup
Paradox Lain: we put our points, our reasons for life in other people.
NickKitsagi: We live for others.
NickKitsagi: But we CAN live for ourselves.
Paradox Lain: there's no point in it, though.
Paradox Lain: nothing.. deep.
NickKitsagi: Living for others?
NickKitsagi: There is deeper things... you just need to learn not to look at life, but to feel life, to live life
NickKitsagi: If you look at ANYTHING in the broad scheme, it's pointless.
NickKitsagi: This conversation.
NickKitsagi: Look at it in the long run... pointless.
NickKitsagi: But it has meaning to me. I'll remember it for at least a while.
Paradox Lain: your reasons for living are attatched to everyone around you. this leads me to something else i've been fighting with... you always want more after you experience something, after you get something.
Paradox Lain: you will never be satisfied.
Paradox Lain: you will never have everything.
NickKitsagi: Do you dream, Adrienne?
Paradox Lain: sometimes..... depends on a few things.
NickKitsagi: If... people can't dream. If we can't have goals, hopes for the future... why live?
NickKitsagi: You don't have to have everything.
NickKitsagi: I'm content with true love. I have no need for politics, material items... well, I'd need enough to, well, live, but you know what I mean.
NickKitsagi: If you want everything, you'll be crushed in the end.
Paradox Lain: you'll be disappointed.
NickKitsagi: You know, I was content with my life at one point.
NickKitsagi: Completely content. Didn't want anything to change.
NickKitsagi: I still had dreams.
NickKitsagi: Dreams of possible futures I could work to attain...
Paradox Lain: mm..
NickKitsagi: When people work to achieve their dreams, they're content. They've earned it. That's why rich people tend to be unhappier than poorer people that earned their way up to a decent lifestyle.
NickKitsagi: Hold on to your dreams, Adrienne. They're always helpful ^^
Paradox Lain: heh.... sure...
NickKitsagi: What's your dream?
Paradox Lain: no dreams. i just have small things i'd like to do.
NickKitsagi: Like?
Paradox Lain: see different places. taste things. hear things. take pictures.
NickKitsagi: Tell you what...
NickKitsagi: When I grow up, and I have enough stored away, I plan to travel the world. You can join me, if you want. It's more pleasant than going alone.
[We interrupt this brodcast to remind you that this is the third offer of this nature directed towards Sawa *rolls. eyes. pointedly.*]
Paradox Lain: okay ^^
NickKitsagi: Can I ask you something?
Paradox Lain: anything. ^^
NickKitsagi: Don't you dream about love?
Paradox Lain: i already have love. i love someone. i dont need them to love me back.
NickKitsagi: ... Wow...
NickKitsagi: You're lucky. -_- I lack that.
Paradox Lain: i don't ask for much ^^;
NickKitsagi: Well, I must say... the one you love... in my opinion, they gotta be a fool not to love you back. You're a helluva woman.
[......]
Paradox Lain: lmao... he doesn't seem to think so.
NickKitsagi: Sheez, hope there's girls like you up here.
NickKitsagi: I'll have someone to talk to.
Paradox Lain: lol
NickKitsagi: I have another question. Is it ok to ask still?
Paradox Lain: it ALWAYS is.
NickKitsagi: I know you had a boyfriend sometime back.. did he have a problem with your... uhh... flirty nature?
[Here's where it gets muddled.]
Paradox Lain: most likely. then again, he was dating people and sleeping with someone. it was a confusing relationship, full of half-assumptions and things the other did that we didn't like.
Paradox Lain: since it was all online, and i told him i understood his need to have physical touch, he just.. did whatever he wanted.
NickKitsagi: If you were ever in another relationship, would you want it to be monogomous?
Paradox Lain: for the most part. with as strong as the feelings were between us, i put faith in the idea that we'd be above all of the mindless messing around, and sex on his part, and that in the end he'd always end up with me.
Paradox Lain: threw my hope into the air and it came crashing down right on my head.
Paradox Lain: needless to say, i'm not doing that again.
NickKitsagi: I'm very, very sorry...
NickKitsagi: It's not much consolation, but...
Paradox Lain: psh... *glances at her arm*... i knew what i was getting into.
Paradox Lain: i knew it'd end violently.
Paradox Lain: i did it anyway.
NickKitsagi: My old girlfriend pretty much did the same thing, to less of an extent... and I only lived 15 miles away.
NickKitsagi: Blind faith. I know how it goes, indeed.
Paradox Lain: i love him. i couldn't stand to give something up when i could have it for a short time.
Paradox Lain: i take what i can get, and then i spend the rest of my life thinking about it.
NickKitsagi: If you could get back together wiht him, would you?
Paradox Lain: yes. in a heartbeat. because i'm stupid, and it hurts. but i'd do it anyway.
NickKitsagi: Ever think you'll find someone else?
Paradox Lain: not ever. i'm too picky.
NickKitsagi: (I always told myself I'd find someone after my break-up. Keep my mind offa it.)
NickKitsagi: Hmmm...
NickKitsagi: Picky? What do you look for exactly?
Paradox Lain: josiah was, in essence, most everything i look for.
Paradox Lain: there were very very few things i ventured to want differently.
Paradox Lain: i knew i wouldn't get it. i won't get exactly what i really want.
NickKitsagi: Ok, he sounds like a good guy.
Paradox Lain: *snorts*... good...
NickKitsagi: Foolish as all hell.
NickKitsagi: But good, if you like him
Paradox Lain: *wrinkles her nose slightly* there are a few slight discrepancies keeping us apart, were there ever any reason he'd want to come back and disembowl me again.
NickKitsagi: I'll... not ask about that any further. I'm sure it hurts you to talk about this, right?
Paradox Lain: it always hurts. it doesn't change.
NickKitsagi: Which is why I'm here.
NickKitsagi: I try and get you to laugh.
Paradox Lain: making me laugh won't change it.
NickKitsagi: Hoping you'll stop hurting for a brief moment.
NickKitsagi: Hey, if for a moment.
NickKitsagi: ...
NickKitsagi: Yeah... I'm just being a jackass...
Paradox Lain: *smiles wanly and shrugs slightly* i have my music, and my writing. i'll live.
NickKitsagi: You know what this means, right?
Paradox Lain: what?
NickKitsagi: I have to try this much harder to make your stay more enjoyable... try and cheer you up
[GOD DAMMIT.]
NickKitsagi: It won't work
NickKitsagi: Ever
NickKitsagi: But I'm still enough of a dumbass to try
---
NickKitsagi: Hey, I have many mysterious, unknown ways of helping.
NickKitsagi: I just wanna see you happy
NickKitsagi: Wonder what that looks like... ^^;;;;
Paradox Lain: i glow.
Paradox Lain: i turn into a child.
NickKitsagi: Sounds cool
Paradox Lain: i get.. giggly.. and cute.
NickKitsagi: Heh... remember the last time I was happy...
NickKitsagi: Sounds wonderful. Kinda like kitties!
---
Paradox Lain: god dammit.. *rubs her eyes hard* fucking emotions..
NickKitsagi: I know.
NickKitsagi: This is amazing. This even has me down a bit.
NickKitsagi: Which is hard... 'cause I feel like shit
I am so very done with my class. Got a B+ on the last minor test. If I have to take a class like that ever again, I will shoot myself.
I have the house all to myself starting 8 am PST and ending Sunday 4 pm PST. :O They're actually placing some amount of trust in my hands... OR ARE THEY?! Fuck parents. James, wanna come pick me up? :)
I would've said that sooner, but something just reminded me of it. Bleh. Ugly slipcover. Bad book. BAD. Go back to acting, you putz.
Paradox Lain: Drunk Chris the Vexed has gone nuts.
Paradox Lain: wonderful.
Ophion Of Rage: Nah
Ophion Of Rage: I'm alright
Ophion Of Rage: wow, I'm amazingly bored
Ophion Of Rage: especially since Jen is leaving, damn her to hell.
Ophion Of Rage: and you...are silent.
Ophion Of Rage: and...everyone else...is equally silent
Paradox Lain: *falls to floor*
Paradox Lain: meh
Paradox Lain: so bored... can't bring self to move...
Ophion Of Rage: bad...times.
Paradox Lain: mm hmmmm... *yawns and leans back against the wall*
Ophion Of Rage: **slumps against the wall also**
Paradox Lain: *sighs* life is so.. banal.
Ophion Of Rage: and worthless.
Ophion Of Rage: and...and...and...
Ophion Of Rage: ...
Ophion Of Rage: uh
Ophion Of Rage: grrrahhh various other undesireable things
Paradox Lain: nn.. makes me feel destructive.
Ophion Of Rage: very destructive
Paradox Lain: *nods and lets her eyes drop to the floor* trapped in a box.
Ophion Of Rage: **hovers**...
Ophion Of Rage: I...need...something...to...fucking...do...
Paradox Lain: kill a politician.
Ophion Of Rage: waste of effort...
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Heuheuheuheuheuheu......
NickKitsagi: You really want a rebellion or something, don't you?
Paradox Lain: i don't care either way, but i'm rather fond of my freedom.
Paradox Lain: i didn't write that at any rate
NickKitsagi: I know
NickKitsagi: Would you honestly fight for your freedom?
Paradox Lain: definitely.
Paradox Lain: what the hell else do i have?
NickKitsagi: Would you throw your life away for it, and the possibility of others' freedom?
Paradox Lain: what is life without freedom?
NickKitsagi: Even if there is no guarantee for freedom, even if something worse might come along?
Paradox Lain: depends on the situation, then
NickKitsagi: Everyone wants a war. The tactics are different, the outcome is the same.
---
Paradox Lain: ever since seventh grade, i've learned the same god fucking damn things over and over and over. INCLUDING math for me, because i didn't care enough to pass the first three times..
NickKitsagi: Adrienne.
Paradox Lain: they're wasting my intelligence to try and raise the stupid kids to an average level... FEH.
NickKitsagi: I felt that way once.
NickKitsagi: So I stopped doing work
NickKitsagi: That's how I started drawing...
Paradox Lain: it's how i started writing. i had so much free time when i was ignoring the work i had to do in eighth grade, i started writing regularly
NickKitsagi: I enjoy writing, too, y'know.
NickKitsagi: Kinda sets me free. When drawing doesn't sometimes.
NickKitsagi: What about you?
Paradox Lain: i free myself in my writing.
Paradox Lain: and identifying with music lyrics, and books.
Paradox Lain: sometimes i need to scream someone else's words to feel better.
NickKitsagi: Wow
NickKitsagi: You just sounded, like, so wise right there
Paradox Lain: lol
NickKitsagi: I dunno.... maybe it's my imagination... but you actually do seem to be wise to me.
Paradox Lain: who knows :)
NickKitsagi: ^^
NickKitsagi: Well, can I tell you something?
Paradox Lain: sure ^^
NickKitsagi: I dunno about many people, but I think highly of you, Adrienne. You're wise and stuff that I can't think of 'cause I've gone almost 48 hours w/out sleep. ^^
---
NickKitsagi: Question
NickKitsagi: If you don't mind me asking, some might consider it personal, some might not. I don't.
Paradox Lain: i will tell you anything you want to know about me.
[Bonus points if I've ever said that line to you and you actually remember what it's from.]
NickKitsagi: Really? Cool.
NickKitsagi: Outside of family... what's the most important thing to you?
Paradox Lain: i guess... the ability to do what i want, think what i want, go where i want, love who i want. the simple fact that i love something and am able to love it means the most to me, right now.
NickKitsagi: That's sweet.
NickKitsagi: No, really.
NickKitsagi: If I wasn't such a cold-hearted bastard, that would have brought tears to my eyes.
NickKitsagi: Right-frickin'-on, yo
Paradox Lain: lol
Paradox Lain: meh
NickKitsagi: Man, I'm badass.
NickKitsagi: No, I'm just cold and unemotional... damn.
NickKitsagi: What on earth made you want to come visit me?
Paradox Lain: you need help with your drawing.
NickKitsagi: Well, I pretty much can go on my own... you don't have to help.
Paradox Lain: but i am.
NickKitsagi: Adamant, aren't we?
Paradox Lain: when i need to be.
NickKitsagi: A strong spirit can add up to a lot in the end.
Paradox Lain: yep
NickKitsagi: You DO know I was joking about nude posing, right?
Paradox Lain: ......
Paradox Lain: *laughs*
[This is what I do when I thought you were actually serious. I laugh at myself.]
NickKitsagi: Just wanted to clarify that you'll be fully clothed. ^^
Paradox Lain: meh :P
NickKitsagi: Unless you WANT to pose nude, and something's up if you do. o.0
Paradox Lain: lol.. i'll do whatever you need me too ^^
NickKitsagi: Damn... you're lucky I'm such an innocent, nice guy
---
NickKitsagi: See? You need me.
NickKitsagi: I'm useful.
Paradox Lain: lol
Paradox Lain: yes, i need you. I WANT YOU. o.o
NickKitsagi: You wouldn't wanna hurt me.
NickKitsagi: Oh baby, oh baby. *glances around sleepily* Where is my pillow?
Paradox Lain: lol.. no. i don't like hurting people that haven't done anything to me.
NickKitsagi: I'm used to it. Lotsa women want me.
NickKitsagi: Cool
NickKitsagi: I have the perfect time to ask Dad about you visiting, too.
Paradox Lain: yay
NickKitsagi: For Mom's sake.... I can always say James is coming along to make sure my hands stay as far away from you as possible.
Paradox Lain: lol
NickKitsagi: Which... is true.
Paradox Lain: *blushes slightly* er.. heheheh.. ^^;;;
NickKitsagi: Just so long as you two keep away from eachother as well...
Paradox Lain: em... i don't have any attraction whatsoever to him.
Paradox Lain: won't be a problem. i can assure you.
NickKitsagi: I know you won't start trouble
NickKitsagi: I'm the one who'll need to be chained to the wall
Paradox Lain: ............no comment from the submissive masochist over here, oooooh no....
NickKitsagi: Hey, that's for AFTER midnight!
NickKitsagi: j/k
Paradox Lain: meh, who knows ;)
NickKitsagi: Anyway... I shouldn't actually prove to be much of a problem.
NickKitsagi: Hey, don't tempt me
Paradox Lain: i'm just saying... i don't exactly have anything holding me back.
NickKitsagi: ...?
NickKitsagi: Yeah you do
Paradox Lain: like what?
NickKitsagi: My mom's watchful eye
Paradox Lain: pshhhh
NickKitsagi: Oh, and like you'd go after me anyway.
Paradox Lain: as i said, who knows.
NickKitsagi: Yeah...
---
NickKitsagi: Oh, I may have to go to work for a few, nothing big, tho
Paradox Lain: okay
NickKitsagi: You may wake up alone one morning, but maybe not
NickKitsagi: I'll try and stay with you as much as possible
Paradox Lain: okay
Paradox Lain: ^^
NickKitsagi: I know, it's weird being alone in a foreign place.
Paradox Lain: not.. weird. not for me. more like... i feel.. somewhat at home.
Paradox Lain: being away and free.
Paradox Lain: out of my box.
NickKitsagi: You indeed fit in well in many places, huh?
NickKitsagi: oh, and no walking in on me in the shower!
NickKitsagi: Someone made the mistake once...
Paradox Lain: i adapt nicely.. tee hee....
Paradox Lain: really?
Paradox Lain: XD
NickKitsagi: Yeah...
NickKitsagi: I screamed, being a bit younger and far more shy
NickKitsagi: Now I have a new system
Paradox Lain: ah... don't worry, i'll make sure to ;)
NickKitsagi: Fine. Your problem
NickKitsagi: You see mine, I see yours. Trade-off situation
Paradox Lain: fine.
Paradox Lain: :D
NickKitsagi: lol
---
Paradox Lain: i still hate that system with a passion ^^
NickKitsagi: Why?
Paradox Lain: because. it's icky.
[Psh. Some people never lighten up enough for me to be able to make stupid comments like this and get a response like Nick gives me. LIGHTEN UP PEOPLE.]
NickKitsagi: Hey! Maybe the general ones are, but my PS2 is NOT icky!
Paradox Lain: sony sucks ass.
Paradox Lain: the end.
NickKitsagi: Call it icky. See how much I poke you when you come over.
Paradox Lain: good! you need to touch women.
NickKitsagi: That's it.
NickKitsagi: I'm soooo poking you.
Paradox Lain: seems like you don't get much :P
NickKitsagi: I've touched women
NickKitsagi: How much I "get?" None
.
NickKitsagi: SO!?
Paradox Lain: *giggles*
Paradox Lain: you get none. heheheh..
NickKitsagi: And it's not gonna change, either.
NickKitsagi: Why? 'Cause that's my life.
NickKitsagi: The end.
---
Paradox Lain: haven't you ever tried anything with another guy?
NickKitsagi: Nope.
NickKitsagi: Never will.
Paradox Lain: then how the hell do you know?
NickKitsagi: You'd have to kill me.
NickKitsagi: Don't blame me for the way I was born.
NickKitsagi: Gay people have their ways. I have mine.
Paradox Lain: i'm just questioning.
NickKitsagi: And I'm just answering ^^
Paradox Lain: remind me to keep us away from the topic of sexuality. pffft.
---
Paradox Lain: question... Why shouldn't you kill humans?
[Bonus points if you know where this is from. Double bonus points if you know who asked it. Chris' virginity if you know who the certain person was asking this to.]
NickKitsagi: I have no problem killing anyone in self-defense.
Paradox Lain: that didn't answer the question.
NickKitsagi: Hmmm... ok, lemme try and go into smart mode
NickKitsagi: Ok, here we go...
NickKitsagi: Humans consider themselves the master, rather, dominant species on the planet. Because of this fact, we hold ourselves higher than any other organism. If you squash a bug, it's accepted. The stronger species wipes out the inferior ones. However, the goal of a species is to survive. My goal in life is to have a whole buncha sex, scientifically. Therefore, for the species to survive, we mustn't kill eachother. We want bigger numbers.
Paradox Lain: that didn't answer the question.
NickKitsagi: Well, it's a scientific explanation
NickKitsagi: Or are you looking for my personal belief?
Paradox Lain: i'm looking for an answer.
NickKitsagi: For our species to thrive.
NickKitsagi: I shouldn't kill my neighbor because he's my "brother" being a human and all.
Paradox Lain: you'd have to kill a whole lot of us to threaten the survival of the species.
Paradox Lain: he's not your "brother" no more than i'm your "sister".
NickKitsagi: Yeah, well, the way things work, we shouldn't have to worry about survival...
NickKitsagi: Hey, I don't believe this crap
Paradox Lain: so tell me, what's wrong with killing humans?
NickKitsagi: If I killed Tony, would you feel threatened by me?
NickKitsagi: In cold blood
Paradox Lain: no.
Paradox Lain: you don't become a threat until you come after me.
NickKitsagi: Well, there are those who would.
Paradox Lain: most people don't use logic on a daily basis.
NickKitsagi: Some would think 'cause I killed one, I could just kill again on a whim.
Paradox Lain: could, being the key word.
NickKitsagi: Most people are idiots, like me.
NickKitsagi: Could has a strange power. In spite of it being based on chance, it remains in our minds.
Paradox Lain: so? get to an answer.
NickKitsagi: Geez! Don't rush me...
NickKitsagi: Therefore, I would be considered a threat by some. Those threatened people would report me to authorities. For the society to thrive, threats must be eliminated.
NickKitsagi: Keep the people happy.
Paradox Lain: you haven't answered my question.
NickKitsagi: Dammit all.
NickKitsagi: Hold on... I'm thinking. Or do you already have an answer?
Paradox Lain: go past all of the morals, past all of the repercussions, past everything. if you were with someone else in the middle of nowhere, with no one around for miles, and if you killed that person, and buried their body, and could walk away safely knowing no one but you would ever know about it, what's stopping you?
NickKitsagi: Nothing.
NickKitsagi: Nothing stops us from making actions
Paradox Lain: in essence, this answer also serves as the answer to the question what makes us human?
Paradox Lain: nothing.
NickKitsagi: We have no point. Nothing has a point.
Paradox Lain: which is what i've been stuck on.
Paradox Lain: i can't give anything a point knowing it won't last forever.
Paradox Lain: i'm living a pointless existence.
NickKitsagi: Well, technically you have a point whether you like it or not.
Paradox Lain: i may have one to something or someone else, but that isn't a point for me.
NickKitsagi: Have a child and raise it. Continue the species. That's everyone's "point."
Paradox Lain: that's purpose, not point.
NickKitsagi: Scientifically.
NickKitsagi: Point?
Paradox Lain: point. what are you doing for yourself?
NickKitsagi: This is something I, too, ponder. My existence is useless.
Paradox Lain: how do you gain or lose?
NickKitsagi: If I died, it would affect nothing
Paradox Lain: exactly.
Paradox Lain: so... i just do whatever the hell i feel like.
NickKitsagi: Lose? Die before you want to
NickKitsagi: The way I see it is we're all in a big machine, running it.
NickKitsagi: If we die, we have no part in this machine, it will affect nothing.
NickKitsagi: Not me. I'll move to an important place in there.
NickKitsagi: So when I die, it will affect something.
Paradox Lain: pull a lever, push a button. no one understands how what they're doing affects anything, but they do it anyway. even when you die, and everything moves on, you'll soon be forgotten.
Paradox Lain: the people that were alive when you died will die.
NickKitsagi: You forget one thing.
Paradox Lain: what's that?
NickKitsagi: Something that's hard to find the origin of, but happens to be very real.
NickKitsagi: Emotion, feeling.
NickKitsagi: With these, we grant ourselves point.
NickKitsagi: If we ALL die, then our "mission" fails.
NickKitsagi: If you die, it will affect me.
Paradox Lain: chemicals. we use them to give ourselves points.
NickKitsagi: I don't care where it comes from.
Paradox Lain: or rather, to attatch a point to something
NickKitsagi: When I'm pissed, I'm pissed.
NickKitsagi: Alright, fine...
NickKitsagi: Wanna know one of my "points" I granted myself?
Paradox Lain: sure
NickKitsagi: Tony
NickKitsagi: I have to finish a game with him
NickKitsagi: We're like brothers, we watch eachothers' backs.
NickKitsagi: My best friend.
NickKitsagi: I don't care where the hell I am in life, I got my friend, I'm good.
NickKitsagi: My other "point" is to find the person I want to spend my life with.
NickKitsagi: These are basic, generic "points." But they give my existence "meaning."
NickKitsagi: To me, at least.
Paradox Lain: i think... i've got it.... the only reason not to kill someone would be chemicals. mere advanced chemicals. if you felt something for someone, you grant them life, in a sense. you let them live.
NickKitsagi: Yup
Paradox Lain: we put our points, our reasons for life in other people.
NickKitsagi: We live for others.
NickKitsagi: But we CAN live for ourselves.
Paradox Lain: there's no point in it, though.
Paradox Lain: nothing.. deep.
NickKitsagi: Living for others?
NickKitsagi: There is deeper things... you just need to learn not to look at life, but to feel life, to live life
NickKitsagi: If you look at ANYTHING in the broad scheme, it's pointless.
NickKitsagi: This conversation.
NickKitsagi: Look at it in the long run... pointless.
NickKitsagi: But it has meaning to me. I'll remember it for at least a while.
Paradox Lain: your reasons for living are attatched to everyone around you. this leads me to something else i've been fighting with... you always want more after you experience something, after you get something.
Paradox Lain: you will never be satisfied.
Paradox Lain: you will never have everything.
NickKitsagi: Do you dream, Adrienne?
Paradox Lain: sometimes..... depends on a few things.
NickKitsagi: If... people can't dream. If we can't have goals, hopes for the future... why live?
NickKitsagi: You don't have to have everything.
NickKitsagi: I'm content with true love. I have no need for politics, material items... well, I'd need enough to, well, live, but you know what I mean.
NickKitsagi: If you want everything, you'll be crushed in the end.
Paradox Lain: you'll be disappointed.
NickKitsagi: You know, I was content with my life at one point.
NickKitsagi: Completely content. Didn't want anything to change.
NickKitsagi: I still had dreams.
NickKitsagi: Dreams of possible futures I could work to attain...
Paradox Lain: mm..
NickKitsagi: When people work to achieve their dreams, they're content. They've earned it. That's why rich people tend to be unhappier than poorer people that earned their way up to a decent lifestyle.
NickKitsagi: Hold on to your dreams, Adrienne. They're always helpful ^^
Paradox Lain: heh.... sure...
NickKitsagi: What's your dream?
Paradox Lain: no dreams. i just have small things i'd like to do.
NickKitsagi: Like?
Paradox Lain: see different places. taste things. hear things. take pictures.
NickKitsagi: Tell you what...
NickKitsagi: When I grow up, and I have enough stored away, I plan to travel the world. You can join me, if you want. It's more pleasant than going alone.
[We interrupt this brodcast to remind you that this is the third offer of this nature directed towards Sawa *rolls. eyes. pointedly.*]
Paradox Lain: okay ^^
NickKitsagi: Can I ask you something?
Paradox Lain: anything. ^^
NickKitsagi: Don't you dream about love?
Paradox Lain: i already have love. i love someone. i dont need them to love me back.
NickKitsagi: ... Wow...
NickKitsagi: You're lucky. -_- I lack that.
Paradox Lain: i don't ask for much ^^;
NickKitsagi: Well, I must say... the one you love... in my opinion, they gotta be a fool not to love you back. You're a helluva woman.
[......]
Paradox Lain: lmao... he doesn't seem to think so.
NickKitsagi: Sheez, hope there's girls like you up here.
NickKitsagi: I'll have someone to talk to.
Paradox Lain: lol
NickKitsagi: I have another question. Is it ok to ask still?
Paradox Lain: it ALWAYS is.
NickKitsagi: I know you had a boyfriend sometime back.. did he have a problem with your... uhh... flirty nature?
[Here's where it gets muddled.]
Paradox Lain: most likely. then again, he was dating people and sleeping with someone. it was a confusing relationship, full of half-assumptions and things the other did that we didn't like.
Paradox Lain: since it was all online, and i told him i understood his need to have physical touch, he just.. did whatever he wanted.
NickKitsagi: If you were ever in another relationship, would you want it to be monogomous?
Paradox Lain: for the most part. with as strong as the feelings were between us, i put faith in the idea that we'd be above all of the mindless messing around, and sex on his part, and that in the end he'd always end up with me.
Paradox Lain: threw my hope into the air and it came crashing down right on my head.
Paradox Lain: needless to say, i'm not doing that again.
NickKitsagi: I'm very, very sorry...
NickKitsagi: It's not much consolation, but...
Paradox Lain: psh... *glances at her arm*... i knew what i was getting into.
Paradox Lain: i knew it'd end violently.
Paradox Lain: i did it anyway.
NickKitsagi: My old girlfriend pretty much did the same thing, to less of an extent... and I only lived 15 miles away.
NickKitsagi: Blind faith. I know how it goes, indeed.
Paradox Lain: i love him. i couldn't stand to give something up when i could have it for a short time.
Paradox Lain: i take what i can get, and then i spend the rest of my life thinking about it.
NickKitsagi: If you could get back together wiht him, would you?
Paradox Lain: yes. in a heartbeat. because i'm stupid, and it hurts. but i'd do it anyway.
NickKitsagi: Ever think you'll find someone else?
Paradox Lain: not ever. i'm too picky.
NickKitsagi: (I always told myself I'd find someone after my break-up. Keep my mind offa it.)
NickKitsagi: Hmmm...
NickKitsagi: Picky? What do you look for exactly?
Paradox Lain: josiah was, in essence, most everything i look for.
Paradox Lain: there were very very few things i ventured to want differently.
Paradox Lain: i knew i wouldn't get it. i won't get exactly what i really want.
NickKitsagi: Ok, he sounds like a good guy.
Paradox Lain: *snorts*... good...
NickKitsagi: Foolish as all hell.
NickKitsagi: But good, if you like him
Paradox Lain: *wrinkles her nose slightly* there are a few slight discrepancies keeping us apart, were there ever any reason he'd want to come back and disembowl me again.
NickKitsagi: I'll... not ask about that any further. I'm sure it hurts you to talk about this, right?
Paradox Lain: it always hurts. it doesn't change.
NickKitsagi: Which is why I'm here.
NickKitsagi: I try and get you to laugh.
Paradox Lain: making me laugh won't change it.
NickKitsagi: Hoping you'll stop hurting for a brief moment.
NickKitsagi: Hey, if for a moment.
NickKitsagi: ...
NickKitsagi: Yeah... I'm just being a jackass...
Paradox Lain: *smiles wanly and shrugs slightly* i have my music, and my writing. i'll live.
NickKitsagi: You know what this means, right?
Paradox Lain: what?
NickKitsagi: I have to try this much harder to make your stay more enjoyable... try and cheer you up
[GOD DAMMIT.]
NickKitsagi: It won't work
NickKitsagi: Ever
NickKitsagi: But I'm still enough of a dumbass to try
---
NickKitsagi: Hey, I have many mysterious, unknown ways of helping.
NickKitsagi: I just wanna see you happy
NickKitsagi: Wonder what that looks like... ^^;;;;
Paradox Lain: i glow.
Paradox Lain: i turn into a child.
NickKitsagi: Sounds cool
Paradox Lain: i get.. giggly.. and cute.
NickKitsagi: Heh... remember the last time I was happy...
NickKitsagi: Sounds wonderful. Kinda like kitties!
---
Paradox Lain: god dammit.. *rubs her eyes hard* fucking emotions..
NickKitsagi: I know.
NickKitsagi: This is amazing. This even has me down a bit.
NickKitsagi: Which is hard... 'cause I feel like shit
I am so very done with my class. Got a B+ on the last minor test. If I have to take a class like that ever again, I will shoot myself.
I have the house all to myself starting 8 am PST and ending Sunday 4 pm PST. :O They're actually placing some amount of trust in my hands... OR ARE THEY?! Fuck parents. James, wanna come pick me up? :)
8.30.2002
JoeAndHisMonkey: I am god
JoeAndHisMonkey: I have battled my hormones and won
JoeAndHisMonkey: Ha ha
Paradox Lain: lol..........what?
JoeAndHisMonkey: katie and i were laying naked in my bed
JoeAndHisMonkey: for about 2 hours
JoeAndHisMonkey: and she doesn't quite know the importance of grip when it comes to a hummer
JoeAndHisMonkey: and we were playing the "fucking game", which means that first one to bring hte other to orgasm wins
JoeAndHisMonkey: and i almost had her there, but she just wasn't doing it for me
JoeAndHisMonkey: so i said that it just wasn't my day
JoeAndHisMonkey: and she said she'd do anything
JoeAndHisMonkey: and we have an ongoing joke, and i compiled myself a wishlist of different sexual tasks
JoeAndHisMonkey: 1. 48 hours of hot passionate sex 2. 2 blowjobs 3. 4 handjobs
JoeAndHisMonkey: door 1 was out of hte question, and 3 wasn't working, so she offerend 2
JoeAndHisMonkey: but i knew she didn't want to
JoeAndHisMonkey: so i said no
JoeAndHisMonkey: and she kept insisting, but i knew it was just to make me happy
JoeAndHisMonkey: and i turned it down
JoeAndHisMonkey: i feel godly. how many guys do you know my age that can do that?
Paradox Lain: .....
JoeAndHisMonkey: infact, how many guys PERIOD do you know who can do that?
JoeAndHisMonkey: and we lay there for 2 hours without having sex
JoeAndHisMonkey: holy shite
JoeAndHisMonkey: mutual masturbation took place for so long that my middle finger began to prune
JoeAndHisMonkey: i didn't know that was possible
Paradox Lain: .......
Paradox Lain: *opens her mouth...and then closes it*
JoeAndHisMonkey: anyways, enough of my sex life
...Joey, ladies and gentlemen.
Did I mention he's 13 or 14? Ugh.......
Jellyfish of Sea: Ah... I know why Alana's being like this.
Paradox Lain: because of my groping thing, right? i just do it because you all have come to expect it of me. my detatching from her will solve the problem.
Jellyfish of Sea: Nooooooooooooope.
Paradox Lain: well then, whatever it is i don't care.
Jellyfish of Sea: Patrick. It may not be all him, but Patrick doesn't like you. A lot. He and Alana are pretty close, very good friends, in fact. See a pattern..?
Paradox Lain: did you not hear what i just said?
Jellyfish of Sea: I was typing. :P
Paradox Lain: psh.
Paradox Lain: whatever. me = not giving two shits about anything alana related.
Paradox Lain: THE END.
Jellyfish of Sea: Okay. Is the group Alana related?
Paradox Lain: i have no idea.
Paradox Lain: there is no "group" to me
Paradox Lain: i just have a few friends at school.
Jellyfish of Sea: Hm... There was a group. Some girls with strong bonds to each other. Then, two guys worked their ways in. One guy causes havoc and gets kicked out. Another guy is slightly feminine and very adaptable, so he fits himself in well enough. Another guy gets in, fits in alright as who he is, but seems to push around some patterns and change things, make people realize stuff they formerly didn't care about. Result: Quarreling.
Paradox Lain: Result: Me gone.
Paradox Lain: i don't want your people's soap operas. if you're going to have a fit over something stupid, BYE.
Jellyfish of Sea: *shrug* I just watch from afar, tossing in whatever I can to help the better cause. If that's getting involved and having a fit, so sue me, I'm one of the crowd.
Paradox Lain: meh.
Paradox Lain: enough talk of this crap
Jellyfish of Sea: Hold on, lemme say one more thing. You're not gone. Like guy #1, you'll linger (at the very least) until threads to the other members are cut. And I'm not letting our thread get cut!
Paradox Lain: my thread to most of them was alana, and i broke that fucker in two.
Paradox Lain: i'm tired of even thinking about all of this. honestly, i don't care.
*turns her brain off* I'm done with today. And tomorrow, for that matter.
Edit: What is the Animatrix?
......*mental orgasm*
JoeAndHisMonkey: I have battled my hormones and won
JoeAndHisMonkey: Ha ha
Paradox Lain: lol..........what?
JoeAndHisMonkey: katie and i were laying naked in my bed
JoeAndHisMonkey: for about 2 hours
JoeAndHisMonkey: and she doesn't quite know the importance of grip when it comes to a hummer
JoeAndHisMonkey: and we were playing the "fucking game", which means that first one to bring hte other to orgasm wins
JoeAndHisMonkey: and i almost had her there, but she just wasn't doing it for me
JoeAndHisMonkey: so i said that it just wasn't my day
JoeAndHisMonkey: and she said she'd do anything
JoeAndHisMonkey: and we have an ongoing joke, and i compiled myself a wishlist of different sexual tasks
JoeAndHisMonkey: 1. 48 hours of hot passionate sex 2. 2 blowjobs 3. 4 handjobs
JoeAndHisMonkey: door 1 was out of hte question, and 3 wasn't working, so she offerend 2
JoeAndHisMonkey: but i knew she didn't want to
JoeAndHisMonkey: so i said no
JoeAndHisMonkey: and she kept insisting, but i knew it was just to make me happy
JoeAndHisMonkey: and i turned it down
JoeAndHisMonkey: i feel godly. how many guys do you know my age that can do that?
Paradox Lain: .....
JoeAndHisMonkey: infact, how many guys PERIOD do you know who can do that?
JoeAndHisMonkey: and we lay there for 2 hours without having sex
JoeAndHisMonkey: holy shite
JoeAndHisMonkey: mutual masturbation took place for so long that my middle finger began to prune
JoeAndHisMonkey: i didn't know that was possible
Paradox Lain: .......
Paradox Lain: *opens her mouth...and then closes it*
JoeAndHisMonkey: anyways, enough of my sex life
...Joey, ladies and gentlemen.
Did I mention he's 13 or 14? Ugh.......
Jellyfish of Sea: Ah... I know why Alana's being like this.
Paradox Lain: because of my groping thing, right? i just do it because you all have come to expect it of me. my detatching from her will solve the problem.
Jellyfish of Sea: Nooooooooooooope.
Paradox Lain: well then, whatever it is i don't care.
Jellyfish of Sea: Patrick. It may not be all him, but Patrick doesn't like you. A lot. He and Alana are pretty close, very good friends, in fact. See a pattern..?
Paradox Lain: did you not hear what i just said?
Jellyfish of Sea: I was typing. :P
Paradox Lain: psh.
Paradox Lain: whatever. me = not giving two shits about anything alana related.
Paradox Lain: THE END.
Jellyfish of Sea: Okay. Is the group Alana related?
Paradox Lain: i have no idea.
Paradox Lain: there is no "group" to me
Paradox Lain: i just have a few friends at school.
Jellyfish of Sea: Hm... There was a group. Some girls with strong bonds to each other. Then, two guys worked their ways in. One guy causes havoc and gets kicked out. Another guy is slightly feminine and very adaptable, so he fits himself in well enough. Another guy gets in, fits in alright as who he is, but seems to push around some patterns and change things, make people realize stuff they formerly didn't care about. Result: Quarreling.
Paradox Lain: Result: Me gone.
Paradox Lain: i don't want your people's soap operas. if you're going to have a fit over something stupid, BYE.
Jellyfish of Sea: *shrug* I just watch from afar, tossing in whatever I can to help the better cause. If that's getting involved and having a fit, so sue me, I'm one of the crowd.
Paradox Lain: meh.
Paradox Lain: enough talk of this crap
Jellyfish of Sea: Hold on, lemme say one more thing. You're not gone. Like guy #1, you'll linger (at the very least) until threads to the other members are cut. And I'm not letting our thread get cut!
Paradox Lain: my thread to most of them was alana, and i broke that fucker in two.
Paradox Lain: i'm tired of even thinking about all of this. honestly, i don't care.
*turns her brain off* I'm done with today. And tomorrow, for that matter.
Edit: What is the Animatrix?
......*mental orgasm*
"From: Kamui
To: Michelle Barrett ; Julie ; Lisa ; Mellissa ; Mia ; Patrick ; Raye ; Tony
Sent: Thursday, August 22, 2002 4:29 AM
Subject: Anime Party weekends?
Weelll... I think most of you have heard about my brilliant plan? Everyone come over on Saterdays from maybe 1-5 and watch anime. Mom didn't think it was so brilliant, but I think she'll go for it anyway, or maybe anime every other weekend and go do stuff like bowling or other "activities" the other weekends? Does that sound fun? 'Cause I really wanna see you guys even though I'm going to be going to Green River!! I'll miss you! Just the summer has been a long time hardly seeing you guys, and Mia and Lisa - I always miss you! ^^;;; I can hardly remember the last time I saw you guys ^^;
So, I just wanted to see what you guys thought, and make sure I had you email addys, and maybe you can help me get the people's I missed? Here's who I was thinking of....
Mia Lisa (Hota-chan) Patrick Heather Jade Michi Julie Lisa (Ushi-chan? ^^; ) Tony Alaina
am I forgetting anyone? I always seem to...
And I feel really, really bad about this, but I left Adrienne off on purpose, because even though she's my friend, and sometimes fun to be around, she's also often not, and she tends to make people uncomfortable, and not just me, either, I don't think. So I'm wary of inviting her to large group... things... so um, yeah..."
FUCK YOU KAMUI. I FUCKING HATE YOU. WHO THE FUCK NEEDS FRIENDS ANYWAY?! AND YES, YOU ARE EXACTLY LIKE YOUR MOTHER.
I am so fucking tired of the world.
To: Michelle Barrett ; Julie ; Lisa ; Mellissa ; Mia ; Patrick ; Raye ; Tony
Sent: Thursday, August 22, 2002 4:29 AM
Subject: Anime Party weekends?
Weelll... I think most of you have heard about my brilliant plan? Everyone come over on Saterdays from maybe 1-5 and watch anime. Mom didn't think it was so brilliant, but I think she'll go for it anyway, or maybe anime every other weekend and go do stuff like bowling or other "activities" the other weekends? Does that sound fun? 'Cause I really wanna see you guys even though I'm going to be going to Green River!! I'll miss you! Just the summer has been a long time hardly seeing you guys, and Mia and Lisa - I always miss you! ^^;;; I can hardly remember the last time I saw you guys ^^;
So, I just wanted to see what you guys thought, and make sure I had you email addys, and maybe you can help me get the people's I missed? Here's who I was thinking of....
Mia Lisa (Hota-chan) Patrick Heather Jade Michi Julie Lisa (Ushi-chan? ^^; ) Tony Alaina
am I forgetting anyone? I always seem to...
And I feel really, really bad about this, but I left Adrienne off on purpose, because even though she's my friend, and sometimes fun to be around, she's also often not, and she tends to make people uncomfortable, and not just me, either, I don't think. So I'm wary of inviting her to large group... things... so um, yeah..."
FUCK YOU KAMUI. I FUCKING HATE YOU. WHO THE FUCK NEEDS FRIENDS ANYWAY?! AND YES, YOU ARE EXACTLY LIKE YOUR MOTHER.
I am so fucking tired of the world.
ichigobito: I'm really easy
ichigobito: uhhhhhhh to get along with that is
Paradox Lain: lmao..
Paradox Lain: suuuure... ^.~
ichigobito: *looks left and right*
ichigobito: phew I think she bought it
Paradox Lain: lol.. yes i didn't :D
ichigobito: uh oh
ichigobito: she's on to me
ichigobito: now I'm going to get the PLS DON'T LUV ME K THNX speech
ichigobito: *s's self*
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Paradox Lain: maybe someone could get me to care when my life gets better.
ichigobito: maybe
ichigobito: care about what? outta curiousity
Paradox Lain: anything, i suppose.
Paradox Lain: we could start with me?
ichigobito: you don't care about yourself???
ichigobito: how unfortunate
ichigobito: I see what you mean though
ichigobito: totally undrestandable considering everything that has gone down
ichigobito: *hug*
ichigobito: you will be fixxed in time
ichigobito: Under The Chestnut Tree
Paradox Lain: lol..
Paradox Lain: i've always felt this way.
ichigobito: really
ichigobito: so did *he*
ichigobito: but he was fixxed
ichigobito: you will someday visit MiniLuv and understand
ichigobito: or not
Paradox Lain: ..but i don't wanna be fixxed like he was fixxed ;_;
ichigobito: /1984 rant
ichigobito: I love knowing someone that knows that book
ichigobito: and I won't fix you like Winston
ichigobito: I'll fix you different
ichigobito: tee hee *how openended that is*
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Paradox Lain: just trying to figure out who would make a nice fuck buddy.. there isn't a whole lot to choose from..
ichigobito: really
ichigobito: and why so
Paradox Lain: why? for the hell of it. because being a nympho and being single in the physical sense for such a long time sucks ass.
ichigobito: true enough
ichigobito: I meant why is the list so small actually
Paradox Lain: not very many guys fit my two requirements.
ichigobito: being
Paradox Lain: one being that they don't brag about it at all whatsoever. [more like that they'll keep it a secret...yes...*plot thickens?*] two being them looking somewhat close to my preferences when it comes to looks.
ichigobito: you are really picky
ichigobito: not many guys I know don't brag
Paradox Lain: psh.. i don't want what happened last time happening again.
ichigobito: tee hee
Paradox Lain: i feel like i'm going to have to put a gun to the guys' head..
ichigobito: yeah avoid those circumstances at all costs
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ichigobito: still anything that requires a physical and social limitation is going to be next to impossible to fufill
Paradox Lain: i end up faking it anyway ;_;
ichigobito: okay then
ichigobito: you and your list making
ichigobito: tee hee
ichigobito: but you are awesome anyways
Paradox Lain: i'm awesome despite me being picky about who i have sex with for the first ten or however many times it'll be?
ichigobito: even that is awesome
ichigobito: it's awesome someone still has standards
ichigobito: it's not convienent but it is awesome
Paradox Lain: i'm never convenient.
ichigobito: give me convienence or give me death should be the american motto
ichigobito: and in a way I feel for you
ichigobito: try wanting to find someone based on their intellect and social conscience
Paradox Lain: I JUST WANT TO HAVE SEX, WHY CAN'T PEOPLE BE COOL ENOUGH FOR ME TO BANG? ;____;
ichigobito: LMFAO
ichigobito: I'm sorry but that was hilarity wrapped in amazingness
Paradox Lain: tee hee O:)
ichigobito: you're no angel. that is obvious
Paradox Lain: lol.. yes.
ichigobito: maybe a sprite
Paradox Lain: not thin enough ;_;
ichigobito: and everyone loves sprites
ichigobito: you are perfectly thin enough thank you very much
ichigobito: why must girls alwasy insist that they are fat
ichigobito: especially when they are not
ichigobito: GSDLKJOHIOGe;oihagh:LGKHO:UIGKLJ;gH:IOGGHh:UW
ichigobito: *head*
ichigobito: *hits*
ichigobito: *keyboard*
Paradox Lain: i did not insist i am fat
Paradox Lain: i just said i am not thin enough to be a sprite
ichigobito: you said you weren't thin enough
ichigobito: and since when were sprites uber thin
Paradox Lain: ........i dunno ;_;
ichigobito: I always pictured them like small humans with wings
ichigobito: s'okay don't cry
ichigobito: I'm not mad
ichigobito: just confused
ichigobito: *head esplodeys*
ichigobito: well anyways you aren't an angel
Paradox Lain: no way in hell XD
ichigobito: indeed
ichigobito: yet you seem to have high standards
Paradox Lain: i get them from past experiences.
ichigobito: and that in and of itself means you are beyond devilism too
ichigobito: so now we have covered that you are outside of the Christian Mythos
ichigobito: now to figure out what you are
ichigobito: I'm guessing you are an Adrienne
ichigobito: all agreeing say I
ichigobito: I
[WRONG AYE, JAMES :o]
---
Paradox Lain: i used to do that, when it was convenient... >.>
ichigobito: YAY I'm still amusing
ichigobito: was that ever convenient
Paradox Lain: for me :D
Paradox Lain: not them :D
ichigobito: and since when were you for convenience
Paradox Lain: up until i got cable.
ichigobito: we just covered something quite the contrary
ichigobito: you are still quite contradictary
ichigobito: and we love you for it
ichigobito: :read: love may or may not be anthrax
---
ichigobito: OH and one thing
ichigobito: I HATE SUNBURNS LIKE I HATE WHITE PEOPLE
ichigobito: stupid white people and their sun invention from their stupid god
Paradox Lain: tee hee... just... consider yourself having a stamp that says FRIEND on your forehead
Paradox Lain: no less, not much more.
ichigobito: I don't want a stamp on my forehead
Paradox Lain: TOO BAD
ichigobito: it's sunburnt
ichigobito: and would cause me pain
ichigobito: unnecessary pain
Paradox Lain: feh :P
ichigobito: don't make me rip thy tounge from thy mouth
Paradox Lain: i love stealing stories and passing them off as my own.
NickKitsagi: Really?
Paradox Lain: hey, i'm on a deadline and i can't just shit out stories. why not steal someone else's and edit it?
NickKitsagi: Welcome to my world! of course.... I can't write... so... that's... dammit all.
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NickKitsagi: Tony and I are like brothers. We love swords.
Paradox Lain: i see.
Paradox Lain: dear gods, shoot me now.
Paradox Lain: /sarcasm
NickKitsagi: Ah, yes. Tony's newest work... The Search for Aeris'....
NickKitsagi: And...
NickKitsagi: The Red _____....
Paradox Lain: ....
Paradox Lain: where the _______ means..?
NickKitsagi: Fill in the blank, yo
NickKitsagi: Well... how's about... Hojo's You-Know-What
Paradox Lain: ....you've lost me, crazy man.
Paradox Lain: just read my stuff and tell me how good i am.
NickKitsagi: I like sword.
NickKitsagi: Seraph was... confusing to my innocent, thoughtless mind
Paradox Lain: .....
Paradox Lain: i thought about what i would do after masturbating while thinking about someone other than "god", which was a reference to how i idolized my then boyfriend.
Paradox Lain: the end.
---
NickKitsagi: But... should I be scared by "Doubt to You?"
Paradox Lain: ....i'm not sure.
Paradox Lain: yes.
Paradox Lain: yes you should.
NickKitsagi: I dunno. It seems that you have meaning with what you write. I lack this
NickKitsagi: Therefore your writing is very foreign to me
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NickKitsagi: But... your writing, getting back on subject, is good in my opinion...
Paradox Lain: psh. i know this. countless people tell me it. tell me what you liked ABOUT it and you'll stand out. here, i'll give you one of my ugly pictures from a year and a half ago. not much has changed, or so tony says. then you can see that you don't have to be pretty to have excitement.
NickKitsagi: Ok. What I like is your flowery use of language. You don't just get right down to the point. You get to the point in a prettier way... even when the subject isn't pretty.
NickKitsagi: There? That better?
Paradox Lain: yes.
Paradox Lain: flowery... tee hee.
---
Paradox Lain: http://www.geocities.com/kamui146/PARANOiA/butabara/sawachan.jpg
Paradox Lain: amanda's on the left. i'm on the right. her sister's behind us.
Paradox Lain: the end.
NickKitsagi: Tch. You think that's bad!? Pah. Take a look at MY 8th grade pic... gh...
Paradox Lain: yes, i think that one's horrible.
NickKitsagi: No. Wait. Destroyed them all... yes... the blazing inferno... BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
NickKitsagi: *shrug*
NickKitsagi: I don't think it's so bad. But... then again, my opinion counts for 6/17 of a real person's opinion
Paradox Lain: people that write aren't pretty. their words are, their movements, their lives, but not them.
NickKitsagi: I don't write and I'M not pretty... XP
Paradox Lain: i just happen to use my conniving style with the english language to get whatever the hell i want. i never said non-pretty people COULD write...
Paradox Lain: maybe you just need a muse.
NickKitsagi: Does swordsmanship count for ANYTHING here!?
Paradox Lain: NO.
Paradox Lain: >:
NickKitsagi: Damn.
NickKitsagi: What about drawing...?
Paradox Lain: you can draw?
NickKitsagi: Maybe
Paradox Lain: hold on... you're the nick that drew the swords for tony's end of the year project in japanese?!
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Paradox Lain: .....
Paradox Lain: you ARE the nick that drew the swords..
NickKitsagi: Cool. *Cheesy grin*
Paradox Lain: i'm momentarily in love with you. [translation: i'm impressed.]
NickKitsagi: You're momentarily scaring the hell outta me
---
NickKitsagi: So, ummm... I'm looking for work. Need an illustrator?
---
Paradox Lain: only way you ever get better is if you practice.
NickKitsagi: I've been doing just that
Paradox Lain: i devote every spare moment to my writing.
NickKitsagi: But I can't practice women
NickKitsagi: I devote time to writing, surprisingly...
Paradox Lain: what, do you need someone to pose for you?
NickKitsagi: Well, girls posing nude WOULD be nice... but I'm good
NickKitsagi: But that would help, now that I think about it...
NickKitsagi: Regular posing, that is
Paradox Lain: *arches an eyebrow slightly* well?
NickKitsagi: ???
Paradox Lain: where the hell do you live, boy?
NickKitsagi: ???
Paradox Lain: i'm OFFERRING my PHYSICAL PRESENCE so you can get BETTER at drawing FEMALES.
NickKitsagi: Too damn far for you to pose
NickKitsagi: Try Grand Coulee Dam
Paradox Lain: and this is where you are right now?
NickKitsagi: That it is
NickKitsagi: It's my home. I'm in my computer room
Paradox Lain: address.
NickKitsagi: Don't have one
Paradox Lain: .....what?
NickKitsagi: PO Box something or other
NickKitsagi: I have no clue.
Paradox Lain: *sighs* give me your address, nick.
NickKitsagi: I can ask Mom tomorrow
Paradox Lain: ....*sputters* you don't know your address?
NickKitsagi: It's PO Box. Mom never lets me check the damned mail!
NickKitsagi: What!? I've only lived here a month!
Paradox Lain: do you know what street you live on?
NickKitsagi: Don't blame me...
Paradox Lain: i'm not, i'm not, just... what city are you in?
NickKitsagi: Grand Coulee...
Paradox Lain: ....*head hits desk* stupidity must be contagious.
NickKitsagi: We have a post office... here in Grand Coulee. I think our box number is, like, 98 or something...
NickKitsagi: I'll see if I can check. brb
NickKitsagi: PO BOX ##
NickKitsagi: Grand Coulee, WA #####-####
NickKitsagi: That's what's on this letter...
Paradox Lain: bah.. you don't have the address of anything near you?
NickKitsagi: No.... that IS my address
NickKitsagi: PO Box ##
NickKitsagi: Grand Coulee, WA #####
Paradox Lain: that can't BE your address, MALE. PO stands for POST OFFICE.
NickKitsagi: YES!
NickKitsagi: WE HAVE NO ADDRESS!
Paradox Lain: YOU DON'T LIVE IN THE FUCKING POST OFFICE
NickKitsagi: NO MAIL SERVICE HERE, YO!
NickKitsagi: THAT'S WHERE OUR MAIL COMES!
Paradox Lain: ....wow, you're that far out?
NickKitsagi: WE GO THERE, GET MAIL, COME BACK!
---
Paradox Lain: so... you live near houses.
NickKitsagi: Of course
---
NickKitsagi: Well, if you ever wanna do anything at my house, lemme know. I gots the clearance. PS2, TV... it's in my room, and I can get you stuff to eat.
Paradox Lain: okay ^^
Paradox Lain: this makes me loves you. [translation: i like you because you're offering me things.]
NickKitsagi: And the fright level in me raises...
---
Paradox Lain: just a(nother) warning: when i sleep with you, there will be none of that "OMGOMGOMG THERE'S A GIRL IN MY BED I CAN'T TOUCH HER" shit.
NickKitsagi: ???
Paradox Lain: translation: i hope you like cuddling.
NickKitsagi: I'm sleeping on the floor, tho
Paradox Lain: ohoho.. no.
NickKitsagi: o.o;;;;
---
Paradox Lain: me likes cuddling. it's very nice.
NickKitsagi: Cuddling's cool. Until we get too close... -_-;;;
Paradox Lain: too.. close..?
NickKitsagi: Heh...
NickKitsagi: Or else I'd better make sure to think clean thoughts all day ^^;;;;;;;;
Paradox Lain: ohohoho....
Paradox Lain: naughty ;)
NickKitsagi: ^^;;;
NickKitsagi: What!? It has a mind of its own! [Don't I know it >:]
NickKitsagi: Note to self: Think clean thoughts when she comes over...
Paradox Lain: lol.. i'm not cute enough to be an object of arousal.
NickKitsagi: If that picture really was of you: Yes, you are [OHOHOHONO.]
NickKitsagi: Girls at my old school look far worse
Paradox Lain: pppppppsssssssshhhhhhhhhh no i'm not.
NickKitsagi: Well, I'll think clean anyway. Just in case, save you the trouble ^^
---
Paradox Lain: oh... you're hetero, aren't you? ;P
Paradox Lain: you ruin my fun.
---
NickKitsagi: Oh! Just got a great idea!
NickKitsagi: In case you get bored
NickKitsagi: Let the pig loose and see if you can catch her!
Paradox Lain: ....
Paradox Lain: YAY. o.o
NickKitsagi: Well, since I'm about to fall over, I'm goin' to bed.
NickKitsagi: Or I can strip down, grease up, and see if you can catch ME.
GRAND COULEE, HERE WE COME! o.o;
ichigobito: uhhhhhhh to get along with that is
Paradox Lain: lmao..
Paradox Lain: suuuure... ^.~
ichigobito: *looks left and right*
ichigobito: phew I think she bought it
Paradox Lain: lol.. yes i didn't :D
ichigobito: uh oh
ichigobito: she's on to me
ichigobito: now I'm going to get the PLS DON'T LUV ME K THNX speech
ichigobito: *s's self*
---
Paradox Lain: maybe someone could get me to care when my life gets better.
ichigobito: maybe
ichigobito: care about what? outta curiousity
Paradox Lain: anything, i suppose.
Paradox Lain: we could start with me?
ichigobito: you don't care about yourself???
ichigobito: how unfortunate
ichigobito: I see what you mean though
ichigobito: totally undrestandable considering everything that has gone down
ichigobito: *hug*
ichigobito: you will be fixxed in time
ichigobito: Under The Chestnut Tree
Paradox Lain: lol..
Paradox Lain: i've always felt this way.
ichigobito: really
ichigobito: so did *he*
ichigobito: but he was fixxed
ichigobito: you will someday visit MiniLuv and understand
ichigobito: or not
Paradox Lain: ..but i don't wanna be fixxed like he was fixxed ;_;
ichigobito: /1984 rant
ichigobito: I love knowing someone that knows that book
ichigobito: and I won't fix you like Winston
ichigobito: I'll fix you different
ichigobito: tee hee *how openended that is*
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Paradox Lain: just trying to figure out who would make a nice fuck buddy.. there isn't a whole lot to choose from..
ichigobito: really
ichigobito: and why so
Paradox Lain: why? for the hell of it. because being a nympho and being single in the physical sense for such a long time sucks ass.
ichigobito: true enough
ichigobito: I meant why is the list so small actually
Paradox Lain: not very many guys fit my two requirements.
ichigobito: being
Paradox Lain: one being that they don't brag about it at all whatsoever. [more like that they'll keep it a secret...yes...*plot thickens?*] two being them looking somewhat close to my preferences when it comes to looks.
ichigobito: you are really picky
ichigobito: not many guys I know don't brag
Paradox Lain: psh.. i don't want what happened last time happening again.
ichigobito: tee hee
Paradox Lain: i feel like i'm going to have to put a gun to the guys' head..
ichigobito: yeah avoid those circumstances at all costs
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ichigobito: still anything that requires a physical and social limitation is going to be next to impossible to fufill
Paradox Lain: i end up faking it anyway ;_;
ichigobito: okay then
ichigobito: you and your list making
ichigobito: tee hee
ichigobito: but you are awesome anyways
Paradox Lain: i'm awesome despite me being picky about who i have sex with for the first ten or however many times it'll be?
ichigobito: even that is awesome
ichigobito: it's awesome someone still has standards
ichigobito: it's not convienent but it is awesome
Paradox Lain: i'm never convenient.
ichigobito: give me convienence or give me death should be the american motto
ichigobito: and in a way I feel for you
ichigobito: try wanting to find someone based on their intellect and social conscience
Paradox Lain: I JUST WANT TO HAVE SEX, WHY CAN'T PEOPLE BE COOL ENOUGH FOR ME TO BANG? ;____;
ichigobito: LMFAO
ichigobito: I'm sorry but that was hilarity wrapped in amazingness
Paradox Lain: tee hee O:)
ichigobito: you're no angel. that is obvious
Paradox Lain: lol.. yes.
ichigobito: maybe a sprite
Paradox Lain: not thin enough ;_;
ichigobito: and everyone loves sprites
ichigobito: you are perfectly thin enough thank you very much
ichigobito: why must girls alwasy insist that they are fat
ichigobito: especially when they are not
ichigobito: GSDLKJOHIOGe;oihagh:LGKHO:UIGKLJ;gH:IOGGHh:UW
ichigobito: *head*
ichigobito: *hits*
ichigobito: *keyboard*
Paradox Lain: i did not insist i am fat
Paradox Lain: i just said i am not thin enough to be a sprite
ichigobito: you said you weren't thin enough
ichigobito: and since when were sprites uber thin
Paradox Lain: ........i dunno ;_;
ichigobito: I always pictured them like small humans with wings
ichigobito: s'okay don't cry
ichigobito: I'm not mad
ichigobito: just confused
ichigobito: *head esplodeys*
ichigobito: well anyways you aren't an angel
Paradox Lain: no way in hell XD
ichigobito: indeed
ichigobito: yet you seem to have high standards
Paradox Lain: i get them from past experiences.
ichigobito: and that in and of itself means you are beyond devilism too
ichigobito: so now we have covered that you are outside of the Christian Mythos
ichigobito: now to figure out what you are
ichigobito: I'm guessing you are an Adrienne
ichigobito: all agreeing say I
ichigobito: I
[WRONG AYE, JAMES :o]
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Paradox Lain: i used to do that, when it was convenient... >.>
ichigobito: YAY I'm still amusing
ichigobito: was that ever convenient
Paradox Lain: for me :D
Paradox Lain: not them :D
ichigobito: and since when were you for convenience
Paradox Lain: up until i got cable.
ichigobito: we just covered something quite the contrary
ichigobito: you are still quite contradictary
ichigobito: and we love you for it
ichigobito: :read: love may or may not be anthrax
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ichigobito: OH and one thing
ichigobito: I HATE SUNBURNS LIKE I HATE WHITE PEOPLE
ichigobito: stupid white people and their sun invention from their stupid god
Paradox Lain: tee hee... just... consider yourself having a stamp that says FRIEND on your forehead
Paradox Lain: no less, not much more.
ichigobito: I don't want a stamp on my forehead
Paradox Lain: TOO BAD
ichigobito: it's sunburnt
ichigobito: and would cause me pain
ichigobito: unnecessary pain
Paradox Lain: feh :P
ichigobito: don't make me rip thy tounge from thy mouth
Paradox Lain: i love stealing stories and passing them off as my own.
NickKitsagi: Really?
Paradox Lain: hey, i'm on a deadline and i can't just shit out stories. why not steal someone else's and edit it?
NickKitsagi: Welcome to my world! of course.... I can't write... so... that's... dammit all.
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NickKitsagi: Tony and I are like brothers. We love swords.
Paradox Lain: i see.
Paradox Lain: dear gods, shoot me now.
Paradox Lain: /sarcasm
NickKitsagi: Ah, yes. Tony's newest work... The Search for Aeris'....
NickKitsagi: And...
NickKitsagi: The Red _____....
Paradox Lain: ....
Paradox Lain: where the _______ means..?
NickKitsagi: Fill in the blank, yo
NickKitsagi: Well... how's about... Hojo's You-Know-What
Paradox Lain: ....you've lost me, crazy man.
Paradox Lain: just read my stuff and tell me how good i am.
NickKitsagi: I like sword.
NickKitsagi: Seraph was... confusing to my innocent, thoughtless mind
Paradox Lain: .....
Paradox Lain: i thought about what i would do after masturbating while thinking about someone other than "god", which was a reference to how i idolized my then boyfriend.
Paradox Lain: the end.
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NickKitsagi: But... should I be scared by "Doubt to You?"
Paradox Lain: ....i'm not sure.
Paradox Lain: yes.
Paradox Lain: yes you should.
NickKitsagi: I dunno. It seems that you have meaning with what you write. I lack this
NickKitsagi: Therefore your writing is very foreign to me
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NickKitsagi: But... your writing, getting back on subject, is good in my opinion...
Paradox Lain: psh. i know this. countless people tell me it. tell me what you liked ABOUT it and you'll stand out. here, i'll give you one of my ugly pictures from a year and a half ago. not much has changed, or so tony says. then you can see that you don't have to be pretty to have excitement.
NickKitsagi: Ok. What I like is your flowery use of language. You don't just get right down to the point. You get to the point in a prettier way... even when the subject isn't pretty.
NickKitsagi: There? That better?
Paradox Lain: yes.
Paradox Lain: flowery... tee hee.
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Paradox Lain: http://www.geocities.com/kamui146/PARANOiA/butabara/sawachan.jpg
Paradox Lain: amanda's on the left. i'm on the right. her sister's behind us.
Paradox Lain: the end.
NickKitsagi: Tch. You think that's bad!? Pah. Take a look at MY 8th grade pic... gh...
Paradox Lain: yes, i think that one's horrible.
NickKitsagi: No. Wait. Destroyed them all... yes... the blazing inferno... BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
NickKitsagi: *shrug*
NickKitsagi: I don't think it's so bad. But... then again, my opinion counts for 6/17 of a real person's opinion
Paradox Lain: people that write aren't pretty. their words are, their movements, their lives, but not them.
NickKitsagi: I don't write and I'M not pretty... XP
Paradox Lain: i just happen to use my conniving style with the english language to get whatever the hell i want. i never said non-pretty people COULD write...
Paradox Lain: maybe you just need a muse.
NickKitsagi: Does swordsmanship count for ANYTHING here!?
Paradox Lain: NO.
Paradox Lain: >:
NickKitsagi: Damn.
NickKitsagi: What about drawing...?
Paradox Lain: you can draw?
NickKitsagi: Maybe
Paradox Lain: hold on... you're the nick that drew the swords for tony's end of the year project in japanese?!
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Paradox Lain: .....
Paradox Lain: you ARE the nick that drew the swords..
NickKitsagi: Cool. *Cheesy grin*
Paradox Lain: i'm momentarily in love with you. [translation: i'm impressed.]
NickKitsagi: You're momentarily scaring the hell outta me
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NickKitsagi: So, ummm... I'm looking for work. Need an illustrator?
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Paradox Lain: only way you ever get better is if you practice.
NickKitsagi: I've been doing just that
Paradox Lain: i devote every spare moment to my writing.
NickKitsagi: But I can't practice women
NickKitsagi: I devote time to writing, surprisingly...
Paradox Lain: what, do you need someone to pose for you?
NickKitsagi: Well, girls posing nude WOULD be nice... but I'm good
NickKitsagi: But that would help, now that I think about it...
NickKitsagi: Regular posing, that is
Paradox Lain: *arches an eyebrow slightly* well?
NickKitsagi: ???
Paradox Lain: where the hell do you live, boy?
NickKitsagi: ???
Paradox Lain: i'm OFFERRING my PHYSICAL PRESENCE so you can get BETTER at drawing FEMALES.
NickKitsagi: Too damn far for you to pose
NickKitsagi: Try Grand Coulee Dam
Paradox Lain: and this is where you are right now?
NickKitsagi: That it is
NickKitsagi: It's my home. I'm in my computer room
Paradox Lain: address.
NickKitsagi: Don't have one
Paradox Lain: .....what?
NickKitsagi: PO Box something or other
NickKitsagi: I have no clue.
Paradox Lain: *sighs* give me your address, nick.
NickKitsagi: I can ask Mom tomorrow
Paradox Lain: ....*sputters* you don't know your address?
NickKitsagi: It's PO Box. Mom never lets me check the damned mail!
NickKitsagi: What!? I've only lived here a month!
Paradox Lain: do you know what street you live on?
NickKitsagi: Don't blame me...
Paradox Lain: i'm not, i'm not, just... what city are you in?
NickKitsagi: Grand Coulee...
Paradox Lain: ....*head hits desk* stupidity must be contagious.
NickKitsagi: We have a post office... here in Grand Coulee. I think our box number is, like, 98 or something...
NickKitsagi: I'll see if I can check. brb
NickKitsagi: PO BOX ##
NickKitsagi: Grand Coulee, WA #####-####
NickKitsagi: That's what's on this letter...
Paradox Lain: bah.. you don't have the address of anything near you?
NickKitsagi: No.... that IS my address
NickKitsagi: PO Box ##
NickKitsagi: Grand Coulee, WA #####
Paradox Lain: that can't BE your address, MALE. PO stands for POST OFFICE.
NickKitsagi: YES!
NickKitsagi: WE HAVE NO ADDRESS!
Paradox Lain: YOU DON'T LIVE IN THE FUCKING POST OFFICE
NickKitsagi: NO MAIL SERVICE HERE, YO!
NickKitsagi: THAT'S WHERE OUR MAIL COMES!
Paradox Lain: ....wow, you're that far out?
NickKitsagi: WE GO THERE, GET MAIL, COME BACK!
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Paradox Lain: so... you live near houses.
NickKitsagi: Of course
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NickKitsagi: Well, if you ever wanna do anything at my house, lemme know. I gots the clearance. PS2, TV... it's in my room, and I can get you stuff to eat.
Paradox Lain: okay ^^
Paradox Lain: this makes me loves you. [translation: i like you because you're offering me things.]
NickKitsagi: And the fright level in me raises...
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Paradox Lain: just a(nother) warning: when i sleep with you, there will be none of that "OMGOMGOMG THERE'S A GIRL IN MY BED I CAN'T TOUCH HER" shit.
NickKitsagi: ???
Paradox Lain: translation: i hope you like cuddling.
NickKitsagi: I'm sleeping on the floor, tho
Paradox Lain: ohoho.. no.
NickKitsagi: o.o;;;;
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Paradox Lain: me likes cuddling. it's very nice.
NickKitsagi: Cuddling's cool. Until we get too close... -_-;;;
Paradox Lain: too.. close..?
NickKitsagi: Heh...
NickKitsagi: Or else I'd better make sure to think clean thoughts all day ^^;;;;;;;;
Paradox Lain: ohohoho....
Paradox Lain: naughty ;)
NickKitsagi: ^^;;;
NickKitsagi: What!? It has a mind of its own! [Don't I know it >:]
NickKitsagi: Note to self: Think clean thoughts when she comes over...
Paradox Lain: lol.. i'm not cute enough to be an object of arousal.
NickKitsagi: If that picture really was of you: Yes, you are [OHOHOHONO.]
NickKitsagi: Girls at my old school look far worse
Paradox Lain: pppppppsssssssshhhhhhhhhh no i'm not.
NickKitsagi: Well, I'll think clean anyway. Just in case, save you the trouble ^^
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Paradox Lain: oh... you're hetero, aren't you? ;P
Paradox Lain: you ruin my fun.
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NickKitsagi: Oh! Just got a great idea!
NickKitsagi: In case you get bored
NickKitsagi: Let the pig loose and see if you can catch her!
Paradox Lain: ....
Paradox Lain: YAY. o.o
NickKitsagi: Well, since I'm about to fall over, I'm goin' to bed.
NickKitsagi: Or I can strip down, grease up, and see if you can catch ME.
GRAND COULEE, HERE WE COME! o.o;
8.29.2002
I wrote a fucking e-mail to Gamepro concerning Crimson Land. I'm such a loser.
....AND HER HIPS RAN AWAY WITH THE SPOON.
First the appetite leaves, and now what little hips I had are gone. Bah.
....AND HER HIPS RAN AWAY WITH THE SPOON.
First the appetite leaves, and now what little hips I had are gone. Bah.
FF.net Profile
UNF! Look at all of those. The only one I'll admit to being good is Found. Enjoy. Or not! :o
Hayley was right, Sugarcult is yummy. Daddy's Little Defect is a nice song to lose your voice to.
I'd like to take a baseball bat to a wedding cake.
Why is everyone too busy for me?
JoeAndHisMonkey: why the fuck does it feel like i'm always battling one fight after another?
Paradox Lain: because you are.
JoeAndHisMonkey: and why is everything so ready to fall apart?
JoeAndHisMonkey: and how am i holding it together?
Paradox Lain: this is just the way it works out.
Paradox Lain: glad you finally realized it.
JoeAndHisMonkey: why do i have to be romeo?
JoeAndHisMonkey: why ME?
Paradox Lain: it's not a choice, love.
JoeAndHisMonkey: why can't i escape with average
JoeAndHisMonkey: it's bullshit
JoeAndHisMonkey: that's what it is
Paradox Lain: yes, it is.
JoeAndHisMonkey: i dont' deserve to be patronized
Paradox Lain: nobody deserves anything.
JoeAndHisMonkey: you see, juliet isn't content
JoeAndHisMonkey: no, not at all
JoeAndHisMonkey: she needs to have an emotional breakdown and then put on a facade
JoeAndHisMonkey: which insults my fucking intellegence
JoeAndHisMonkey: she plays as if i don't fucking know her
Paradox Lain: ah, love. the bane of the universe.
JoeAndHisMonkey: the consequences, and the pain that will come thereafter, is it worth it?
JoeAndHisMonkey: i wonder
Paradox Lain: depends on how deep it went.
JoeAndHisMonkey: i wonder also how big this ball of yarn is that seems to be unraveling so rapidly
Paradox Lain: then again, the more it hurts in the end, the more it was worth it, ne?
JoeAndHisMonkey: yea
JoeAndHisMonkey: the higher we climb
JoeAndHisMonkey: the harder we fall
JoeAndHisMonkey: whatever, i'll risk it
JoeAndHisMonkey: if i regret afterwards, then fuck me
JoeAndHisMonkey: i'll realize it then
Paradox Lain: yep
JoeAndHisMonkey: for now, let me put my blindfold back on and get back to the tightrope
JoeAndHisMonkey: i have to go
Paradox Lain: okay
Paradox Lain: good luck
JoeAndHisMonkey: thanks for the insight
One day everything came crashing down and I scream and scream and I'll never stop.
Finished Fight Club. School in five days. My shirts should be here tomorrow. Just spending my time reading little tutorials and tweaking different programs. Trying to find a server that's still readily accessible so I can effectively use the fucking e-mail bomber I may or may not have. Hmph.
I like it hard I like it soft I like it empty I like it full I like it unknown I like it under my skin I like it burning bright I like it cold as my insides I like it perfect I like it whole I like it broken I like it fucked.
I'd like to give the bullet a home in my head.
or
I'd like to leave everything behind and never come back.
but still
I'd like to know where you end up.
They'll never hurt me like you do. But I don't hate you. Not at all.
UNF! Look at all of those. The only one I'll admit to being good is Found. Enjoy. Or not! :o
Hayley was right, Sugarcult is yummy. Daddy's Little Defect is a nice song to lose your voice to.
I'd like to take a baseball bat to a wedding cake.
Why is everyone too busy for me?
JoeAndHisMonkey: why the fuck does it feel like i'm always battling one fight after another?
Paradox Lain: because you are.
JoeAndHisMonkey: and why is everything so ready to fall apart?
JoeAndHisMonkey: and how am i holding it together?
Paradox Lain: this is just the way it works out.
Paradox Lain: glad you finally realized it.
JoeAndHisMonkey: why do i have to be romeo?
JoeAndHisMonkey: why ME?
Paradox Lain: it's not a choice, love.
JoeAndHisMonkey: why can't i escape with average
JoeAndHisMonkey: it's bullshit
JoeAndHisMonkey: that's what it is
Paradox Lain: yes, it is.
JoeAndHisMonkey: i dont' deserve to be patronized
Paradox Lain: nobody deserves anything.
JoeAndHisMonkey: you see, juliet isn't content
JoeAndHisMonkey: no, not at all
JoeAndHisMonkey: she needs to have an emotional breakdown and then put on a facade
JoeAndHisMonkey: which insults my fucking intellegence
JoeAndHisMonkey: she plays as if i don't fucking know her
Paradox Lain: ah, love. the bane of the universe.
JoeAndHisMonkey: the consequences, and the pain that will come thereafter, is it worth it?
JoeAndHisMonkey: i wonder
Paradox Lain: depends on how deep it went.
JoeAndHisMonkey: i wonder also how big this ball of yarn is that seems to be unraveling so rapidly
Paradox Lain: then again, the more it hurts in the end, the more it was worth it, ne?
JoeAndHisMonkey: yea
JoeAndHisMonkey: the higher we climb
JoeAndHisMonkey: the harder we fall
JoeAndHisMonkey: whatever, i'll risk it
JoeAndHisMonkey: if i regret afterwards, then fuck me
JoeAndHisMonkey: i'll realize it then
Paradox Lain: yep
JoeAndHisMonkey: for now, let me put my blindfold back on and get back to the tightrope
JoeAndHisMonkey: i have to go
Paradox Lain: okay
Paradox Lain: good luck
JoeAndHisMonkey: thanks for the insight
One day everything came crashing down and I scream and scream and I'll never stop.
Finished Fight Club. School in five days. My shirts should be here tomorrow. Just spending my time reading little tutorials and tweaking different programs. Trying to find a server that's still readily accessible so I can effectively use the fucking e-mail bomber I may or may not have. Hmph.
I like it hard I like it soft I like it empty I like it full I like it unknown I like it under my skin I like it burning bright I like it cold as my insides I like it perfect I like it whole I like it broken I like it fucked.
I'd like to give the bullet a home in my head.
or
I'd like to leave everything behind and never come back.
but still
I'd like to know where you end up.
They'll never hurt me like you do. But I don't hate you. Not at all.
First off, SEXY PEOPLE!!!
Theo
Kevin
And even though you can't really see him, rest assured, Xerjester is sexxxay.
Weirdest dream.... EVER.
Paradox Lain: i just had a dream... my first complete and non-nightmare dream.. in which I TRY TO GET TONY TO FUCK ME.
Paradox Lain: *bangs head against monitor* DIRTY TAINTED THOUGHTS
chibiukyou420: ................
chibiukyou420: wow
Paradox Lain: not only did we both get NAKED AND DO..... THINGS..... but he actually AGREED AT THE END
Paradox Lain: thank the GODS i woke up right after that...
chibiukyou420: ......yes
Paradox Lain: not only that, but in the dream i actually convinced myself that sleeping with tony wouldn't be so bad after all
Paradox Lain: >.< *bangs head against wall*
chibiukyou420: ...You're creeping me out
Paradox Lain: i'm sorry ;_;
chibiukyou420: *pat pat* Its okie
Oi >.<
Cichiri: How's Adrienne?
Paradox Lain: fantastic.
Cichiri: That's a first!
Cichiri: What happned?
Paradox Lain: nothing. i just took to lying.
Cichiri: Ah! That's good too!
Cichiri: You need to have more fun!
Paradox Lain: mmmnope.
Cichiri: Mmmmyep!
Cichiri: *poke poke* Are you Alana?
Paradox Lain: no.
Cichiri: *Sigh of relief*
Cichiri: Okay!
Cichiri: Are you and Tony dating?
Paradox Lain: yes.
Cichiri: Really?
Paradox Lain: yeah.
Cichiri: You're NOT kidding?
Paradox Lain: no, i'm not.
Cichiri: When did you start dating?
Paradox Lain: the night i spent at his house.
Cichiri: Ah
AyaPAX217: <3 your entry
Paradox Lain: ^_______^
AyaPAX217: ah! you finished the fic
Paradox Lain: you mean Found?
AyaPAX217: *nods*
Paradox Lain: and i didn't give you the link?! :o BAD SAWA *smack*
AyaPAX217: nope..
AyaPAX217: i couldn't open it until now anyway
AyaPAX217: pulling an aya chan, yep, you were
AyaPAX217: 'ecpt you don't go weeks between posts...
Paradox Lain: lol..
AyaPAX217: ooh, she makes people die? *is reading blog, found, and lyrics simultaneously*
Paradox Lain: lol...
Paradox Lain: you mean kotsu?
AyaPAX217: yeah
Paradox Lain: no, she doesn't kill people :P
Paradox Lain: keep reading, monkey
AyaPAX217: *nods, laughing at self*
AyaPAX217: aw...you didn't have him kill her? still very good...
Paradox Lain: i wanted to leave her mentally destroyed :D
AyaPAX217: it worked
AyaPAX217: perfectly
Paradox Lain: yay!
AyaPAX217: ^^ your mad skillz far surpass my own
Paradox Lain: /me wins
Paradox Lain: XD
Paradox Lain: /me does victory dance
AyaPAX217: oh yeah
AyaPAX217: my fics all suck, and i accept the fact with a scream
Paradox Lain: lmao
Paradox Lain: *glomps* me loves you anyway
AyaPAX217: yup yup
AyaPAX217: we listen to each other bitch for hours on end about life
Paradox Lain: the perfect match! *evil laughter*
AyaPAX217: *laughs* you will break me of my sheltered hell yet
Someone from school: well we decided we wanted to go to guitar center today, so 4 of us went off on a little journey
Someone from school: we got stuck in traffic, and dana (he sometimes came into our 3rd period to talk to me and robbie) pulls out his pipe and loads a bowl
Someone from school: and he and this other guy are smoking
Someone from school: when my ex and his whole family pull up in the car next to us...in traffic....on the freeway...w/ the pipe in full veiw and someone mid hit
Someone from school: i was like =O, but luckily they dont care that much
Sawa: lmao
Sawa: that's... actually pretty funny
Someone from school: i know
Someone from school: it just sucked then
Someone from school: everyone saw it! and i was like dammit you fuckheads why do you always have to smoke!
Someone from school: as of sept 1st im quitting
Paradox Lain: siiiiiiiiiigh
Jellyfish of Sea: y
Jellyfish of Sea: ow.
Paradox Lain: i'm so booooooooooooored
Paradox Lain: saaaaaaaaave meeeeeeeeee
Jellyfish of Sea: Play some Megaman X!
Paradox Lain: i gots no megaman X
Paradox Lain: can i spend the night on saturday? ;_;
Jellyfish of Sea: Download an emulator and be l33t.
Paradox Lain: meeeeeeh
Jellyfish of Sea: "Talk to me tomorrow, when I get home" she says.
Paradox Lain: bleh
Paradox Lain: i ordered shirts from thinkgeek.com ^^ one says "Got Root?" one says "WTF?" and one says "i read your e-mail"
Jellyfish of Sea: Soon she'll be having me do math. I dunno how or why, but it'll happen.
Paradox Lain: lol
Jellyfish of Sea: lol, coolness! I... um... don't have any new shirts... ><
Paradox Lain: meh. i took one of my pairs of jeans from last year and carried it over to this year's wardrobe x.x;
Jellyfish of Sea: ...that's all?
Paradox Lain: it's only because the pants are so god damn expensive at hot topic ;_;
Jellyfish of Sea: My gawd, you/your parents must be loaded, if you can continually replace your wardrobe like that.
Paradox Lain: ..i've spent the least this year as opposed to in the past..
Paradox Lain: oh wells.
Jellyfish of Sea: o.o;;
Paradox Lain: doesn't matter what you're wearing as long as you look good ;D
Jellyfish of Sea: Baby, I always look good. XD
Paradox Lain: you know it. that's why my subconscious wants to fuck you stupid. @.@
Jellyfish of Sea: *sweatdrop* Well, if it's just THAT... ^.~ ...then you don't need to worry. Lust like that can be ignored.
Paradox Lain: the thing is, i don't like you like that.
Paradox Lain: really. seriously.
Paradox Lain: i have no fucking clue why i would dream what i did.
Paradox Lain: stupid head! *smacks self*
Jellyfish of Sea: I know. It's probably a random sex scene your head came up with, and it chose a random guy. No worries.
Paradox Lain: you were kinky o.O
Jellyfish of Sea: Yep, never gonna happen. ^^;;; I mean, I'm probably gonna be like a cold fish anyway... I'll make Alana seem good. Just wait, I'll prove it on tape. XD
Paradox Lain: lmao
Paradox Lain: with nick? :o
Jellyfish of Sea: Nah
Jellyfish of Sea: Nick's too good for me. XD
Paradox Lain: too kinky, you mean? :D
Jellyfish of Sea: Yeah
Paradox Lain: tee hee
Paradox Lain: so, when i go to your house, you can show me the picture of nick? :D!
Paradox Lain: er....sam
Paradox Lain: whatever
Paradox Lain: WHY CAN'T BOYS HAVE STRANGE NAMES SO I CAN REMEMBER THEM BETTER?!
Paradox Lain: anyway.
Jellyfish of Sea: If you promise not to masturbate to it. XD
Paradox Lain: .....well, count me out :(
Jellyfish of Sea: Darn.
---
Jellyfish of Sea: Tony loves animals
Jellyfish of Sea: And little boys
Jellyfish of Sea: Lots of 'em
Paradox Lain: yay!
Paradox Lain: ^^
Jellyfish of Sea: All the time
Jellyfish of Sea: Can't stop
Paradox Lain: i know. i videotape him
Paradox Lain: he likes it when they're so small, he cracks their hip bone in two.
Jellyfish of Sea: Dammit Nick, this time fo' sure we're gonna get demoted!
Jellyfish of Sea: ........I just love it when they scream in pain... oh, those SHUDDERS... God, yes!!
Paradox Lain: *waits for the "*orgasms*"*
Jellyfish of Sea: I don't get off that easily, yo. Unlike YOU...
Paradox Lain: psssh... at least i'm quick about it ^.~
Jellyfish of Sea: XD
Paradox Lain: not liek U, juilet :PPP
Jellyfish of Sea: stfu i is godo in bed :D lolollollololooool
Paradox Lain: u no u r bioch LOLOLOLOL
Jellyfish of Sea: yeah roxor :)
Paradox Lain: u mean fuxxor ;D
Jellyfish of Sea: not now hno :D
Ophion Of Rage: I'm having an incredibly bad...month.
Ophion Of Rage: August is now on the list.
Paradox Lain: my august is already on mine *glare of doom*
Ophion Of Rage: **frowns**
Ophion Of Rage: well I want August 28th.
Ophion Of Rage: :P
Paradox Lain: fine. august 14th is totally mine.
Ophion Of Rage: Yes. I agree.
Paradox Lain: worst day of my life.
Ophion Of Rage: That's May 21st for me...
Ophion Of Rage: That day is forever black.
Paradox Lain: stupid people... never.. love.... anything...
Ophion Of Rage: I disagree..
Paradox Lain: okay, how about.. anyone.
Ophion Of Rage: Still disagree.
Paradox Lain: have your love. i want nothing to do with it.
Ophion Of Rage: more for me.
Paradox Lain: more hate for me :P
Ophion Of Rage: I have plenty of that too
Paradox Lain: i'm the evil twin.
Ophion Of Rage: Are you sure we're not both evil?
Ophion Of Rage: I'm pretty much a manipulative jackass
Ophion Of Rage: who delights in the misery of others
Paradox Lain: hrm. then what balances us out?
Ophion Of Rage: *scoffs at balance*
Ophion Of Rage: that's for yin yangs.
Paradox Lain: the more evil the better.
Ophion Of Rage: just so
Paradox Lain: screw "good". evil is superior.
Ophion Of Rage: "good" is like weakning your own best interests so that others that you'll just end up hating and killing in an elaborate CG sequence on disc 3 can have a better day.
Paradox Lain: we have made good obsolete. just start out evil, it'll make the rest of the trip that much easier.
Ophion Of Rage: also it insures that you always have more HP, since you expect to be challenged by many good guys at once. :P
Paradox Lain: *laughs* and your defense is that much higher.
Ophion Of Rage: also you get many of the most impressive-looking attacks
Ophion Of Rage: and always the cool theme music
Ophion Of Rage: I don't understand why you'd want to be good at all
Ophion Of Rage: it's ridiculous
Paradox Lain: some people must feel some strange need to be "good" and "do things for others"
Ophion Of Rage: **blank expression*
Paradox Lain: people like kelly..
Ophion Of Rage: ..**sneers**
Ophion Of Rage: Just wait until the final dungeon. She'll regret not having used the save point. :P
Paradox Lain: lmao.. me loves evil chris. especially because he's insane.
Ophion Of Rage: very insane
It's quite sad how I've resorted to giving you people conversations I have with people I know instead of just outright saying what I've been up to. Whatever.
Theo
Kevin
And even though you can't really see him, rest assured, Xerjester is sexxxay.
Weirdest dream.... EVER.
Paradox Lain: i just had a dream... my first complete and non-nightmare dream.. in which I TRY TO GET TONY TO FUCK ME.
Paradox Lain: *bangs head against monitor* DIRTY TAINTED THOUGHTS
chibiukyou420: ................
chibiukyou420: wow
Paradox Lain: not only did we both get NAKED AND DO..... THINGS..... but he actually AGREED AT THE END
Paradox Lain: thank the GODS i woke up right after that...
chibiukyou420: ......yes
Paradox Lain: not only that, but in the dream i actually convinced myself that sleeping with tony wouldn't be so bad after all
Paradox Lain: >.< *bangs head against wall*
chibiukyou420: ...You're creeping me out
Paradox Lain: i'm sorry ;_;
chibiukyou420: *pat pat* Its okie
Oi >.<
Cichiri: How's Adrienne?
Paradox Lain: fantastic.
Cichiri: That's a first!
Cichiri: What happned?
Paradox Lain: nothing. i just took to lying.
Cichiri: Ah! That's good too!
Cichiri: You need to have more fun!
Paradox Lain: mmmnope.
Cichiri: Mmmmyep!
Cichiri: *poke poke* Are you Alana?
Paradox Lain: no.
Cichiri: *Sigh of relief*
Cichiri: Okay!
Cichiri: Are you and Tony dating?
Paradox Lain: yes.
Cichiri: Really?
Paradox Lain: yeah.
Cichiri: You're NOT kidding?
Paradox Lain: no, i'm not.
Cichiri: When did you start dating?
Paradox Lain: the night i spent at his house.
Cichiri: Ah
AyaPAX217: <3 your entry
Paradox Lain: ^_______^
AyaPAX217: ah! you finished the fic
Paradox Lain: you mean Found?
AyaPAX217: *nods*
Paradox Lain: and i didn't give you the link?! :o BAD SAWA *smack*
AyaPAX217: nope..
AyaPAX217: i couldn't open it until now anyway
AyaPAX217: pulling an aya chan, yep, you were
AyaPAX217: 'ecpt you don't go weeks between posts...
Paradox Lain: lol..
AyaPAX217: ooh, she makes people die? *is reading blog, found, and lyrics simultaneously*
Paradox Lain: lol...
Paradox Lain: you mean kotsu?
AyaPAX217: yeah
Paradox Lain: no, she doesn't kill people :P
Paradox Lain: keep reading, monkey
AyaPAX217: *nods, laughing at self*
AyaPAX217: aw...you didn't have him kill her? still very good...
Paradox Lain: i wanted to leave her mentally destroyed :D
AyaPAX217: it worked
AyaPAX217: perfectly
Paradox Lain: yay!
AyaPAX217: ^^ your mad skillz far surpass my own
Paradox Lain: /me wins
Paradox Lain: XD
Paradox Lain: /me does victory dance
AyaPAX217: oh yeah
AyaPAX217: my fics all suck, and i accept the fact with a scream
Paradox Lain: lmao
Paradox Lain: *glomps* me loves you anyway
AyaPAX217: yup yup
AyaPAX217: we listen to each other bitch for hours on end about life
Paradox Lain: the perfect match! *evil laughter*
AyaPAX217: *laughs* you will break me of my sheltered hell yet
Someone from school: well we decided we wanted to go to guitar center today, so 4 of us went off on a little journey
Someone from school: we got stuck in traffic, and dana (he sometimes came into our 3rd period to talk to me and robbie) pulls out his pipe and loads a bowl
Someone from school: and he and this other guy are smoking
Someone from school: when my ex and his whole family pull up in the car next to us...in traffic....on the freeway...w/ the pipe in full veiw and someone mid hit
Someone from school: i was like =O, but luckily they dont care that much
Sawa: lmao
Sawa: that's... actually pretty funny
Someone from school: i know
Someone from school: it just sucked then
Someone from school: everyone saw it! and i was like dammit you fuckheads why do you always have to smoke!
Someone from school: as of sept 1st im quitting
Paradox Lain: siiiiiiiiiigh
Jellyfish of Sea: y
Jellyfish of Sea: ow.
Paradox Lain: i'm so booooooooooooored
Paradox Lain: saaaaaaaaave meeeeeeeeee
Jellyfish of Sea: Play some Megaman X!
Paradox Lain: i gots no megaman X
Paradox Lain: can i spend the night on saturday? ;_;
Jellyfish of Sea: Download an emulator and be l33t.
Paradox Lain: meeeeeeh
Jellyfish of Sea: "Talk to me tomorrow, when I get home" she says.
Paradox Lain: bleh
Paradox Lain: i ordered shirts from thinkgeek.com ^^ one says "Got Root?" one says "WTF?" and one says "i read your e-mail"
Jellyfish of Sea: Soon she'll be having me do math. I dunno how or why, but it'll happen.
Paradox Lain: lol
Jellyfish of Sea: lol, coolness! I... um... don't have any new shirts... ><
Paradox Lain: meh. i took one of my pairs of jeans from last year and carried it over to this year's wardrobe x.x;
Jellyfish of Sea: ...that's all?
Paradox Lain: it's only because the pants are so god damn expensive at hot topic ;_;
Jellyfish of Sea: My gawd, you/your parents must be loaded, if you can continually replace your wardrobe like that.
Paradox Lain: ..i've spent the least this year as opposed to in the past..
Paradox Lain: oh wells.
Jellyfish of Sea: o.o;;
Paradox Lain: doesn't matter what you're wearing as long as you look good ;D
Jellyfish of Sea: Baby, I always look good. XD
Paradox Lain: you know it. that's why my subconscious wants to fuck you stupid. @.@
Jellyfish of Sea: *sweatdrop* Well, if it's just THAT... ^.~ ...then you don't need to worry. Lust like that can be ignored.
Paradox Lain: the thing is, i don't like you like that.
Paradox Lain: really. seriously.
Paradox Lain: i have no fucking clue why i would dream what i did.
Paradox Lain: stupid head! *smacks self*
Jellyfish of Sea: I know. It's probably a random sex scene your head came up with, and it chose a random guy. No worries.
Paradox Lain: you were kinky o.O
Jellyfish of Sea: Yep, never gonna happen. ^^;;; I mean, I'm probably gonna be like a cold fish anyway... I'll make Alana seem good. Just wait, I'll prove it on tape. XD
Paradox Lain: lmao
Paradox Lain: with nick? :o
Jellyfish of Sea: Nah
Jellyfish of Sea: Nick's too good for me. XD
Paradox Lain: too kinky, you mean? :D
Jellyfish of Sea: Yeah
Paradox Lain: tee hee
Paradox Lain: so, when i go to your house, you can show me the picture of nick? :D!
Paradox Lain: er....sam
Paradox Lain: whatever
Paradox Lain: WHY CAN'T BOYS HAVE STRANGE NAMES SO I CAN REMEMBER THEM BETTER?!
Paradox Lain: anyway.
Jellyfish of Sea: If you promise not to masturbate to it. XD
Paradox Lain: .....well, count me out :(
Jellyfish of Sea: Darn.
---
Jellyfish of Sea: Tony loves animals
Jellyfish of Sea: And little boys
Jellyfish of Sea: Lots of 'em
Paradox Lain: yay!
Paradox Lain: ^^
Jellyfish of Sea: All the time
Jellyfish of Sea: Can't stop
Paradox Lain: i know. i videotape him
Paradox Lain: he likes it when they're so small, he cracks their hip bone in two.
Jellyfish of Sea: Dammit Nick, this time fo' sure we're gonna get demoted!
Jellyfish of Sea: ........I just love it when they scream in pain... oh, those SHUDDERS... God, yes!!
Paradox Lain: *waits for the "*orgasms*"*
Jellyfish of Sea: I don't get off that easily, yo. Unlike YOU...
Paradox Lain: psssh... at least i'm quick about it ^.~
Jellyfish of Sea: XD
Paradox Lain: not liek U, juilet :PPP
Jellyfish of Sea: stfu i is godo in bed :D lolollollololooool
Paradox Lain: u no u r bioch LOLOLOLOL
Jellyfish of Sea: yeah roxor :)
Paradox Lain: u mean fuxxor ;D
Jellyfish of Sea: not now hno :D
Ophion Of Rage: I'm having an incredibly bad...month.
Ophion Of Rage: August is now on the list.
Paradox Lain: my august is already on mine *glare of doom*
Ophion Of Rage: **frowns**
Ophion Of Rage: well I want August 28th.
Ophion Of Rage: :P
Paradox Lain: fine. august 14th is totally mine.
Ophion Of Rage: Yes. I agree.
Paradox Lain: worst day of my life.
Ophion Of Rage: That's May 21st for me...
Ophion Of Rage: That day is forever black.
Paradox Lain: stupid people... never.. love.... anything...
Ophion Of Rage: I disagree..
Paradox Lain: okay, how about.. anyone.
Ophion Of Rage: Still disagree.
Paradox Lain: have your love. i want nothing to do with it.
Ophion Of Rage: more for me.
Paradox Lain: more hate for me :P
Ophion Of Rage: I have plenty of that too
Paradox Lain: i'm the evil twin.
Ophion Of Rage: Are you sure we're not both evil?
Ophion Of Rage: I'm pretty much a manipulative jackass
Ophion Of Rage: who delights in the misery of others
Paradox Lain: hrm. then what balances us out?
Ophion Of Rage: *scoffs at balance*
Ophion Of Rage: that's for yin yangs.
Paradox Lain: the more evil the better.
Ophion Of Rage: just so
Paradox Lain: screw "good". evil is superior.
Ophion Of Rage: "good" is like weakning your own best interests so that others that you'll just end up hating and killing in an elaborate CG sequence on disc 3 can have a better day.
Paradox Lain: we have made good obsolete. just start out evil, it'll make the rest of the trip that much easier.
Ophion Of Rage: also it insures that you always have more HP, since you expect to be challenged by many good guys at once. :P
Paradox Lain: *laughs* and your defense is that much higher.
Ophion Of Rage: also you get many of the most impressive-looking attacks
Ophion Of Rage: and always the cool theme music
Ophion Of Rage: I don't understand why you'd want to be good at all
Ophion Of Rage: it's ridiculous
Paradox Lain: some people must feel some strange need to be "good" and "do things for others"
Ophion Of Rage: **blank expression*
Paradox Lain: people like kelly..
Ophion Of Rage: ..**sneers**
Ophion Of Rage: Just wait until the final dungeon. She'll regret not having used the save point. :P
Paradox Lain: lmao.. me loves evil chris. especially because he's insane.
Ophion Of Rage: very insane
It's quite sad how I've resorted to giving you people conversations I have with people I know instead of just outright saying what I've been up to. Whatever.
8.28.2002
"last night when i was at trenton's, we got out his telescope and looked at the moon, & tried to figure out constellations. i found cassiopeia, which trent didn't know, and was feeling rather smart, thank-you-very-much. i love the way he stood there looking for the moon, saying in a low voice, "babe, come look." & the way he directed me where to place my hands so i could adjust the focus.
all i could say was, "wow." like a child who just discovered something for the very first time. i told him the moon looked like a ball of clay up in that blue-black darkness, and he just laughed.
this world never ceases to amaze me."
Melissa fucking Jensen, you silly silly girl. "Atashi no kokoro ga miemasu ka? MITE! MITE KUDASAI!" you scream with that pink atrocity of a livejournal, but no one's seeking the silver linings you're handing out. You and soup boy WON'T live happily ever after. Yours is a tragedy waiting to happen. I WILL LAUGH SO VERY HARD WHEN YOU'RE BROKEN AND ON THE FLOOR IN TEARS.
My lips are bleeding. There's blood everywhere, on my fingertips, on the keyboard, on the mouse, on the monitor's screen, on my tongue. Tastes like a massacre.
all i could say was, "wow." like a child who just discovered something for the very first time. i told him the moon looked like a ball of clay up in that blue-black darkness, and he just laughed.
this world never ceases to amaze me."
Melissa fucking Jensen, you silly silly girl. "Atashi no kokoro ga miemasu ka? MITE! MITE KUDASAI!" you scream with that pink atrocity of a livejournal, but no one's seeking the silver linings you're handing out. You and soup boy WON'T live happily ever after. Yours is a tragedy waiting to happen. I WILL LAUGH SO VERY HARD WHEN YOU'RE BROKEN AND ON THE FLOOR IN TEARS.
My lips are bleeding. There's blood everywhere, on my fingertips, on the keyboard, on the mouse, on the monitor's screen, on my tongue. Tastes like a massacre.
Gods... nobody's online...
I wonder if ro0 will ever realize HOW DEEPLY IN LOVE WITHHIS BODY HIM I AM :O
Katharine whined about me not calling her after "THE RECENT LOSSES" happened. She pushed her antidepressant speech. I said I won't take them. I don't want help. I don't want to cover things up. I don't want to feel better. I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING COPE. I'm so tired of people assuming. I'm so tired of people wanting to help.
Pondering whether I'm still able to go to Jade's house. If I don't go, dearest, know I love you, and you'll get your present on the day we return to school.
"I don't buy your true life stories, because I've seen the way you lie. But I don't mind the things you tell me, because I know you'll say anything to get by. When we're together, somehow I feel better. My disease always tricks me. I believe that you can fix me. You're insane, I love the drama. Tell the truth, you love it too, I know you do. Reason strikes, we fight and break up. Because it seems the easiest thing to do. But when I don't get your call, I go into withdrawals. My disease always tricks me. I believe that you can fix me. I need you. I need you like a drug."
You find the strangest things on incest forums.
I wonder if ro0 will ever realize HOW DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH
Katharine whined about me not calling her after "THE RECENT LOSSES" happened. She pushed her antidepressant speech. I said I won't take them. I don't want help. I don't want to cover things up. I don't want to feel better. I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING COPE. I'm so tired of people assuming. I'm so tired of people wanting to help.
Pondering whether I'm still able to go to Jade's house. If I don't go, dearest, know I love you, and you'll get your present on the day we return to school.
"I don't buy your true life stories, because I've seen the way you lie. But I don't mind the things you tell me, because I know you'll say anything to get by. When we're together, somehow I feel better. My disease always tricks me. I believe that you can fix me. You're insane, I love the drama. Tell the truth, you love it too, I know you do. Reason strikes, we fight and break up. Because it seems the easiest thing to do. But when I don't get your call, I go into withdrawals. My disease always tricks me. I believe that you can fix me. I need you. I need you like a drug."
You find the strangest things on incest forums.
8.27.2002
You can tell how bored a person is by how many times they post in one day. I must be pulling an Aya chan. 
Paradox Lain: wut r u tlaking abotu? LOLOLOL
Jellyfish of Sea: stfu fag rofl
Paradox Lain: a/s/l???
Jellyfish of Sea: wtf
Paradox Lain: KISS MEEEEE
Jellyfish of Sea: i dunon who r u
Paradox Lain: kiss me!!!!11
Jellyfish of Sea: ok
Paradox Lain: *glomps*
Jellyfish of Sea: ^^
Paradox Lain: ur so much fun, roemo LOLOLLLOLOLOL
Jellyfish of Sea: Tybalt, the reason I love thee
Jellyfish of Sea: stfu fag LMAO
Paradox Lain: tee hee
Paradox Lain: i have to go to counseling soon ~_~
Jellyfish of Sea: Aw.
Paradox Lain: blah.. counseling... have to get myself cleaned up
Jellyfish of Sea: Okay. Ja!
Paradox Lain: see you later JUILET :o
Jellyfish of Sea: Ja ne, ROMOE lololololloololol
OFF TO COUNSELING IM SO FUCKED UP LOLOLOLOLOL
Paradox Lain: wut r u tlaking abotu? LOLOLOL
Jellyfish of Sea: stfu fag rofl
Paradox Lain: a/s/l???
Jellyfish of Sea: wtf
Paradox Lain: KISS MEEEEE
Jellyfish of Sea: i dunon who r u
Paradox Lain: kiss me!!!!11
Jellyfish of Sea: ok
Paradox Lain: *glomps*
Jellyfish of Sea: ^^
Paradox Lain: ur so much fun, roemo LOLOLLLOLOLOL
Jellyfish of Sea: Tybalt, the reason I love thee
Jellyfish of Sea: stfu fag LMAO
Paradox Lain: tee hee
Paradox Lain: i have to go to counseling soon ~_~
Jellyfish of Sea: Aw.
Paradox Lain: blah.. counseling... have to get myself cleaned up
Jellyfish of Sea: Okay. Ja!
Paradox Lain: see you later JUILET :o
Jellyfish of Sea: Ja ne, ROMOE lololololloololol
OFF TO COUNSELING IM SO FUCKED UP LOLOLOLOLOL
When you use the cordless phone from the office, and lay down in the middle of the floor in my sisters' room, in the spot where the sunlight comes down through the window, and the TV is turned off, the TV's receiver for the radio inside it picks up the phone's frequency, and makes a humming noise buzz through the speakers. There's only a cubic three inches that it happens in, though. It's easy to miss.
Is it all right? Or alright? I'm so confused.
Is it all right? Or alright? I'm so confused.
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Finished 1984. Started Fight Club. Saving the best for last. Or maybe just to set me in my place with the other people in school. They will see me carrying around Ovid, and the few that are too stupid to realize I'd rather not socialize go "who the hell's... uh... ahvid?" Hey, why not. This is the last year I have to spend at home.
Romeo: shwing :D
Juliet: hehe :)
Romeo: a/s/l???
Juliet: wtf
Romeo: kiss me
Juliet: i dunno who r u
Romeo: kiss me :D
Juliet: okay fine
KISS
Juliet: you roxor :D
Romeo: i no :D
Nurse: wtf were u doing >:o
Juliet: macking :)
Nurse: omg u n00b hes a montague >:o
Juliet: fuxor!!1 :O
........I don't know.
Ro0 senpai's Japanese/American online store opened a few days ago. ^^ There's an opening special sort of thing going on right now. Pocky is 50 cents a box. And not the small boxes with just one package, the BIG boxes with four. Mmmyum. /me orders
Finished 1984. Started Fight Club. Saving the best for last. Or maybe just to set me in my place with the other people in school. They will see me carrying around Ovid, and the few that are too stupid to realize I'd rather not socialize go "who the hell's... uh... ahvid?" Hey, why not. This is the last year I have to spend at home.
Romeo: shwing :D
Juliet: hehe :)
Romeo: a/s/l???
Juliet: wtf
Romeo: kiss me
Juliet: i dunno who r u
Romeo: kiss me :D
Juliet: okay fine
KISS
Juliet: you roxor :D
Romeo: i no :D
Nurse: wtf were u doing >:o
Juliet: macking :)
Nurse: omg u n00b hes a montague >:o
Juliet: fuxor!!1 :O
........I don't know.
*stares at her writing* So many things scratched out. So many words without sentences. So many lines without paragraphs. So. Much. Bullshit.
I.... got over being worried about him seeing me, and it was fueled... by those pictures... I let go. I released every bad feeling, every doubt, and stumbled within sight of... impending happiness. I..... listened to Bright Eyes.... and slept with a smile on my face. I ran in the rain... and marveled at the clouds.... and soaked my hair in freezing water for no reason other than to enjoy how it felt... Heavy... Dripping... I couldn't think about the things we'd do. No... that would've come later. Those few nights I felt everything within reach... I had planned... for the aftermath... and all I could think about.... was seeing him..... It was my private thrill.... Finally knowing there was someone on the other side of day... If I could just see him... I could last... just long enough....
Today is Friday, August 16th, 2002, it is 82 degrees outside, and I am sitting on hot concrete, waiting.
I just do it to torture myself.
You know me.
Masochist.
Hn.
Jesus fuck indeed.
Jongmar niga nege iromyon andoeji
Oragarag gunyowa nar ogadani
Nonun nemogsori gunyo injur argo
Dajonghage jonhwar badadon goya
Ani irorsuga nege hanmargwa togatha
Dongdam sokin yegikaji
Modu onjebuthoya irorsu ini
Ironnor midgirur barani
Nowa ibyorun jagbyorun hagi shirho
Nege sojunghan noyossunika
Nado ironnega shirhjiman ibonen yongso harkabwa
Ani dashi dashi gomingo minhebwasso
Hanboni duboni doer gojimar
Gure norur norur ijo ijo ijulle
Todarun sarangi nege ogeji
yes, i CAN sing that. no, it's NOT japanese.
*takes a fucking bow*
Paradox Lain: meh
Ophion Of Rage: meh
Paradox Lain: i got comfortable pants at hot topic. they're... comfortable.
Paradox Lain: and i didn't get to play ddr.
Paradox Lain: but i was forcefed. taco time makes me want to puke.
Ophion Of Rage: ugh
Paradox Lain: but my comfortable pants have zippers, and are a nice black/red plaid. and i got little girl panties too. they have sheep and kitties and duckies on them :)
Ophion Of Rage: lol
Ophion Of Rage: holy fuck.
Paradox Lain: hn?
Ophion Of Rage: I can't even concentrate well enough to write a stupid bullshit essay for my english class.
Ophion Of Rage: this is pathetic
Paradox Lain: was it my comment about my panties? ;D
Ophion Of Rage: lmao
Ophion Of Rage: that and my vexing illness.
Paradox Lain: *wraps arms around him* mouuuu, poor chris kun...
Ophion Of Rage: Yes. Poor Chris kun...
Ophion Of Rage: Chris the Vexed.
Paradox Lain: good name.
---
Ophion Of Rage: this essay is doubleplusungood.
Paradox Lain: bleh. high school in general = lose
Ophion Of Rage: yes. it fails.
Ophion Of Rage: but particularly this essay because it's what I'm irked about at this moment.
Ophion Of Rage: bitterness + 10
Paradox Lain: ichigobito: Morrison says "hi"
Paradox Lain: hi. i just spilled kool aid all over myself. how are you? >.<
ichigobito: you and your spilling kool aid
Paradox Lain: it's because i have no coordination *flails arms like retard*
Paradox Lain: STICKY AGAIN
ichigobito: sticky and wet
ichigobito: and I'm not there
ichigobito: ;_;
ichigobito: oh well
Paradox Lain: ohoho *blush*
Paradox Lain: blah, especially the sticky part ;_;
ichigobito: *hug*
ichigobito: I'd clean you up if I were there
Ophion Of Rage: well
Ophion Of Rage: but see
Ophion Of Rage: I would too.
Ophion Of Rage: so that's not that significant.
Paradox Lain: ah, but would you do it with your *tongue*?
Ophion Of Rage: **arches an eyebrow** would there be some other way to go about it? :P
Paradox Lain: mwahahahaha *loves chris*
Paradox Lain: no.
Paradox Lain: :)
Ophion Of Rage: exactly. ;)
Paradox Lain: hard to find someone dominating that won't take it too far too soon. bleh.
Ophion Of Rage: mm...don't relax your standards.
Paradox Lain: psh.. me? nevar.
Ophion Of Rage: *inclines head in a half-nod sort of thang*
Paradox Lain: *clings*
Paradox Lain: you and i are as close to trust as i'm ever going to get.
Ophion Of Rage: **arches an eyebrow** ...well, good enough. I'm not in the business of betraying people's trust.
Ophion Of Rage: especially people I care about. especially you.
Paradox Lain: *melts*
Paradox Lain: i loves you. *hugs*
Ophion Of Rage: **hugs back**
Ophion Of Rage: ugghh...can barely..keep..eyes open...
Ophion Of Rage: essay..not...yet...complete...
Ophion Of Rage: colonel...chris...killed...the...essay...in the study...with...the candlestick...
Paradox Lain: a blowjob is in order.
Ophion Of Rage: yes.
Ophion Of Rage: it is
Paradox Lain: ..did that wake you up? <:
Paradox Lain: i suck at these shocking/surprising/arousing people things..
Ophion Of Rage: lol
Ophion Of Rage: well
Ophion Of Rage: coming from you such a statement is neither shocking nor surprising.
Paradox Lain: figures :P
Ophion Of Rage: I'm sure you're fine on the arousing part though
Paradox Lain: :O
Paradox Lain: i knew this.... :D
Ophion Of Rage: ...after I told you. :P
Paradox Lain: well someone needed to tell me. and that someone would have to be someone i've aroused. O:)
Ophion Of Rage: of course.
Ophion Of Rage: though that face coming from you is so ridiculous it defies words. :P
Paradox Lain: that was the point.
Ophion Of Rage: of course.
Paradox Lain: when do you get your car? <:
Ophion Of Rage: next month.
Paradox Lain: :o you can come and see me SOON? *shock*
Ophion Of Rage: probably not til school is out.
Paradox Lain: .......*dies*
Ophion Of Rage: sorry..-_-
Paradox Lain: don't you have things called winter, mid-winter, and spring break?
Ophion Of Rage: **arches eyebrow**
Ophion Of Rage: winter break I've heard of. mid-winter break I have no fucking clue. spring break is a distant rumour.
Ophion Of Rage: I have a feeling that whatever mid-winter break is, it's something I'll hate because I don't get one. :P
Paradox Lain: mid-winter break, kind of like spring break, only it's in february. they gave it to us because they felt bad about eating away at our summer, or something equally fagtastic.
Ophion Of Rage: I have an uber summer.
Ophion Of Rage: I need no mid-winter break.
Ophion Of Rage: I get Easter break and LARK break. fwahaha...
Paradox Lain: i don't understand this.. you get in school a bit over a week before me... and yet you get out three weeks or so before me...
Ophion Of Rage: Like I said, uber summer.
Ophion Of Rage: My last day this year is like the 22nd of May.
Ophion Of Rage: my winter break is pretty huge also...it stretches from like the week of Christmas all the way through...January 15th?
Ophion Of Rage: And I get out of school for KAIROS too.
Paradox Lain: ......*cries* i want to go to your school.
Ophion Of Rage: I'm sure you'd have a blast.
Ophion Of Rage: at my all guys' school
Ophion Of Rage: :P
Paradox Lain: i could wear a disguise. i don't really have noticeable hips. i could just bind my breasts down.
Ophion Of Rage: *coughs*
Paradox Lain: or just sue them for being sexually discriminating, i hear that works sometimes.
Paradox Lain: or pay someone to fuck the school records up.
Paradox Lain: like a reverse of Shun Kisaragi from Koko wa Greenwood!
Ophion Of Rage: ..uh
Ophion Of Rage: I'm trying to get Melissa to buy some LSD!
Paradox Lain: lol
Ophion Of Rage: well I figure she needs some.
Ophion Of Rage: and I need some money.
Ophion Of Rage: Is that so wrong?
Paradox Lain: nope.
Paradox Lain: ^^
Ophion Of Rage: I thought not!
Ophion Of Rage: Damnit
Ophion Of Rage: She's not working with me here..
Paradox Lain: bah
Ophion Of Rage: well there goes yet another plan. **sighs unhappily, returning to drawing board**
Ophion Of Rage: s...s...leeep...
Ophion Of Rage: **puts on slippers of agility and sneaks away**
Paradox Lain: oh nooooos
Paradox Lain: you can't leave me here ;_;
Ophion Of Rage: I can't?
Paradox Lain: there's nothing to do
Ophion Of Rage: I need sleep so I don't die of horrific illness.
Paradox Lain: and that's fair to me?
Ophion Of Rage: yes
Paradox Lain: you're just like all the other guys i sleep with! ;_;
Ophion Of Rage: if I die of horrific illness...
Ophion Of Rage: I can't come visit you
Ophion Of Rage: :P
Paradox Lain: *hugs* night. ^^
Ophion Of Rage: lol...I'm a guy you sleep with? :P **hugs back**
Paradox Lain: that was the joke.
Ophion Of Rage: ohhhh yeah a joke....
Ophion Of Rage: I remember those...
Paradox Lain: go to sleep. get better. i love you. :D
Ophion Of Rage: I love you too..
Ophion Of Rage: I got inhaled into an evil vortex.
Ophion Of Rage: I'll be here for another 10 minutes.
Paradox Lain: i'm teaching myself how to pronounce korean o.o
Ophion Of Rage: is it fun?
Paradox Lain: it's like... japanese and english had sex and this is their deformed baby.
Ophion Of Rage: the sex part sounds good
Paradox Lain: small example:
Nado ironnega shirhjiman ibonen yongso harkabwa
ani dashi dashi gomingo minhebwasso
hanboni duboni doer gojimar
Ophion Of Rage: ...the sex part sounds good
Paradox Lain: indeed it does.
Ophion Of Rage: the rest of it..not as good as the sex.
Paradox Lain: mmnope.
Ophion Of Rage: and now I want to have sex. I'm blaming you though.
Paradox Lain: okay ^^
Ophion Of Rage: pssh lol
Ophion Of Rage: you're probably pleased with yourself :P
Paradox Lain: incredibly. :)
Ophion Of Rage: oh god...-_-
Paradox Lain: tee hee! O:)
Ophion Of Rage: lol
Ophion Of Rage: I guess this leaves only one option...
Paradox Lain: which is?
Ophion Of Rage: uh
Ophion Of Rage: I haven't decided.
Paradox Lain: ...korean...is....retarded.....
Paradox Lain: ugh, it so does not help that the only singers i know that ARE korean, are pop..
Ophion Of Rage: o.o;;
Ophion Of Rage: yes.
Ophion Of Rage: meanwhile...he...masturbated in silence? o.o;
Paradox Lain: ....
Paradox Lain: *peers over at him*
Paradox Lain: go about your business. i'll sit here andfantasize sing my korean pop...
Ophion Of Rage: psssh lol
Ophion Of Rage: korean pop vs fantasizing
Ophion Of Rage: which one is better? :P
Paradox Lain: mmmm... the real thing.
Ophion Of Rage: lol
Ophion Of Rage: yes.
Ophion Of Rage: ^_^
TEH END.
Oragarag gunyowa nar ogadani
Nonun nemogsori gunyo injur argo
Dajonghage jonhwar badadon goya
Ani irorsuga nege hanmargwa togatha
Dongdam sokin yegikaji
Modu onjebuthoya irorsu ini
Ironnor midgirur barani
Nowa ibyorun jagbyorun hagi shirho
Nege sojunghan noyossunika
Nado ironnega shirhjiman ibonen yongso harkabwa
Ani dashi dashi gomingo minhebwasso
Hanboni duboni doer gojimar
Gure norur norur ijo ijo ijulle
Todarun sarangi nege ogeji
yes, i CAN sing that. no, it's NOT japanese.
*takes a fucking bow*
Paradox Lain: meh
Ophion Of Rage: meh
Paradox Lain: i got comfortable pants at hot topic. they're... comfortable.
Paradox Lain: and i didn't get to play ddr.
Paradox Lain: but i was forcefed. taco time makes me want to puke.
Ophion Of Rage: ugh
Paradox Lain: but my comfortable pants have zippers, and are a nice black/red plaid. and i got little girl panties too. they have sheep and kitties and duckies on them :)
Ophion Of Rage: lol
Ophion Of Rage: holy fuck.
Paradox Lain: hn?
Ophion Of Rage: I can't even concentrate well enough to write a stupid bullshit essay for my english class.
Ophion Of Rage: this is pathetic
Paradox Lain: was it my comment about my panties? ;D
Ophion Of Rage: lmao
Ophion Of Rage: that and my vexing illness.
Paradox Lain: *wraps arms around him* mouuuu, poor chris kun...
Ophion Of Rage: Yes. Poor Chris kun...
Ophion Of Rage: Chris the Vexed.
Paradox Lain: good name.
---
Ophion Of Rage: this essay is doubleplusungood.
Paradox Lain: bleh. high school in general = lose
Ophion Of Rage: yes. it fails.
Ophion Of Rage: but particularly this essay because it's what I'm irked about at this moment.
Ophion Of Rage: bitterness + 10
Paradox Lain: ichigobito: Morrison says "hi"
Paradox Lain: hi. i just spilled kool aid all over myself. how are you? >.<
ichigobito: you and your spilling kool aid
Paradox Lain: it's because i have no coordination *flails arms like retard*
Paradox Lain: STICKY AGAIN
ichigobito: sticky and wet
ichigobito: and I'm not there
ichigobito: ;_;
ichigobito: oh well
Paradox Lain: ohoho *blush*
Paradox Lain: blah, especially the sticky part ;_;
ichigobito: *hug*
ichigobito: I'd clean you up if I were there
Ophion Of Rage: well
Ophion Of Rage: but see
Ophion Of Rage: I would too.
Ophion Of Rage: so that's not that significant.
Paradox Lain: ah, but would you do it with your *tongue*?
Ophion Of Rage: **arches an eyebrow** would there be some other way to go about it? :P
Paradox Lain: mwahahahaha *loves chris*
Paradox Lain: no.
Paradox Lain: :)
Ophion Of Rage: exactly. ;)
Paradox Lain: hard to find someone dominating that won't take it too far too soon. bleh.
Ophion Of Rage: mm...don't relax your standards.
Paradox Lain: psh.. me? nevar.
Ophion Of Rage: *inclines head in a half-nod sort of thang*
Paradox Lain: *clings*
Paradox Lain: you and i are as close to trust as i'm ever going to get.
Ophion Of Rage: **arches an eyebrow** ...well, good enough. I'm not in the business of betraying people's trust.
Ophion Of Rage: especially people I care about. especially you.
Paradox Lain: *melts*
Paradox Lain: i loves you. *hugs*
Ophion Of Rage: **hugs back**
Ophion Of Rage: ugghh...can barely..keep..eyes open...
Ophion Of Rage: essay..not...yet...complete...
Ophion Of Rage: colonel...chris...killed...the...essay...in the study...with...the candlestick...
Paradox Lain: a blowjob is in order.
Ophion Of Rage: yes.
Ophion Of Rage: it is
Paradox Lain: ..did that wake you up? <:
Paradox Lain: i suck at these shocking/surprising/arousing people things..
Ophion Of Rage: lol
Ophion Of Rage: well
Ophion Of Rage: coming from you such a statement is neither shocking nor surprising.
Paradox Lain: figures :P
Ophion Of Rage: I'm sure you're fine on the arousing part though
Paradox Lain: :O
Paradox Lain: i knew this.... :D
Ophion Of Rage: ...after I told you. :P
Paradox Lain: well someone needed to tell me. and that someone would have to be someone i've aroused. O:)
Ophion Of Rage: of course.
Ophion Of Rage: though that face coming from you is so ridiculous it defies words. :P
Paradox Lain: that was the point.
Ophion Of Rage: of course.
Paradox Lain: when do you get your car? <:
Ophion Of Rage: next month.
Paradox Lain: :o you can come and see me SOON? *shock*
Ophion Of Rage: probably not til school is out.
Paradox Lain: .......*dies*
Ophion Of Rage: sorry..-_-
Paradox Lain: don't you have things called winter, mid-winter, and spring break?
Ophion Of Rage: **arches eyebrow**
Ophion Of Rage: winter break I've heard of. mid-winter break I have no fucking clue. spring break is a distant rumour.
Ophion Of Rage: I have a feeling that whatever mid-winter break is, it's something I'll hate because I don't get one. :P
Paradox Lain: mid-winter break, kind of like spring break, only it's in february. they gave it to us because they felt bad about eating away at our summer, or something equally fagtastic.
Ophion Of Rage: I have an uber summer.
Ophion Of Rage: I need no mid-winter break.
Ophion Of Rage: I get Easter break and LARK break. fwahaha...
Paradox Lain: i don't understand this.. you get in school a bit over a week before me... and yet you get out three weeks or so before me...
Ophion Of Rage: Like I said, uber summer.
Ophion Of Rage: My last day this year is like the 22nd of May.
Ophion Of Rage: my winter break is pretty huge also...it stretches from like the week of Christmas all the way through...January 15th?
Ophion Of Rage: And I get out of school for KAIROS too.
Paradox Lain: ......*cries* i want to go to your school.
Ophion Of Rage: I'm sure you'd have a blast.
Ophion Of Rage: at my all guys' school
Ophion Of Rage: :P
Paradox Lain: i could wear a disguise. i don't really have noticeable hips. i could just bind my breasts down.
Ophion Of Rage: *coughs*
Paradox Lain: or just sue them for being sexually discriminating, i hear that works sometimes.
Paradox Lain: or pay someone to fuck the school records up.
Paradox Lain: like a reverse of Shun Kisaragi from Koko wa Greenwood!
Ophion Of Rage: ..uh
Ophion Of Rage: I'm trying to get Melissa to buy some LSD!
Paradox Lain: lol
Ophion Of Rage: well I figure she needs some.
Ophion Of Rage: and I need some money.
Ophion Of Rage: Is that so wrong?
Paradox Lain: nope.
Paradox Lain: ^^
Ophion Of Rage: I thought not!
Ophion Of Rage: Damnit
Ophion Of Rage: She's not working with me here..
Paradox Lain: bah
Ophion Of Rage: well there goes yet another plan. **sighs unhappily, returning to drawing board**
Ophion Of Rage: s...s...leeep...
Ophion Of Rage: **puts on slippers of agility and sneaks away**
Paradox Lain: oh nooooos
Paradox Lain: you can't leave me here ;_;
Ophion Of Rage: I can't?
Paradox Lain: there's nothing to do
Ophion Of Rage: I need sleep so I don't die of horrific illness.
Paradox Lain: and that's fair to me?
Ophion Of Rage: yes
Paradox Lain: you're just like all the other guys i sleep with! ;_;
Ophion Of Rage: if I die of horrific illness...
Ophion Of Rage: I can't come visit you
Ophion Of Rage: :P
Paradox Lain: *hugs* night. ^^
Ophion Of Rage: lol...I'm a guy you sleep with? :P **hugs back**
Paradox Lain: that was the joke.
Ophion Of Rage: ohhhh yeah a joke....
Ophion Of Rage: I remember those...
Paradox Lain: go to sleep. get better. i love you. :D
Ophion Of Rage: I love you too..
Ophion Of Rage: I got inhaled into an evil vortex.
Ophion Of Rage: I'll be here for another 10 minutes.
Paradox Lain: i'm teaching myself how to pronounce korean o.o
Ophion Of Rage: is it fun?
Paradox Lain: it's like... japanese and english had sex and this is their deformed baby.
Ophion Of Rage: the sex part sounds good
Paradox Lain: small example:
Nado ironnega shirhjiman ibonen yongso harkabwa
ani dashi dashi gomingo minhebwasso
hanboni duboni doer gojimar
Ophion Of Rage: ...the sex part sounds good
Paradox Lain: indeed it does.
Ophion Of Rage: the rest of it..not as good as the sex.
Paradox Lain: mmnope.
Ophion Of Rage: and now I want to have sex. I'm blaming you though.
Paradox Lain: okay ^^
Ophion Of Rage: pssh lol
Ophion Of Rage: you're probably pleased with yourself :P
Paradox Lain: incredibly. :)
Ophion Of Rage: oh god...-_-
Paradox Lain: tee hee! O:)
Ophion Of Rage: lol
Ophion Of Rage: I guess this leaves only one option...
Paradox Lain: which is?
Ophion Of Rage: uh
Ophion Of Rage: I haven't decided.
Paradox Lain: ...korean...is....retarded.....
Paradox Lain: ugh, it so does not help that the only singers i know that ARE korean, are pop..
Ophion Of Rage: o.o;;
Ophion Of Rage: yes.
Ophion Of Rage: meanwhile...he...masturbated in silence? o.o;
Paradox Lain: ....
Paradox Lain: *peers over at him*
Paradox Lain: go about your business. i'll sit here and
Ophion Of Rage: psssh lol
Ophion Of Rage: korean pop vs fantasizing
Ophion Of Rage: which one is better? :P
Paradox Lain: mmmm... the real thing.
Ophion Of Rage: lol
Ophion Of Rage: yes.
Ophion Of Rage: ^_^
TEH END.
8.26.2002
8.25.2002
"I told her. Those three words... they mean more to me than most people think. Loving someone... is making sure they're happy. No matter what it takes. Doing what she wants. And I'm all too willing to do that for her, if it will help...
I just don't want to see her so sad. I want to make her content. I want to be there, to help, to be useful... I won't stand injustice anymore."
Awww, Tony... *melts*
Paradox Lain: if it wasn't for me, you'd be so very ignorant to a lot of things
Jellyfish of Sea: Yeah, like teen male pregnancy. o.O
It's along short long story :D
JoeAndHisMonkey: Katie wanted to do it on a park bench, with someone sitting next to us or something.
JoeAndHisMonkey: o.O
Paradox Lain: lmao
Paradox Lain: do eet :D
JoeAndHisMonkey: Yea, but she won't 'till she's married.
JoeAndHisMonkey: O.o
JoeAndHisMonkey: @.@ Mr. Faithful here will wait.
Paradox Lain: hahahaha
JoeAndHisMonkey: See? *points to his superman tights*
Paradox Lain: ...is this where we molest the small children?
JoeAndHisMonkey: no...
JoeAndHisMonkey: ...how small...?
Paradox Lain: whatever you want, i got. :D
JoeAndHisMonkey: My child dealer.
Paradox Lain: mmyep.
Paradox Lain: i keep them in the closet.
Paradox Lain: ^^
JoeAndHisMonkey: Lol
JoeAndHisMonkey: Do you have any with like, defects?
JoeAndHisMonkey: You know, an extra arm sticking from somewhere it shouldn't or whatever?
JoeAndHisMonkey: Or three eyes?
JoeAndHisMonkey: Maybe three balls...?
JoeAndHisMonkey: Or one?
Paradox Lain: i'm sure we could whip something up for your specific interests.
JoeAndHisMonkey: I know a kid who has one nut or something
JoeAndHisMonkey: lmfao
Paradox Lain: all it takes is a day of surgery
JoeAndHisMonkey: Hah
JoeAndHisMonkey: a friend of the family's grankid got like
JoeAndHisMonkey: severely injured in Motocross
JoeAndHisMonkey: almost died
JoeAndHisMonkey: he got like run over?
JoeAndHisMonkey: or impaled or something, i'm not quite sure which, it was nasty though
JoeAndHisMonkey: they did surgery on him all today
Paradox Lain: you know you, like, talk like a valley girl sometimes? GAG ME WITH A SPOON LOLOLOLOL
JoeAndHisMonkey: lol
JoeAndHisMonkey: only when I type
Paradox Lain: i won't be able to take anything seriously for the next hour or so, so don't even bother.
Paradox Lain: ohoho! no.
JoeAndHisMonkey: yes.
JoeAndHisMonkey: yes yes yes yyeysaiyetiaeht
Paradox Lain: /me laughs at j00
JoeAndHisMonkey: clobberknockles
JoeAndHisMonkey: WTF are clobberknockles?!
JoeAndHisMonkey: ha ha
JoeAndHisMonkey: I said that to my friend at like... 4 AM
Paradox Lain: QUACK QUACK QUACK
JoeAndHisMonkey: I said
JoeAndHisMonkey: WHOA MAN, YOU KNOW IT'D BE NICE TO HAVE A BIG OL' PAIR OF CLOBBERKNOCKLES TO GRAB ONTO RIGHT NOW!
JoeAndHisMonkey: he's like
JoeAndHisMonkey: 'WTF ARE CLOBBERKNOCKLES?!'
JoeAndHisMonkey: and then, like, ya know, like, totally, he just went off and, like, bought the whole mall, like, ya know?
Paradox Lain: fer sure!
JoeAndHisMonkey: garhahahahagar
Paradox Lain: ....
Paradox Lain: /me smaks j00
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me is owwed
Paradox Lain: /me phucked j00 up good
JoeAndHisMonkey: phucked, ha ha
JoeAndHisMonkey: say "garhahahahagar" IRL
Paradox Lain: nnnno.
JoeAndHisMonkey: lmfao
JoeAndHisMonkey: hoooootarrrrrz
Paradox Lain: child.
JoeAndHisMonkey: whatcha got in the bag? groceries? boobie tasles?
Paradox Lain: dog meat.
JoeAndHisMonkey: You know, there are better things to life besides being really really really really really really good looking.
JoeAndHisMonkey: It's not ever day a group of male models is killed in a freak gasoline fight accident!
JoeAndHisMonkey: How can they learn if they can't even fit in the building?! It needs to be at least three times bigger!
Paradox Lain: i can speak dutch.
JoeAndHisMonkey: lol
JoeAndHisMonkey: there are two thigns I hate in this world
JoeAndHisMonkey: The first being people who are racist against people with other cultural backgrounds, and the dutch.
Paradox Lain: but I'M dutch :O
Paradox Lain: /me smaks j00
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me evades?
Paradox Lain: you can't evade PURE EVIL
JoeAndHisMonkey: um
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me does
Paradox Lain: you're not even wearing your mask!
Paradox Lain: you can't play calvinball without a MASK!
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me getses a mask
Paradox Lain: /me yays
Paradox Lain: /me grabs the calvinball and runs
Paradox Lain: /me declares rule that everyone has to hop on one foot till someone finds the bonus box
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me does
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me finds it
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me wins
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me gets ball?
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me does
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me makes touchdown/hole in one/basket/goal
Paradox Lain: /me gets Q more points because i touched the opposites pole and by not declaring it declared it
Paradox Lain: /me thinks j00 don't know how to play calvinball
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me doesn't know
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me whips out a gun and starts shooting at the ball
Paradox Lain: /me protects ball
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me says woo
Paradox Lain: /me throws ball at your head
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me bullets of chocolate hail her
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me dooks
Paradox Lain: /me tackles you
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me ish tacklered
Paradox Lain: /me beats you with croquet stick thing
Paradox Lain: /me grabs ball and runs for silence zone
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me stops her
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me steals
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me puts on blades and flies away frum hur
Paradox Lain: /me declares rule of moving backwards
Paradox Lain: /me runs backwards after him
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me runs backwards faster
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me declares rule of only me moving
Paradox Lain: /me declares joey should die cause he changes the rules to help himself rule
Paradox Lain: :O
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me dies, but is made a martyr of calvinball in the process
Paradox Lain: /me grabs calvinball and scores 11 points
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me grabs another calvinball and scores 361986241763298763298726581538612987532185 points
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me score is doubled because i am dead
Paradox Lain: /me says the score is still XK to -4293750947505038409 and i'm winning you valley boi you!
JoeAndHisMonkey: valley boi
JoeAndHisMonkey: ha ha
JoeAndHisMonkey: that's ufnky
Paradox Lain: ufnky indeed
When does the insanity STOP?!
Sawa: *takes a few steps, then collapses on the ground* oog. [For those of you that don't have the pleasure of knowing me irl, I actually do this. Ask Melissa.]
Sawa: didn't have enough sugar yesterday to come off the 400 something grams i had on friday and now i feel like my blood's been replaced with syrup x.x
Chris: uh-oh
Sawa: i hates this feeling.
Chris: understandably
Chris: Right. Still feeling syrupy?
Sawa: no, just dumb. http://fucksociety.ca/cgi-bin/ultimatebb.cgi?ubb=get_topic&f=7&t=000219
Chris: why do you feel dumb?
Sawa: i'll just quote. *ahem* "Holy fuck my adolescent brain!"
Chris: lol
Chris: quantam mechanics is interesting though
Sawa: tis.
Chris: and nobody on earth understands all of quantum theory
Chris: so there's no reason to feel stupid
Sawa: ahah! a challenge!
Chris: Indeed.
Sawa: fuck love when you have sciene/math/philosophy/teh intarnet
Chris: I like love better.
Sawa: silly romantic.
Sawa: those four things don't hurt you <:
Sawa: god dammit, the hard part about this is finding UP TO DATE information.
Chris: actually math does hurt me
Chris: and so does science
Sawa: how so?
Chris: I have to take classes based on them. and those are physically painful.
Sawa: oh. well, okay, classes on those = suck.
Chris: yes. they fail.
Sawa: philosophy is alright
Chris: but the internet is just a stupid diversion which keeps me from focusing more on reality..
Sawa: i'm not fond of my reality atm.
Chris: Mine will be wonderful once I have my car.
Chris: and not a moment before.
Sawa: that means you could come here :O
Chris: true
Chris: not that your parents would allow that or anything
Sawa: sure they would. i just have to tell them you went full-on fag :D
Chris: ...
Sawa: ..you're not? :O
Sawa: i'm sure you wouldn't mind saying so.
Chris: uh
Chris: yeah I would..
Sawa: *blink* why?
Chris: cuz I'm straight...
Sawa: and?
Chris: ..and I'd rather not claim to be gay.
Sawa: ....not to come and see me? :(
Chris: well I'd love to come and see you
Chris: the problem lies in that I'd rather not expose myself to the whole range of other bias against gay people.
Chris: people hate gay people. I don't want to be a part of it.
---
Chris: so you want me to pretend to be gay so I can come see you
Sawa: i have no problem with it. my mother has nothing against gay people. my friends are rather *partial* to gay people. i don't see the problem.
Chris: you mean melissa..
Chris: pshh..
Sawa: i have more friends that just melissa [there's Tony too...*cries*]
Sawa: not like you'd see any of them anyway, they're the sort that lock themselves in their caves and stay online all night
Chris: ahhh...
Chris: that sort.
Chris: I know you have more friends than just melissa
Chris: but when you talk about people that are partial to gay people
Sawa: we don't have to tell *everyone* you're gay. just my mum.
Chris: lol
Chris: right
Chris: okay, okay, we'll tell your mom that I'm gay. :P
Sawa: yay ^^ *loves you forevar*
Chris: lol
---
Sawa: speeeeeeak.
Chris: Speaking.
Sawa: me is bored :\
Sawa: bored may or may not mean hyper.
Chris: Indeed.
Chris: I'm sick.
Chris: Sick may or may not mean extremely rageful.
Sawa: annoying primates getting to you again?
Chris: That and my crushing headache, uncontrollable cough, and raging fever.
Sawa: oh. poor chris.
Chris: Meh.
Chris: I'll be fine.
---
Chris: so much for speaking.
Sawa: i don't want to disturb you <:
Sawa: you seem kinda.. icky feeling. and i dun like it when people ramble about nothing when *i* do. so.
Chris: mm...thanks. *loves you forever*
Sawa: *dies happy*
Chris: nooo don't die
Chris: if you die, I can't come visit you.
Sawa: oh, right. *undies*
Chris: good.
Chris: even if I have to pretend I'm a fag.
Sawa: 1984 is a good book.
Chris: eh. yeah it's alright.
Chris: especially the very last line.
Sawa: you tell me what the last line is and i keel you... bleh, you just have to pretend to be a faeg around my mother. around my friends, you can be your real self.
Chris: Good, good.
Chris: I'm not telling you the last line.
Chris: Enjoy the book, and tell me what you think of it when you get there.
Sawa: will do ^^
Chris: graci.
Sawa: james let me borrow/keep his copy. and he bought me Ovid's Metamorphoses, and Fight Club ^^
Chris: wow, very nice.
Chris: you ever read any Dean Koontz?
Sawa: spoiled me. maybe it was in return for allowing him **CENSORED FOR POSSIBLE ASSUMPTION :O**... ohoho, *have* i... yes. a handful. he's the one author i will buy without reading the backs.
Chris: ever read "from the corner of his eye" ?
Sawa: mmmnope.
Chris: do so.
Chris: it's all about that quantam theory stuff.
Sawa: mission accepted.
Chris: and it has the most amazingly fucked up evil type.
Sawa: that's always good.
Chris: yes.
Sawa: Ovid = yummy. *nodnod*
Chris: *agrees*
---
Chris: mm...so what are we going to do, exactly, when I come visit you?
Sawa: hm... good question.
Chris: no plans?
Sawa: seattle is my haven. there's nothing to do here.
Sawa: they have art galleries downtown. and a multiple layered movie theatre. and starbucks every block.
Chris: mm..
Seattle... is.... home......
I just don't want to see her so sad. I want to make her content. I want to be there, to help, to be useful... I won't stand injustice anymore."
Awww, Tony... *melts*
Paradox Lain: if it wasn't for me, you'd be so very ignorant to a lot of things
Jellyfish of Sea: Yeah, like teen male pregnancy. o.O
It's a
JoeAndHisMonkey: Katie wanted to do it on a park bench, with someone sitting next to us or something.
JoeAndHisMonkey: o.O
Paradox Lain: lmao
Paradox Lain: do eet :D
JoeAndHisMonkey: Yea, but she won't 'till she's married.
JoeAndHisMonkey: O.o
JoeAndHisMonkey: @.@ Mr. Faithful here will wait.
Paradox Lain: hahahaha
JoeAndHisMonkey: See? *points to his superman tights*
Paradox Lain: ...is this where we molest the small children?
JoeAndHisMonkey: no...
JoeAndHisMonkey: ...how small...?
Paradox Lain: whatever you want, i got. :D
JoeAndHisMonkey: My child dealer.
Paradox Lain: mmyep.
Paradox Lain: i keep them in the closet.
Paradox Lain: ^^
JoeAndHisMonkey: Lol
JoeAndHisMonkey: Do you have any with like, defects?
JoeAndHisMonkey: You know, an extra arm sticking from somewhere it shouldn't or whatever?
JoeAndHisMonkey: Or three eyes?
JoeAndHisMonkey: Maybe three balls...?
JoeAndHisMonkey: Or one?
Paradox Lain: i'm sure we could whip something up for your specific interests.
JoeAndHisMonkey: I know a kid who has one nut or something
JoeAndHisMonkey: lmfao
Paradox Lain: all it takes is a day of surgery
JoeAndHisMonkey: Hah
JoeAndHisMonkey: a friend of the family's grankid got like
JoeAndHisMonkey: severely injured in Motocross
JoeAndHisMonkey: almost died
JoeAndHisMonkey: he got like run over?
JoeAndHisMonkey: or impaled or something, i'm not quite sure which, it was nasty though
JoeAndHisMonkey: they did surgery on him all today
Paradox Lain: you know you, like, talk like a valley girl sometimes? GAG ME WITH A SPOON LOLOLOLOL
JoeAndHisMonkey: lol
JoeAndHisMonkey: only when I type
Paradox Lain: i won't be able to take anything seriously for the next hour or so, so don't even bother.
Paradox Lain: ohoho! no.
JoeAndHisMonkey: yes.
JoeAndHisMonkey: yes yes yes yyeysaiyetiaeht
Paradox Lain: /me laughs at j00
JoeAndHisMonkey: clobberknockles
JoeAndHisMonkey: WTF are clobberknockles?!
JoeAndHisMonkey: ha ha
JoeAndHisMonkey: I said that to my friend at like... 4 AM
Paradox Lain: QUACK QUACK QUACK
JoeAndHisMonkey: I said
JoeAndHisMonkey: WHOA MAN, YOU KNOW IT'D BE NICE TO HAVE A BIG OL' PAIR OF CLOBBERKNOCKLES TO GRAB ONTO RIGHT NOW!
JoeAndHisMonkey: he's like
JoeAndHisMonkey: 'WTF ARE CLOBBERKNOCKLES?!'
JoeAndHisMonkey: and then, like, ya know, like, totally, he just went off and, like, bought the whole mall, like, ya know?
Paradox Lain: fer sure!
JoeAndHisMonkey: garhahahahagar
Paradox Lain: ....
Paradox Lain: /me smaks j00
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me is owwed
Paradox Lain: /me phucked j00 up good
JoeAndHisMonkey: phucked, ha ha
JoeAndHisMonkey: say "garhahahahagar" IRL
Paradox Lain: nnnno.
JoeAndHisMonkey: lmfao
JoeAndHisMonkey: hoooootarrrrrz
Paradox Lain: child.
JoeAndHisMonkey: whatcha got in the bag? groceries? boobie tasles?
Paradox Lain: dog meat.
JoeAndHisMonkey: You know, there are better things to life besides being really really really really really really good looking.
JoeAndHisMonkey: It's not ever day a group of male models is killed in a freak gasoline fight accident!
JoeAndHisMonkey: How can they learn if they can't even fit in the building?! It needs to be at least three times bigger!
Paradox Lain: i can speak dutch.
JoeAndHisMonkey: lol
JoeAndHisMonkey: there are two thigns I hate in this world
JoeAndHisMonkey: The first being people who are racist against people with other cultural backgrounds, and the dutch.
Paradox Lain: but I'M dutch :O
Paradox Lain: /me smaks j00
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me evades?
Paradox Lain: you can't evade PURE EVIL
JoeAndHisMonkey: um
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me does
Paradox Lain: you're not even wearing your mask!
Paradox Lain: you can't play calvinball without a MASK!
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me getses a mask
Paradox Lain: /me yays
Paradox Lain: /me grabs the calvinball and runs
Paradox Lain: /me declares rule that everyone has to hop on one foot till someone finds the bonus box
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me does
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me finds it
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me wins
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me gets ball?
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me does
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me makes touchdown/hole in one/basket/goal
Paradox Lain: /me gets Q more points because i touched the opposites pole and by not declaring it declared it
Paradox Lain: /me thinks j00 don't know how to play calvinball
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me doesn't know
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me whips out a gun and starts shooting at the ball
Paradox Lain: /me protects ball
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me says woo
Paradox Lain: /me throws ball at your head
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me bullets of chocolate hail her
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me dooks
Paradox Lain: /me tackles you
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me ish tacklered
Paradox Lain: /me beats you with croquet stick thing
Paradox Lain: /me grabs ball and runs for silence zone
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me stops her
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me steals
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me puts on blades and flies away frum hur
Paradox Lain: /me declares rule of moving backwards
Paradox Lain: /me runs backwards after him
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me runs backwards faster
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me declares rule of only me moving
Paradox Lain: /me declares joey should die cause he changes the rules to help himself rule
Paradox Lain: :O
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me dies, but is made a martyr of calvinball in the process
Paradox Lain: /me grabs calvinball and scores 11 points
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me grabs another calvinball and scores 361986241763298763298726581538612987532185 points
JoeAndHisMonkey: /me score is doubled because i am dead
Paradox Lain: /me says the score is still XK to -4293750947505038409 and i'm winning you valley boi you!
JoeAndHisMonkey: valley boi
JoeAndHisMonkey: ha ha
JoeAndHisMonkey: that's ufnky
Paradox Lain: ufnky indeed
When does the insanity STOP?!
Sawa: *takes a few steps, then collapses on the ground* oog. [For those of you that don't have the pleasure of knowing me irl, I actually do this. Ask Melissa.]
Sawa: didn't have enough sugar yesterday to come off the 400 something grams i had on friday and now i feel like my blood's been replaced with syrup x.x
Chris: uh-oh
Sawa: i hates this feeling.
Chris: understandably
Chris: Right. Still feeling syrupy?
Sawa: no, just dumb. http://fucksociety.ca/cgi-bin/ultimatebb.cgi?ubb=get_topic&f=7&t=000219
Chris: why do you feel dumb?
Sawa: i'll just quote. *ahem* "Holy fuck my adolescent brain!"
Chris: lol
Chris: quantam mechanics is interesting though
Sawa: tis.
Chris: and nobody on earth understands all of quantum theory
Chris: so there's no reason to feel stupid
Sawa: ahah! a challenge!
Chris: Indeed.
Sawa: fuck love when you have sciene/math/philosophy/teh intarnet
Chris: I like love better.
Sawa: silly romantic.
Sawa: those four things don't hurt you <:
Sawa: god dammit, the hard part about this is finding UP TO DATE information.
Chris: actually math does hurt me
Chris: and so does science
Sawa: how so?
Chris: I have to take classes based on them. and those are physically painful.
Sawa: oh. well, okay, classes on those = suck.
Chris: yes. they fail.
Sawa: philosophy is alright
Chris: but the internet is just a stupid diversion which keeps me from focusing more on reality..
Sawa: i'm not fond of my reality atm.
Chris: Mine will be wonderful once I have my car.
Chris: and not a moment before.
Sawa: that means you could come here :O
Chris: true
Chris: not that your parents would allow that or anything
Sawa: sure they would. i just have to tell them you went full-on fag :D
Chris: ...
Sawa: ..you're not? :O
Sawa: i'm sure you wouldn't mind saying so.
Chris: uh
Chris: yeah I would..
Sawa: *blink* why?
Chris: cuz I'm straight...
Sawa: and?
Chris: ..and I'd rather not claim to be gay.
Sawa: ....not to come and see me? :(
Chris: well I'd love to come and see you
Chris: the problem lies in that I'd rather not expose myself to the whole range of other bias against gay people.
Chris: people hate gay people. I don't want to be a part of it.
---
Chris: so you want me to pretend to be gay so I can come see you
Sawa: i have no problem with it. my mother has nothing against gay people. my friends are rather *partial* to gay people. i don't see the problem.
Chris: you mean melissa..
Chris: pshh..
Sawa: i have more friends that just melissa [there's Tony too...*cries*]
Sawa: not like you'd see any of them anyway, they're the sort that lock themselves in their caves and stay online all night
Chris: ahhh...
Chris: that sort.
Chris: I know you have more friends than just melissa
Chris: but when you talk about people that are partial to gay people
Sawa: we don't have to tell *everyone* you're gay. just my mum.
Chris: lol
Chris: right
Chris: okay, okay, we'll tell your mom that I'm gay. :P
Sawa: yay ^^ *loves you forevar*
Chris: lol
---
Sawa: speeeeeeak.
Chris: Speaking.
Sawa: me is bored :\
Sawa: bored may or may not mean hyper.
Chris: Indeed.
Chris: I'm sick.
Chris: Sick may or may not mean extremely rageful.
Sawa: annoying primates getting to you again?
Chris: That and my crushing headache, uncontrollable cough, and raging fever.
Sawa: oh. poor chris.
Chris: Meh.
Chris: I'll be fine.
---
Chris: so much for speaking.
Sawa: i don't want to disturb you <:
Sawa: you seem kinda.. icky feeling. and i dun like it when people ramble about nothing when *i* do. so.
Chris: mm...thanks. *loves you forever*
Sawa: *dies happy*
Chris: nooo don't die
Chris: if you die, I can't come visit you.
Sawa: oh, right. *undies*
Chris: good.
Chris: even if I have to pretend I'm a fag.
Sawa: 1984 is a good book.
Chris: eh. yeah it's alright.
Chris: especially the very last line.
Sawa: you tell me what the last line is and i keel you... bleh, you just have to pretend to be a faeg around my mother. around my friends, you can be your real self.
Chris: Good, good.
Chris: I'm not telling you the last line.
Chris: Enjoy the book, and tell me what you think of it when you get there.
Sawa: will do ^^
Chris: graci.
Sawa: james let me borrow/keep his copy. and he bought me Ovid's Metamorphoses, and Fight Club ^^
Chris: wow, very nice.
Chris: you ever read any Dean Koontz?
Sawa: spoiled me. maybe it was in return for allowing him **CENSORED FOR POSSIBLE ASSUMPTION :O**... ohoho, *have* i... yes. a handful. he's the one author i will buy without reading the backs.
Chris: ever read "from the corner of his eye" ?
Sawa: mmmnope.
Chris: do so.
Chris: it's all about that quantam theory stuff.
Sawa: mission accepted.
Chris: and it has the most amazingly fucked up evil type.
Sawa: that's always good.
Chris: yes.
Sawa: Ovid = yummy. *nodnod*
Chris: *agrees*
---
Chris: mm...so what are we going to do, exactly, when I come visit you?
Sawa: hm... good question.
Chris: no plans?
Sawa: seattle is my haven. there's nothing to do here.
Sawa: they have art galleries downtown. and a multiple layered movie theatre. and starbucks every block.
Chris: mm..
Seattle... is.... home......
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